Anything for You
A/N:G2 here this story is all mine and was inspired by the songs called Doorway to My Dreams by JoJo and Breathe by Taylor Swift. All the songs belong to their owners. And the characters belong to Stephanie Meyer. I don't own anything except for the plot. This is just for entertainment. It took me months to write and I enjoyed doing it. I hope you'll enjoy reading it and let me know what you think about it.
P.S. This story might be a tear jerker for you. So get those tissues ready.
Chapter 1: Dreams Before Love: A Tearful Goodbye
Playlist:
(Really listen to the songs in order as you read the story. It"ll really get u in the mood.)
Mario~ The Hardest Moment
Whitney Houston~ I Will Always Love You
Breathe~ Taylor Swift
J. Holiday~ Fly
Disclaimer: Don't own shit.
Bpov:
I'm have to go to Hollywood, California!
There's only one problem…
My boyfriend and I live together in Forks, Washington.
For those of you who don't know, I'm Isabella Swan I have brown hair and brown eyes. My boyfriend Edward Cullen, has messy bronze hair, emerald green eyes, a beautiful face and the most beautiful muscular body… I could go on about him for days, so I'm going to stop myself now. Anyways, we've been together for six years and I've known him for eight.
Ever since I was a little girl I've wanted to become a singer. I took choir all throughout middle school and high school. When I was in college I sung for a restaurant. As I matured I began to realize I wasn't going to become famous and that it was just a pipe dream. That was until just a few weeks ago. I was singing at a club for fun and a producer was there. She loved my voice and well the rest is history. I received and accepted an invite to Hollywood to begin my career as a singer.
As for Edward, he wants to work in emergency medicine. He's in his second year of medical school and recently got his transfer accepted by John Hopkins, which is the best medical school in the country. Sounds good and everything, I'm really proud of him for his accomplishments. However, it's in Maryland.
I'm not a selfish person. I love him and I want him to have the best. So I didn't even ask him to come with me. I don't want to crush his dreams and I know he feels the same. We agreed to be in a long distance relationship. It's breaking my heart to leave him but, I gotta follow my dream and he has to follow his. I already said my goodbyes to my friends and family, whom I'm going to miss. They all decided to let Edward take me to the airport, alone. My time is up and I have to leave tomorrow.
~0~0~0~
I opened my eyes and stared at my bedroom wall. This is my last day here. In my home, with my boyfriend. I'm going to miss my beautiful little place. Edward, who knows when I'm going to see him again. I sighed. I both hated and enjoyed the situation I was in. I was going to miss him most of all.
"Edward." I ran my hands up and down his naked back
It's going to be a while before I see him again so I'm not going to let sleep interfere.
"Edward, wake the fuck up!" I shook him harder and he groaned and peeked through his eyes.
"What, Bella? I'm trying to sleep."
"Fine! Forget it!" I sat up in bed and I felt the bed move indicating he was up too.
He hugged me from behind and laid his chin on my shoulder. All of the stress I had felt automatically disappeared. I grasped the charm on my neck that said B&E. A sapphire heart was in the middle.
I reminisced on the day he gave it to me…
It was on a random day where we were on a casual date. By the we had been together for almost two years. We were playing in the snow and I fell pulling him down on top of me. He laughed and told me he loved me. We started to kiss and when we pulled apart I noticed the necklace. And pushed him back down to the ground.
"Be-" I turned my head around and kissed him passionately. I there was too much stress and I wanted to forget about all of it. I wanted to be carefree again. He kissed me back with the same passion after a minute of shock. I refused to let him pull away from me, I held onto him tighter, throwing my arms around his neck. We fell back on the bed, I was on top.
I needed to forget. I wanted to forget even for a little while.
I needed him.
He knew what I wanted and rolled us over until he was above me. "I'm going to worship you to make sure you never forget that." He whispered to my lips until they met mine. This kiss was so gentle and sweet. I felt as if he poured his heart in to our lips and I did the same. Our lips moved in synchronization like they were one. Like we were one. I was losing touch with reality and lost in his arms. He pulled away and looked into my eyes.
