So This is My First ever Fanfiction that I'm submitting. I've written a lot but I've never submitted anything for other's to read. This story just kind of popped into my head while doing a roleplay with a friend. So if you have any creative critiques to what I could fix or anything, it would be very helpful.
I plan on this having quite a few chapters, like maybe 5-7 or more depending on how much you actually like it. Yes it's a little angsty but I mean, it's Zexion no? I picture anything with him is kind of Angsty.
Warnings: Yaoi, Angst, Cursing,
Pairings: Main; Zemyx Implied; VexMar, XigDem (More To Come~)
As I lay there...my stomach and chest open and bleeding, blood running down my cheek and into my eyes. I started to think to myself...Why me? Why did this have to happen to me? What did I do in my past existance, if there was one, to deserve this pain? It must have been really bad, since I'm laying here now slowly starting to fade away. I slowly lifted a gloved hand and placed it on my stomach. I remember now. I remember how this happened...How this all start. It was no thanks to him.
"Zexion if I were you I would stop day dreaming while in my lab." Vexen snapped at the bluenette. Zexion jumped slightly and looked over at the blonde haired man slowly. He scoffed softly. "I was doing no such thing Vexen. Why don't you get your mind out of the gutter about Marluxia yourself?"
Vexen stood there dazed for a moment, Zexion didn't usually act like this. He finally snapped out of it and narrowed his eyes at his apprentice. "Well then Zexion, you know how I feel when you say things like that. Now if you don't mind leaving I would appreciate it." He crossed his arms, the room gaining a faint chill. Zexion glared over as shadows on the wall danced about for a moments time. He slowly stood up from his spot in the corner of the lab though. He said not a word but headed out of the lab in defeat. Vexen watched the boy leave before sighing softly and shaking his head as he went back to work.
Zexion was walking slowly down the hall. It seemed as the days went by, the castle got more and ever more quiet. It may have just been the fact that Zexion had stopped paying attention to a lot of things. He didn't know why he had a lot on his mind lately. Though he knew most of it pretained to his boyfriend, Demyx. He had been hearing some lovely rumors that his boyfriend was cheating on him with none other but Xigbar. When he confronted the two a few time they didn't seem to know what he was talking about. Either the two were very good at lying or he was just dense, because he had just nodded and left after they told him this. He sighed as he got to the library. Infact, now that he thought about it, where was his boyfriend? As he walked into the library he found the blond looking around. "Demyx what are you doing in here?" Zexion asked, folding his arms.
Demyx jumped and turned quickly. "Looking for you! What else would I be doing?" He smiled, hurrying over to the bluenette and taking his hands, even though it was a bit awkward.
Zexion couldn't help but smile at this. How could he even dare he think that Demyx was cheating on him? What proof did anyone have of this, this blatant lie. "I don't know, getting a book by chance?" Zexion looked up at him. Demyx began to laugh at this until Zexion glanced over and saw Xigbar looking around. He frowned and let go of Demyx's hands. The blond blinked and turned to looked at where the bluenette was glaring.
"Hey Demyx, I was looking for you." Xigbar hurried over and smirked. The smirk vanished once he noticed the bluenette. "Oh, hello there Zexion." Xigbar glanced at him before looking at Demyx expectantly.
Zexion quickly pulled away and glared at the two. "They're right aren't they?" He gritted out quickly and turned away. "They were always right weren't they?" Zexion murmured.
"Zexion they're not right! We told you this before! I promise..." Demyx began to panic, he loved Zexion and didn't want to loose him. That much was obvious.
"Oh Demyx why don't we just give up and tell him?" Xigbar quickly wrapped his arms around Demyx's waist. The blond tried to pull away to no avail. The dark haired male only chuckled in responce as Zexion glaned over with a look of utter discust. Demyx may not want to loose him, but Zexion didn't look like he felt the same way at the moment.
"No, we're done Demyx. You hear? Done. I can't believe you would do such a thing to me. I was always there for you. I never cheated on you or anything, but you do this? Obviously I can trust absolutely in this castle other than Xemnas and Vexen. Thank you Demyx, thank you." Zexion snapped. With that said Zexion stomped off to leave a dumbfounded Xigbar and stunned Demyx. Zexion felt his eyes sting and get wet. He rubbed them with the back of a gloved hand. He had no clue where he was going but he just kept on walking...
