A/N: Thank you to Johanna-002 for the inspiration! Go check out her stories if you don't follow her already- amazing writing :)
Days.
Weeks.
Months.
Red was curled in her pathetic excuse for a bed for she didn't know how long. She didn't know how much time had passed, she didn't know what day of the week it was. Didn't even know the month.
Her child was gone and that's all she knew for sure.
Red's not my mom…
Nicky's voice could be heard echoing in Red's mind for months.
*Flashback*
Red was standing still in the hall way. Staring so hollowly at the doorway that Nicky was just taken through. She didn't know for how long she was there. People were passing by her, looking at her, asking if she was ok. She was silent. In shock, disbelief, heartbreak…she felt as though a hot knife was just plunged into her heart and dragged down to her stomach. She was hurting so bad, yet felt so numb inside.
Finally the door opened again, and the last person to have seen her girl, the one who drove Nikcy to max, was walking right up to her.
"Pennsatucky!" Red called out with more energy than she knew she had.
"Hiya, Red."
"How is she?" Red was desperate.
"Honestly?" Pennsatucky hesitated.
Red nodded her head vigorously, not yet letting her tears fall.
"She's probably going to hate max, well I mean everyone does, right? But she's probably going to be ok." Pennsatucky finished and started to walk away.
"Wait! What did she say? Did she say anything?" Red grabbed Pennsatucky by the arm, pleading with her for any detail she could pass along.
"Yeah but I don't know if you need to hear it." She said flatly.
"Of course I do! I'm her mother, tell me!"
"See that's the thing…" Pennsatucky slowed down as she saw Red getting angry at what she thought Pennsatucky was implying.
"She said 'Red's not my mom.'" Pennsatucky finished and backed away.
"What?" Red was in disbelief.
"Look that's just what she said. I asked her if she said bye to her family. She said what family. Then I said you know your mom. And that's when she said-"
"I'm not her mom." Red finished for her, letting a single tear trickle down her face as she realized what her girl's last words were.
Pennsatuky, not knowing Red all that well, simply walked away.
Red stood there thinking of her girl's face. One minute Nicky was smiling at her, the next you're not my mom.
Red made her way to her bunk. Once there, she curled up on her side with her knees to her chest, finally crying her heart out like she never had before, not in prison and not in life.
You're not my mom. You're not my mom. You're not my mom.