He unbuttoned his shirt off of me kissing every part of skin that showed. When he reached the last one he looked at my body with so much love. His lips touched mine chastely, then I felt them brush my neck. I turned my head slightly to give him more leverage. Our naked chests were pressed against each other's. My hands were in his hair as he lathered my neck in kisses.
"Harder, Edward. I want your mark on me." I whispered in his ear. Instantly I felt his tongue and teeth on my skin, soon he closed his lips down on my neck. I moaned at the pleasure it gave me. He moved lower and left trails of kisses down to my collarbone.
"You're beautiful." He whispered.
I watched him move to my breasts and gasped when he placed a kiss over my heart. He cupped them gently and slid his thumb over my nipples. I moaned in pleasure when he licked and sucked on my left breast while twirling his tongue on my nipple. He moved to give my right the same attention soon after. He looked into my eyes as he placed delicate kisses down to my bellybutton. I couldn't look away. Edward looks so sexy when he's on top of me. He ran his hands down my thighs, skipping the area I needed him most.
"Edward." I half whined-whimpered, frustrated. He was driving me insane. I was going to combust if he didn't do something soon.
"Patience, Love" He chuckled.
His hands pulled my underwear down to my thighs, legs and then they were off. Once again he rubbed my thighs. Before I could complain again, he was there. I moaned and arched off the bed when his tongue touched my clit. He placed both of his hands on my waist to hold me down. This man hand a magic tongue and he knew how to use it. He knew just how I liked and wanted it. Moving was a reflex, I couldn't control myself. I screamed and thrashed while he slowly devoured me. I know he was being sweet and loving. I know I asked him to make love to me but I didn't want that anymore. I wanted it to be in between.
Sweet yet rough.
It. Was. Frustrating.
"Faster!" I screamed.
"Patience is a virtue, Bella." He said. I knew his ass was smirking even though I couldn't see him.
"Fuck that. You better get back down there and go faster." I panted getting slightly pissed off. I was a very impatient person.
"Anything for you."
He ducked his head down and finally went faster and it was driving me crazy. I lifted my hands to run them through his hair and scalp, I felt the vibrations as he moaned.
"Fuck! Just like that!" I screamed when he twisted his tongue inside me.
He let my waist go with one hand and I suddenly felt three fingers join in, he moved them in and out, in a rhythm while he sucked on my clit with his tongue. His tongue and fingers. I have no words to describe the pleasure they gave me.
"Don't stop! Please don't stop!" I moaned as he brought me closer to another release I wanted desperately.
"I don't plan on it. I love the way you taste." He said after he slightly pulled away then continued back to where he left off. He likes to talk during sex and it turns me on so much more.
"Mmmm, oooh."
I felt that tightening in my stomach I always get before my climax. My whole body started to shake violently. He knew I was on my way to cuming when I pulled roughly on his hair.
If I was hurting him I didn't hear any complaints. He continued his ministrations.
"E-Edward… I'm… Oh." I panted.
"Come for me, baby. I want to taste all of you." He nibbled on my clit softly and curled his fingers hitting my G-spot.
"FUCK! EDWARD!" I screamed and held his head to me as my orgasm hit me full force. He continued to move his fingers inside of me as he licked me clean. I was too weak and released my hold on him.
"Mmm, tasty." He licked his lips. Then he licked my clit one more time. I was so sensitive from the first time I came again, even harder than the last.
He kissed and licked his way up my body, sensually until he reached my breasts. He licked and sucked my nipples.
"Ooooh." I moaned when I felt his erection on my thigh. Yes, all eight inches of it.
Wait when did his boxers come off?
He looked up at me and smirked. I grabbed him around the neck and kissed him. I could taste myself on his lips. It wasn't pleasant, but I didn't give a flying fuck about that. He sucked on my bottom lip and I sucked on his top. This kiss wasn't slow, passionate or sweet. It was hasty, hard, fast. It was a primal need. I pulled back.
"Your turn." I signaled for him to turn over.
"No, this is about you, love." He said gently. I could tell he didn't want to refuse my offer.
"I want to give you pleasure too." I ran my hands down his chest all the way to his happy trail and up repeatedly.
