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I don't own any of the characters used in this story, Stephenie Meyer does.

I turned over, twisted in the covers. I couldn't get back to sleep.

I thought things would be perfect now. Edward was back, he has been for a month or two now and everything was good again, just like things were before he left. But even though being with Edward made me so happy, made me whole again, I was still forever weighed down by an unbearable guilt. Being with Edward was killing my best friend. They were both natural enemies and both despised each other with a passion. The only reason they hadn't literally killed each other already was because of me, for some unbelievable reason they both loved me unconditionally. But I couldn't spend time with one without hurting the other. I loved Edward with all my heart but it was Jacob that had sewn my heart back together after Edward left me. Jacob deserved so much and I couldn't give anything to him, even the time I could give him was limited. Whenever I was with him I was constantly receiving phone calls from Edward checking I was safe so I could never concentrate and relax with Jacob. I hated the way things were between Jacob and myself.

I sighed and flipped my phone closed. Another call from Edward. I had just arrived outside Jacobs and he was already checking up on me. I loved Edward more then anything but he can be a little too overprotective.

I hopped out of the truck and walked up to the front door which was already open by the time I reached it. I was welcomed by Billy.

"Hey Bella. I think Jacob's still sleeping but you're more then welcome to go wake him. I'd rather you then me, that boy's a nightmare to wake" he gave me a warm smile then moved out my way to let me through. I returned the smile and made my way to Jacobs's room.

I opened the door slowly to try not to make too much noise. He was sprawled across his tiny bed, lying on his stomach. I walked over to him and sat on the edge of the bed. I watched his back raise and lower as he breathed. He looked so peaceful, it wouldn't be right to wake him but I didn't have to. The sound of my phone ringing broke the silence.

"If that's Cullen, tell him to die" Jacob mumbled into the pillow as he awoke from his interrupted sleep.

"Sorry Jake" I opened my phone and closed it immediately. It was my time with Jacob, not Edward.

"Wow, you're ignoring him? I feel special" Jacob fidgeted about so he was lying on his back.

"Well now that you're awake, what are we doing today?"

"I'm not awake" he covered his face with both his arms and I assumed he was trying to go back to sleep.

"You're dad told me to wake you up anyway. So up you get" I tugged at his covers but he snatched them back and brought them over his head. "Jacob! I'm bored. Wake up"

"Fine" he started kicking me so I would move to the far end of the bed, enabling him to roll off without any effort. "Why aren't you with Cullen anyway?" he stood up and ruffled his choppy hair around. I turned my gaze to the floor when I realised he was only wearing his underwear.

"He allowed me to see you. I haven't seen you for over a week" I looked up at him. He had his brows furrowed and he was staring intently at the floor. "Jacob?" he lifted his head slightly so he was looking at me again. "Would you mind putting on some clothes?" his frown was turning into a grin and he let out a little laugh while nodding.

"He really controls you doesn't he?"

"No he doesn't, Jake. Can we talk about something else?" I wouldn't say Edward controls me. He watches out for me, he only wants me safe and I guess its understandable seeing as him and Jacob are natural enemies, so it's not surprising that Edward doesn't trust him. I just wish he would lighten up a little. Jacob's no threat to me at all and he's my best friend, he'd never hurt me and I wish Edward would realise that, even just a little bit.

"I'm just saying, it's almost as if you have to ask him if you're allowed to do anything you want. No one should be allowed to control you like that" I met Jacob's gaze with my own which he greeted with a friendly smile. It was no secret Jacob had feelings for me, he hasn't exactly told me but he didn't need to. Everything he did cried out love. He's hugged me with everything he had and he never wanted to let go. Sometimes I'd catch him staring at me and whenever I'm half asleep on the sofa, I'll feel him stroke my hair away from my face. He kisses my forehead at every given chance and never pulls away untill he knows I start to feel uncomfortable. And I know that Edward being a vampire isn't the only reason he hates him, Jacob's tried a countless number of times to try to convince me to leave him.

I watched him as he slid his shirt over his head and down his body. He was perfectly sculpted, every muscle in his body was magnificent and he was the most loving person I ever knew and if Edward hadn't have returned there's no doubt in my mind that I'd give into temptation and be everything he wanted me to be. But Edward was back and I love him too much to ever do anything to hurt him even in the slightest.

"So then Jacob. What are we doing today?" I smiled to try and lighten the mood.

Jacob shrugged. "We could go see Emily and the pack? I'm pretty sure they've been missing ya"

I nodded. I loved Jacob's friends, they were all so welcoming, with the exception of Paul and Leah but I was sure they were starting loosen up. "Shall we feed you before we go?"

"I think you already know the answer to that" he turned around immediately and left the room, then headed for the kitchen.

After several bowls of cereal and half a loaf of bread, Jacob was full enough to leave. On the ride to Emily's I got another phone call from Edward which I'd have to answer this time.

