Hope.
That's not really something I believe in anymore. I lost hope a long time ago, and I can't even remember why. All I can remember was being sad all the time - but I had no idea why I was sad. I still don't know why I'm so sad... I just can't keep my chin up for some reason. I have a nice life, though. I mean, for a butterfly. I have a good life. Merlon lets me get away with murder, essentially, not that I do anything bad. I like to read his books and flutter around by myself, but I don't really do anything wrong. I met a strange man today. He seemed familiar to me, but I really didn't bat an eyelash at him. He told me he wanted to destroy the universe. For some reason, I got defensive. I don't want the universe to go away. I like it here, I think... If there's no universe, there's nowhere for me to explore. No people for me to meet. No memories for me to find.
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Hope.
A foolish sentiment. Without her, there is no reason for hope. Timpani is long-dead, of this Count Bleck knows. She would be upset to know I've changed my name. I can't bear to hear it anymore.
"Blumiere". When I hear that word, it is in her darling voice. Count Bleck's heart hurts when he hears it.
So, a new name to go with a new man plagued by the old. She is the reason I will end this world and all others. They mean nothing without her to grace them. Count Bleck will be destroyed with him. I will be very disappointed should there be life after death. Perhaps Timpani will be there, however. I doubt we are going to the same place. I deserve eternal fire for what my actions caused for her. Still, I searched, that annoying "hope" buzzing in my mind. Along the way, I found minions. My plans unfolded. They had nothing. I had nothing. It was decided that there was no use for any of us in these wretched worlds. Destroying them was our final option.