I knew he wouldn't have let me do anything to him unless I made it about me. He was a gentleman like that. He made some noise and let me turn him over so that he was laying on his back. His chest was beautiful, which always made it hard for me to look away. I traced my fingers down his perfect chest all the way down to his eight pack. He was perfect.
I leaned my head down and sucked on the pulse point on his neck. I observed my work to make sure I left a mark. After that I crawled down his body to kiss his chest and lick his abs really slowly, teasing him. I rocked my hips against him. We both groaned at the feelings it gave us. I trailed my fingers up and down his thigh, teasingly. He watched my every move.
"Fuck, baby!" He groaned irritated. He held onto my ass while I continued to grind onto his cock.
"Getting a little impatient are we?" I asked him smirking, knowingly. I looked up at him and noticed he moved his hands to his hair.
I stuck my finger into my mouth and sucked on it. Then I twirled it on the head of his cock repeatedly.
"Damn it, Bella! Stop teasing me!" He hissed impatiently.
"Patience is a virtue, Edward." I repeated to him the same thing he said earlier.
"Ugh!"
I decided to put him out of his misery and scooted down more until I was facing his savoring dick. Then I turned around so that he was facing my ass.
"Bella what are you- Oh, fuck!"
I gripped his big member in my hand and he hissed once again. Then I rubbed my hand up and down a couple of times in a circular motion. After a few more times I stopped my movements and bent my head down and licked the precum off his tip. His hips bucked into my hand. He gripped my legs and slid me closer to his face. I licked his base from bottom to top then I put his head into my mouth and sucked on it.
"Bella," he moaned.
Slowly, I placed the rest of his cock into my mouth. I turned my hands in a circular motion to the same rhythm on the rest that I couldn't fit in my mouth, which wasn't much.
"Fuck!" I love it when he curses.
I sucked and bobbed my head up and down slowly, at first then I sped up. He licked my slit from top to bottom. I screamed and twirled my tongue when I reached his head and went back down. I felt him breathe into me and I pulled away from him to scream again. I started to grind my onto his face and sucked him harder and faster.
Ah, the 69 my favorite position!
"Mmm…" I moaned while he was in my mouth.
"Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Baby please don't stop!" He pulled his mouth away from me and shouted feeling the vibrations.
He turned us over to our sides and started to thrust in my mouth slowly. I grabbed onto his ass to pull him closer. I was sucking on his cock like it was the best sucker in the world because, to me, it was. I touched his balls with my other hand and he bucked a little too hard and hit the back of my throat.
"Fuck, I need you right now, baby!" He grunted.
"Mmm." I moaned at the sound of his voice.
I took my mouth off of him with a pop. He flipped me over so I was facing him again. Then he flipped us again, so that he was on top of me. He leaned onto his elbow, not to smash me.
"I love you, Bella." He whispered in my ear while he hovered me.
"I love you too, Edward." I whispered back to him.
He gripped his cock and brought it to my throbbing heat. Pushing into me bit by bit until I was filled. We both moaned and groaned at the pleasure we felt. He stilled, letting me adjust. He kissed my cheeks, nose, forehead, eyes, chin and the corner of my lips as we adjusted to the contentment we were feeling. Our lips finally met when he began to move gradually inside of me. Moving his mouth to my neck only when we needed to breathe.
We didn't use protection I was on birth control and we were both virgins when we met each other. He pulled out and pushed back in slowly, intensely. I wrapped my arms around his neck held onto his hair.
This is what I meant about in between. At first we were fucking around and now we're making love. Giving everything we have to each other. He gripped my waist with one hand and I wrapped my legs around his ass. He grunted at the feeling of the new position while he continued his slow movements.
"Edward. Oh, Edward." I moaned his name over and over again when I trembled. He thrusted into me one more time and we both cried out when we came. He flipped us over so I was laying on his chest while he was still inside me.
"Are you tired?" I asked him after I came down from my high.
"No." He growled.
"Good. Sit up. I'm ready for round two."
He sat up into a sitting position and I lowered myself onto his lap facing him. I held onto his shoulders and rode him, hard. He guided me by my waist. This was another one of my favorite positions. We continued to change positions and made sweet, blissful love to each other all morning long.
