Sometimes it's a pair of old faded denim I know
Is gonna fit me like a friend or some radio song
You can't help but sing along
Wishing they'd spin it over and over again
Could be the windows down on a Sunday drive
Smell of rain on a summer night
Anything that brings a little more comfort my way
But sometimes there's those times it's gotta be you
I keep telling myself I'm moving on but I'm stumbling
Believing my heart was strong enough and now I'm wondering
But every step I take that leads me away
Just circles back to your door
Wishing I didn't love you anymore
I've tried turning to the arms of someone new
But I can't seem to fool this fool
I've seen closing times with every bottle dry
I've seen days alone in my own room
I'll ask God and magazines
Stacks of books and movie screens
Anything to bring a little more comfort my way
But sometimes there's those times it's gotta be you
I keep telling myself I'm moving on but I'm stumbling
Believing my heart was strong enough but now I'm wondering
'Cause every step I take that leads me away
Just circles back to your door
Wishing I didn't love you anymore
You give me more
I've done everything I can to forget
If there is a way I ain't found it yet
I keep telling myself I'm moving on believing my heart was strong
But every step I take that leads me away
Just circles back to your door, wishing I didn't love you
What I'd give if I could touch you,
Wishing I didn't love you anymore
-WISHING-
Jenny Shepard sat in her office. The seconds felt like minutes, and the minutes felt like hours. Case file after case file to look through. Nothing was fun anymore. Her life revolved around her job, nothing else. Getting home from work late at night was becoming a regular occurrence. Jenny put her head on her arms and laid them down on the desk. It was hopeless. She had nothing to look forward to when she got home, just a sleepless night and more work in the morning. She used to do things that were enjoyable. Jenny remembered coming home to Noemi's cooking, sharing it occasionally with a friend, or even inviting Ziva over for the evening sometimes. Or the best—going home to take a nice, long, hot bath and relaxing for the rest of the night. She wanted that life back, but she wanted someone back most of all.
It was dark outside and pouring rain. Jenny couldn't see ten feet in front of her on the road. But, almost unconsciously, she took the long way home again. This road let her drive past a certain subordinate of hers, which she looked forward to each day. To the man on the inside of the house, it just looked like another car driving past his house, late at night. But to the woman, it was so much more.
Jenny arrived at her house after her detour and headed straight to her liquor cabinet. She took out a customary bottle of bourbon and poured herself a glass. She drained it in one gulp and refilled it immediately. Jenny never liked drinking alone. It gave her a sense of emptiness that could only be filled by a love, or the rest of the bottle, whichever came first. It was usually the latter. Jenny sat down in a chair in her study and opened up a book. She usually liked reading. But the words were swirling on the page today, and just looking at it was making her dizzy. Jenny shut it forcefully and leaned back. She wanted to be able to lean back into the arms of her love, to fall asleep encircled by him. It wasn't going to happen. He had moved on, and she hadn't. Jenny knew it was her fault they ended like they did. It didn't fit in her plan. But now, she would give up everything in her life for the one thing she gave up. Jenny tried to forgive herself and forget about Paris, to forget about the letter. But she knew it wouldn't. She wanted him now, not to be the first female director of an armed federal agency. She wished she didn't love him anymore. She wished that she was able to move on. But she was just wishing…
A/N: I know this probably isn't the best story, but I thought the song went perfectly with Jibbs. Maybe I'll write a second chapter with Gibbs but maybe not. And I have a new multi-chapter story hopefully coming soon! Hope you liked it though :/ Please read and review.