Demyx watched in disbelief as Zexion walked away quickly. He turned around to Xigbar and began to hit at his chest. "Why! How could you!" He tried to get away from the other, calling out the blue haired males name. Xigbar just pulled Demyx closer.
"Hey now. Calm down isn't this what you wanted kid?" Xigbar kissed Demyx's head very gently. Demyx stopped flailing only to start crying. "No! Remember I told you what I wanted! This wasn't it...I didn't want this...No." Demyx shook his head. "Why'd you ruin it...?" Demyx looked up at Xigbar, tears running down his now red cheeks.
"Sorry kid...Didn't remember at the time...I kinda acted off of instinct..." Xigbar sighed, rubbing his back gently. "Come on let's go sit down and relax..."
Demyx looked back over his shoulder, the bluenette was no longer in sight. He sighed and nodded to the other male. Slowly following him out of the library and towards the grey room.
Eventually Zexion made it into the garden. He had no clue how, but he also didn't care either. He just continued to walk slowly, constantly rubbing his sore, red eyes. Suddenly his foot got caught on a root and he tumbled onto the ground. He just laid there for a moment, not wanting to get up. That was until a shadow loomed over him.
"Oh Zexion watch where you're going. You know how long I tend to these flowers no? It'd be the same if I walked into the library and threw books onto the ground." Marluxia stood above the boy, completely unaware of the current situation. "Besides shouldn't you be helping my Vexen in the lab or with Demyx?"
At the sound of the water boy's name Zexion hiccuped slightly and curled up. He shook his head slightly and sighed shakily. "N-No..." His voice cracked. "Vexen made me leave and D-Demyx...cheated on me...Why would I be with either of the two?" He asked softly, trying not to show much weakness.
It took a moment for the pink haired man to comprehend this. He knelt down quickly and gathered the boy into his arms. Zexion was stunned at this sudden action but the 'emotion' slipped away quickly. "Oh Zexion why didn't you just say that in the first place? I don't know what Demyx sees in that old crusty man." Marluxia began to gently stroke his back. Zexion just laid there against Marluxia's chest, his head on his shoulder. He slowly shut his eyes again.
"I don't know...Maybe it was better this way...better for him probably." Zexion muttered to the other. The shadows of the plants began to swirl around like dark tentacles.
"Zexion don't say things like that, you don't know the truth." Marluxia frowned as he noticed the shapes the shadows were making, crawling closer towards them.
"Like it matters much anymore." Zexion gritted out. His hands clenched tightly. "It's over and it just doesn't matter anymore. Why did I ever give into these false emotions. We have no hearts therefore we can not feel anything. Why did I give into to his false accusations of having a heart, emotions..." As Zexion talked the shadows got bigger, and more menacing. "I shouldn't believe in these things we can't prove." He growled as salty tears stained his cheeks. The darkness swirled around and closer to them, slowly crawling up their bodies.
"How can you say that Zexion? Didn't you feel hurt when you finally noticed he was cheating? Aren't you crying now because of the saddness? You can't tell me these are all fake emotions. You can't tell me that I don't truely love Vexen. I mean, like you it's not like we met them when we were somebodies. So these feeling can't be falsafied from our past existance. We feel them now." Marluxia frowned and looked at the smaller boy. He was trying his best to ignore the creepy, cold shadowy touch.
The illusions of the swirling shadows stopped almost suddenly and dissapeared. The room no longer felt as eerie. It was obvious Zexion had no come back or explination for this at the moment. He just sat there pondering this for a moment. "Alright...you win this round...I am to tired to think clearly." He muttered under his breath.
"Alright, lie all you want. You know what I said makes sense." Marluxia chuckled under his breath softly. "Come on now, get up. Let's go talk to Vexen and try to get this little thing off your mind." Marluxia stood up and set Zexion down slowly. He headed inside after smiling at the boy.
Zexion just watched the pink haired man go for a moment. He stood there silently, glancing around at all the flowers. There were so many different kinds of flowers currently growing. "He's just like Vexen...works hard for what he loves..." Zexion murmured softly. "What do I have to show?" He murmured, crossing his arms over his stomach slowly and heading towards the doors where Marluxia was waiting.
"Come on now, no dawdling now." Marluxia put a hand on his upper back before heading inside. The doors slowly shut behind them.
Zexion just looked a head, thinking to himself quietly.
Now what am I supposed to do...but lay here and slowly die?
Well I really hope you enjoyed it. Chapter 2 should be out either by tonight or this weekend~3 Please Rate and Review~