~0~0~0~
We were eating dinner at the kitchen table in our apartment. Neither of us had appetites so we just picked in our food silently after a couple of bites. Until Edward set down his fork and broke the silence.
"I've been thinking…" He said when he looked up into my eyes.
"About?" I bit my lip nervously. He sighed then shook his head.
"Never mind. It's nothing. Forget I said anything."
"No, what were you going to say?" I persisted.
I don't know why I asked. I could already tell by his eyes. My heart started to beat abnormally.
"I think we should end our relationship." He said in a monotonous tone.
"What?" I felt the familiar lump in my throat. The one that hurts until you cry.
"I want to break-"He stopped talking when I dropped my fork onto the plate, hard.
"Don't. We agreed we would call and visit each other whenever we could." I stated.
"I know, we did but-" He said without any emotion in his voice.
"But nothing." I interrupted.
"We're going to two different states. I think this is the best thing for us… I'm sorry." He looked away from me.
"I'm sorry. That's all you have to say? I'm sorry. No, you're not. You wouldn't have to say it if you were. Why are you doing this? We already agreed."
"I know we did."
"Don't you still love me?" He ran his hands through his hair. It was a nervous habit of his. He also did it when he was upset and stressed out.
"You know I do."
"I thought I did." I said sadly as I stood from the table. He got out of his chair and walked towards me.
"Bella." I walked away from him.
"No, why are you doing this?" I asked him.
"It's the right thing to do." He explained brokenly.
"I don't think it is!" I yelled stubbornly. He tried to reach for me again but I pulled away.
"Bella, don't be difficult."
"It's because you don't l-love me anymore. Isn't it?" I said as the tears came and silently fell down my cheeks. I knew he loved me. It just sort of came out of my mouth. I was feeling slightly insecure.
"Don't be ridiculous, Bella." He rolled his eyes.
"I'm not being ridiculous!" I retorted stubbornly.
"Bella-"
"No! Say it! Say you don't love me anymore!" I screamed at him while the tears just kept coming down.
"How could you think that after all this time?" He shouted back releasing his temper. Then he stopped and pinched the bridge of his nose, trying to calm himself down.
"You're dumping me! What the hell am I supposed to think?"
"I'm doing this for us, Bella." He lowered his voice and said while he walked closer to me.
"Say it!" He walked closer to me and I backed up.
"I won't because it's not true." I backed up again.
"Say it!" I repeated.
I kept walking until I bumped into a wall. He placed both of his hands on each side of my face gingerly and wiped my tears away with his thumbs. It didn't make a difference because they kept coming down. He leaned his head down and gently placed his lips on mine. Pulling away after a minute or two.
"I do love you. I always have and I always will. It hurts me to hear you say you don't believe that after six years." He voice cracked and one tear fell down his cheek. "Don't you understand I'm doing this so you can be happy? This has been your dream since you were a little girl. I don't want to take anything away from you. You deserve the world and more. I don't want you to leave me. Bella, you and only you have my heart. Don't ever doubt that or me." He was still holding my face in his hands.
I knew that he loved me. I was just being stupid because of my emotions and I let my insecurities get the best of me. As I looked into his eyes I saw nothing but the sincerity in his words.
I saw his soul.
I lifted one hand and wiped his tear away. That one tear said it all. I had never seen him cry before in all the time I've known him. My heart broke even more knowing I was the reason for his tear. He held my hand to his cheek and stared into my eyes.
"I'm sorry. For everything. I didn't mean it." I said as tears silently fell down my cheeks. I wrapped my arms around his waist as tightly as I could. He let go of my face and did the same.
"Bella. Please don't cry." I shook my head furiously and gripped his shirt.
"No, no, no, no, no! Please don't do this. Come with me. Please."
I lifted my head up to look into his beautiful green eyes and pleaded with him desperately. He didn't answer he just held me even tighter and kissed the top of my head. I didn't want him to. I knew it was selfish of me to ask him to come with me. I just didn't care at that moment. All I was thinking about was losing him.
"Please don't do this. Don't end us. I can't…" I broke down and sobbed.
"Bella. I don't want to see you this way. Don't make it harder than it already is." He said with a strained voice.