"Hello Edward"

"Nice of you to answer"

"I'm sorry about earlier, I didn't mean to—" Jacob snatched the phone from my hand.

"Jake!"

"Hey Eddie!" Jacob had the phone up to his ear and I couldn't hear what Edward was saying to him, if he was saying anything at all. "Yeah well she's safe with me. No need to worry" he turned to face me then winked.

"Jacob, you're driving. Eye's on the road" I brought my knees up to my chest and looked out the window.

"Oi! Be nice or I wont give her back" in a way I was thankful I couldn't hear both sides of the conversation, I hated it when they fought. Jacob starting laughing "Come on Eddie, no need to be like that". Silence. "Looks like I'm keeping her then" I turned to face Jacob. He had hung up the phone and was holding it out for me to take back.

"Jacob, what did you do?"

"Hey, I was being civilised. He was the one being the jerk"

"No Jacob you were aggravating him which is probably why he was being a jerk. I know you hate him but you could at least try being a little kinder to my boyfriend"

"He's a shitty boyfriend, Bells. The sooner you realise that the better"

I sighed. I was stuck in the middle of the two people I cared about most and I hated it.

We were silent the rest of the journey to Emily's.

We were greeted as usual when we arrived. Quil and Embry fought to see which one would get to hug me first. Embry won this time and lifted me off my feet, spinning me around. I received regular greetings from the others and a scowl from Leah.

I was in the kitchen, helping Emily prepare the usual mountain of food to feed the guys.

"I haven't seen you in so long, Bella. We've missed you" Emily was always so kind to me.

"Sorry about that. It's been hard finding the time to come down here"

"You mean you've been finding it hard to get permission from Edward?" Emily wasn't usually one to make me feel uncomfortable; the rest of the pack normally does that.

"Erm… no, it's not like that"

"It's fine Bella. It must be hard being in your position. But the boys don't really understand it and it gets to Jacob, Sam told me. I don't mean to make you feel bad I just want you to know that we want what's best for Jacob and I think it's safe to say that what's best is your happiness"

"But I am happy" I didn't take my eyes away from stove.

"If you say so" Emily's tone was still friendly and warming. I loved her because she told me the truth but in a way that didn't really upset me. I'm sure she did it for the welfare of the pack more than me but I was still thankful for it.

My phone buzzed in my pocket for the third time this morning. I rolled my eyes and excused myself from Emily's presence.

"Hello?"

"Where are you?"

"I'm at Emily's with the pack. Why?"

"I just wanted to make sure you were safe"

"Edward, I'm surrounded by several werewolves, I think it's safe to say nothing's coming to get me"

"And you don't see the several werewolves as a danger at all?"

"No Edward, I don't. I'm safe, and I'll see you tonight. I love you very much and I miss you" I heard him sigh down the phone.

"I love you too Bella. Don't forget that"

I sighed and collapsed on the sofa I was stood infront of and was shortly joined by Jacob.

"Another check up from Eddie?"

"I don't think he likes it when you call him that"

"Why else would I do it?"

I rolled my eyes and sunk further into the sofa. Jacob took my hand into his and started weaving his fingers with mine. It wasn't out of the ordinary for us to hold hands. I allowed him to play with my fingertips and watched his concentration as he doodled with his index finger in the palm of my hand. He seemed so happy. I couldn't help myself; I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him tightly. I was stretched out across the sofa with my head on his chest. He chuckled a little and squeezed me back.

"Why the hug?" he stroked my head then rested his forehead against the top of my head.

"I felt like it"

"Aww, I thought it was because you love me" I felt him smile against my head.

I didn't say anything; I just squeezed him a little.

My phone buzzed once more in my pocket.

"I'm going to fucking kill him" Jacob took my wrists to stop my reaching for my phone. "Answer it and you die" I struggled against Jacob's strength who couldn't stop laughing at my frail attempts to release myself

"Jacob! He'll be mad"

"Then let him be mad. The little shit deserves it"

"Jacob!" he stood up, still holding onto my wrists and pulled me up with him.

"He doesn't deserve you Bells. No one does" he released one of my wrists and brought his hand up to my cheek where he stroked it lovingly. I couldn't pull myself away from him, not only because he was incredibly strong and wouldn't let me but because there was something in his eyes that I couldn't tear myself away from. He was inching closer and closer to me. I still couldn't move away. He brought his other hand to the small of my back and moved it up and down slowly, pulling me towards him a little more. I was becoming slightly breathless. I was scared; Jacob's done things like this before and every time I tried to pull away with all my strength but I was scared because this time I couldn't. I wouldn't.

Everything was interrupted by the vibrations my phone was causing in my pocket.

"Edward" his name came out in a whisper. Jacob released me and looked at the floor, not meeting my gaze once. I flipped open the phone and brought it to my ear, still keeping my eyes on Jacob. "Yes?"

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