"This is pointless, Blaine! I don't know how to be sexy because... I don't know the first thing about sex."
Blaine smiled. "Kurt, you're blushing!"
"I've tried watching those movies," Kurt admitted, "But I just get horribly depressed and I think about how they were all kids once and they all have mothers and god, what would their mothers think? And why would you get that tattoo there?"
"Maybe we should have a conversation about it," Blaine said serious now, "I'll tell you what I know..."
Kurt answered nothing. Talking about sex with the guy you like should probably be a dream, but he was too scared out. The only sexual encounters he's ever had were with a girl, which meant nothing to him and his forced first kiss with Karofsky. It took him everything to just keep breathing and not to start crying.
"Kurt? Are you okay? You haven't said anything."
He swallowed. "You said you aren't good with romance. Well, I am... not good with... things like... sex."
Blaine smiled. "We can help each other. Have you ever had sex-ed class?"
Kurt shook his head. No, he never had that. And from what he'd heard, they usually talked about abstinence and if they actually talked about sex, it was about straight couples.
"Do you like... Do you know things about sex, Kurt? Have you ever talked about it with someone?", Blaine asked.
The pale boy started talking. "I know about aids and STD's. And well... that gay guys can't do... it like straight couples... I've seen that on the Internet, but... I just don't get what the big deal is."
Blaine's mouth fell a little open. "It's... don't you ever get... excited? If you see a hot guy on a show? Or a sex scene in a movie?"
If Kurt hadn't been blushing before, he was definitely blushing now. Off course he got excited sometimes, he wasn't a robot. But what could he say? Admit to Blaine that he felt his blood rush south every time he saw him dance? That he had woken up several times with a hard-on if he had had a dream about him? No, he couldn't tell that. "Yeah, I get excited Blaine. I'm a guy and yeah, sometimes I can't control... it. But I just think about something else and... it goes away."
Oh god, Kurt was so pure... So humble... From what Blaine understood, Kurt had even never... played with himself. Wow. "So... If you don't want to answer, you don't have to tell me, but you've never... jerked yourself off?"
Kurt's eyes got big. "No. Never. I mean, I told you that I just keep thinking about how we all are so innocent when we are little. It's usually... like during Brokeback Mountain, and I know that is very cliché, but that was something that... turned me on. That was about love, not about sex."
"Okay," Blaine answered, "You've probably seen the wrong things, Kurt. Most porn movies, because I think that's what you mean with those movies, are just about sex. You know, they jack off, they give a blowjob, they do the deed and they have an orgasm. That's what most porn is about."
Blaine chuckled a little when he saw Kurt's reaction when he talked about porn. At the word blowjob, you could just see that he was disgusted.
"Tell me what you do, Blaine... You told me that you'd talk about what you know... What do you know?", he asked. Talking about it made him feel a little less silly. It was kind of... a relief to be able to talk about his feelings with a friend.
"I've never had a boyfriend, so I can't tell you a lot about how it is to have sex with someone else. But I think that it's just... Sex is like a present you give yourself. When I... play with myself, it feels already great and I can only imagine that it feels even better with someone you love." Blaine shrugged. That was just how he thought about it.
"Do you do it often?", Kurt blurted out. His face looked so in shock when he realized what he had asked that Blaine started laughing. "When I'm in the mood. Or when I've seen a sexy scene on the TV. It just feels good, Kurt."
Kurt was a little more confident about asking questions. Blaine didn't laugh with him and answered them without any problem. "Do you... Sorry for my inability to form sentences, by the way, but do you think of those scenes? When you're doing it?"
Blaine nodded. "I do. Every guy does. Just think about something you find sexy."
"Okay." The boy was making mental notes about this. If it was that good... he should try it. It'd make him more comfortable with his own body and it wasn't a bad thing. For god's sake, he was 17 and he'd never done anything sexual... That had to change.