"P-please d-don't do this. I'm b-begging y-y-you. Don't throw s-s-six years aw-way." I entreated him through sobs.
"I'm so sorry, Bella." He whispered.
I gave up. I lost all hope for us. I dropped my arms and my knees gave out on me. He caught me before I fell to the floor. It didn't even feel as if he was holding me anymore. We had only broken up once and that didn't even last for a day. We were inseparable. I didn't know what to do anymore. I felt like I couldn't even breathe without him. He was my life. I was just an empty shell without him.
We didn't say anything else. I cried until my throat burned. I cried until my face was dry. I cried and cried and cried until it was impossible. He held me the entire time without saying a word.
I must have fallen asleep because I woke up in Edward's arms, he was carrying me to our bedroom. He pulled the covers down and laid me in bed while he sat down on his side of the bed.
"Edward?" I asked hoarsely. My throat was dry and I could barely talk.
"Yes?"
"Aren't you going to lay down?"
"No." His voice was different it was low and emotionless. I couldn't take it with him sitting there like that.
"Can you get me some water?"
"Sure." He got up and left.
I decided to go to the bathroom and wash my face. When I saw my reflection in the mirror I didn't recognize myself. My eyes were bloodshot and swollen, my face was puffy and there were black lines down my cheeks from the mascara I wore. I left soon after I washed my face as best as I could. He came back shortly with a water bottle and I drank it all down greedily. All that crying had made me thirsty.
~0~0~0~
It was two a.m. when I woke up in bed alone. A song was playing in my head and caused me to wake up. Edward wasn't in the room. I retrieved my guitar out of the closet, walked into our living room and sat down on the couch. The words were flowing in my head so I wrote them down. I always did this when I thought of a new song. It was about how I can't breathe without him. I don't know where he was but two hours later, I suddenly felt his presence in the room.
I turned my head to look at him. And he only stood there. I stared into his eyes, stroked the strings and began to sing.
I see your face in my mind when I drive away
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people
And sometimes we change our minds
But its killing me to see you go after all this time
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie,
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around
And we know it's never simple
Never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
But people are people
And sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out
And we know it's never simple
Never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
It's two a.m.
Feelin like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy
Easy for me
It's two a.m.
Feelin like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy
Easy for me
And we know it's never simple
Never easy
Never a clean break
No one here to save me
Ohhh
And I can't
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Oooh
Sorry (oh) sorry (mmm)
Sorry (yeah) (yeah) (eh) sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh) (eh) sorry (mmm)
Sorry
His eyes widened slightly when I mentioned the part about changing minds. I did include that part in the song because he did and it's killing me. I knew it wasn't going to be a clean breakup. We've known each other for eight years. We both relied on each other too much. This was going to be hard and messy. It already was. I knew I had to go but I didn't want to. This song was coming from my heart. The lyrics were true I wasn't going to be able to breathe without him. Writing out my feelings and singing them to him was therapeutic to me. I closed my eyes as tears began to roll silently down my face, again. When I finished he smiled his dazzling smile. We didn't say anything until after I set my guitar to the side.
"You wrote that?"
"I had inspiration."
"I'm sorry. I-"
"Don't Edward." I interrupted calmly.
"Bella I was wrong. I'm sorry I put you through that. I want to be with you forever. But you have such a beautiful voice and the world should know it too. I don't want to hold you back." He walked over and knelt in front of me.
"What makes you think so?" I set down my guitar, pulled my legs up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them, wishing they were his instead.
"You're talented, beautiful, funny and everything else people like." "
"No, what makes you think you'll hold me back."
"Baby," he paused and blew out air.
"You're delusional if you think that. I don't want us to be over. You really wanna throw away 6 years?"
"No Bella."
"Then don't. I can't do this without you. I don't want this without you. Please…" He shook his head and held close and I didn't cry this time. "I can just see you singing this song in front of your fans." He said after a moment of silence.
"I would never sing this song to anyone else." I shook my head.
"Why? It's amazing."
"It's too personal. It's ours." I knew people did it all the time but I didn't want to. It seemed wrong to me.
"People do it all the time. You have to play this song, Bella. It's too good not to, other people should hear it." He encouraged. "Promise me you'll sing it when you become famous."
"Fine, I promise." I could never say no to him.
"You will make it." He said confidently.
"I hope so….This better be worth it. I'm losing you over this." I murmured more to myself than him.
"You still have me Bella. Only you. I'll always love you"
"You'll always be in my heart." I said sadly as I snuggled up to him.
"Did you just quote that song from Tarzan?" He raised his eyebrows.
"You just quoted Whitney Houston." I retorted playfully. He was so corny at times, always quoting songs, poems, etc.
"No."
"Yes, you know the song called 'I Will Always Love You.'"
"I changed it up a bit, though." He said complacently.
"One word. Congratulations." I commented sarcastically.
"The point is we both meant what we quoted."
"Yeah. I meant it." I smiled sadly.
"I know. We'll see each other again sometime in the future. I'm sure of it." He sounded like he was trying to convince himself more than me.
"You sure about that?"
"Positive."
"I hope so." I looked down at my knees. "
"You have nothing to apologize for. That was yesterday. Today is a new day."
"But-"
"No, buts."
"I want you to know how sorry I am."
"Love?"
"Hmm?"
"Shut up."
"You suck."
"Weren't you doing that earlier?" He asked arrogantly.
"Fuck you." I retorted. He threw his head back and laughed.
"You already did." I glared at him. Which made him laugh harder. I smiled. His laugh was the most beautiful sound I ever heard. I was going to miss it.
"Jerk."
"Come on. Let's go to bed. We have about a few hours until we have to wake up." He pulled me off the couch and we went back to bed.
~0~0~0~
I was in Edward's arms when I woke up to my alarm clock at seven thirty. I reached over and turned it off before he could hear it. Then I looked at his face he looked so peaceful when he slept. I didn't want to disturb him but I knew I had to. A little bit of hair was on his face and I couldn't resist. I lifted my hand to brush his hair away from his face. It was in disarray because I ran my hands through it constantly last night. It was still silky and soft as ever. I'm going to miss running my hands through it whenever I wanted. He started to stir and his grip on me tightened.
"Good morning." He smiled and it took my breath away like always.
"Hi." I said sadly. This wasn't a good morning to me.
"Bella, I-"
"Do you know this is the last time we're going to wake up in each other's arms?" My voice cracked.
He ignored my question.
"I'm going to go and make breakfast. Do you want anything special?" I asked to distract both of us. He gave me a look that said, "I know what you're doing."
"It doesn't matter."
I got up out of the bed and walked to the kitchen I decided to make French toast, eggs and bacon. Edward walked into the kitchen just before I finished cooking our breakfast. I fixed him and plate first and then myself. Neither of us spoke. We ate our food in silence.
"Breakfast was delicious." He complimented me after he finished eating.
This is our last breakfast together. I couldn't help but think.
"Thank you." I said as I picked up our plates from the table and put them into the dishwater.
"Bella, please don't do this. You should be happy. You're going to pursue your life long dream." He said trying to persuade me into a better mood.
"How can I be happy? I don't have you anymore." I told him hopelessly as I gazed into his beautiful, emerald eyes.
"I know this is hard, Bella. But-"
"No! Don't you dare say we're doing the right thing!" I interjected angrily.
"Come here, Bella." He beckoned me with his arms reaching out. I shook my head and he dropped his arms.
"I'm going to go get ready." I walked out of the kitchen to our bedroom.
I didn't want him to hold me because it wasn't the same. I decided to call my best friend Alice. I've known her as long as I've known Edward, they're cousins. She moved in with Edward when her mom past away. We had the same first and second period classes in high school. She's always been there for me and vice versa. Unlike me she married her high school sweetheart, Jasper Whitlock.
"Bella!" A high voice shrieked before I could even speak.
"Hi, Alice." I answered glumly.
"Why so sad? You're going to become famous!" She exclaimed.
"We don't know that yet."
"I do." She answered knowingly.
"How could you know that?" I asked her in disbelief.
"I have a feeling."
"You and your feelings."
"Have I ever been wrong?"
"Yes." I lied.
"When?"
"Umm…" I couldn't think of anything.
"Thought so. Now, why do you sound so miserable? Is it because you're going to miss Edward?"
She was a good distraction at first. I knew she was going to bring him up eventually though. I didn't answer her. I was trying to keep from crying, again. It seems that's all I can do now.
"Don't worry. You'll see him soon. You had to separate from him sooner or later, Bella." I sniffed.
"Bella? Are you crying? What's wrong?" She asked me anxiously.
"We're over." I sniffed again.
"What? I'm going to kill my cousin!" She shrieked. I pulled the phone away from my ear.
"Please, calm down Alice." I pleaded.
"Calm down? I'll kill him! I told him not to hurt you! Jasper!" She called
"Alice, please don't call Jasper. It was mutual. We decided it was best for us." My voice shook slightly. I was hoping she wouldn't see through the lie.
"What's the matter darlin'?" I heard him ask in the background.
"I know you're lying, Bella. We're coming over there."
"What happened with Bella?"
"Alice, please don't say anything. Everything is fine. We're about to go to the airport in an hour." She was silent for a minute. I think she was trying to figure out what to do.
"Nothing, baby. I just called you in here because she wanted to speak to you." I heard them talk a little more then she gave the phone to Jasper.
"Thank you." I said appreciatively. She gave the phone to Jasper.
"Bella? Is everything alright?" He asked me worriedly.
"Yeah, I was just calling my favorite people before I left to go to the airport. I got a little emotional."
"Oh, okay the way Alice, was callin' me I thought… never mind it isn't important. I'm really going to miss you."
"Me too, Jazz." We were really close. He and Alice were the sister and brother I never had.
"Enough with all that. You better call us every chance you get. Just because you're going to be a star it doesn't mean you can forget about your family."
"I won't. I love you guys too much."
"We love you too, Bella. Tell Edward, I said hi. Here's Alice."
"Bella?"
"Thanks, again for not telling him. I wanted to call you before I left to tell you that I love you Alice."
"Aw, I love you too. I don't know what I'm going to do without you here." Her voice cracked.
"Me neither." Mine did too. It was really hard for me to leave them too.
"Are you really okay?"
"I will be."
"Okay, well I'll let you go. Bye Bella. Have a safe flight. Ooh and don't forget to call me!"
"I won't. Bye, Alice."
"Bye, Bella." I hung up after that.
I called my dad and mom soon after. The conversation with my dad lasted a really long time. I was a daddy's girl we were very close. I was going to miss not being able to visit when I wanted. My mom on the other hand was the complete opposite. She cried and said she was going to miss me. She told me she was going to pray that I make it to and from my flight okay. I didn't tell either of them about Edward and I.
After that phone call I called Edward's parents Carlisle and Esme. They were my second family. I was Carlisle's daughter just as much as I was my dad's. The same went for Esme. She cried and said two of her babies were leaving her. I cried with her as well. We said our goodbye s then I got up to take a shower.
I calmed down as the hot water ran down my body. As soon as I finished washing myself up I got out. Edward wasn't in our bedroom. I lotioned myself up and all that crap then I grabbed a blue, long sleeved T-shirt and some jeans. I wasn't in the mood to dress up any nicer than that. Plus I wanted to be comfortable on the plane. I didn't even apply any make up on. It would have gotten ruined anyway.
Edward was sitting on our freshly made bed when walked in our room. He didn't notice I was there. He looked freshly showered. He had on a long sleeved, blue T-shirt as well. When you and the one you love wear similar outfits without having to plan it out. That's how you know you're meant to be with them.
"Hey, we match." He smiled and commented. I'm going to miss that smile.
"Yeah, we do."
"You ready to go?" He asked when he stood up.
"I think so."
He left the room to pick up my luggage and we put everything in the trunk of his car. He opened the passenger door for me like he always did. Then he got in on his side and started the car. The ride to the airport was quiet. The radio wasn't even on. When we arrived he opened my door for me again and retrieved my luggage from the trunk. When we reached the terminal I was the first to speak.
"I don't want to leave, Edward." I said as I stood in front of him. I was trying to hold in my emotions because I had cried enough for both of us yesterday.
"I know."
"I love you." I said woefully.
"You know I do." He smiled my favorite crooked smile.
"Attention passengers gate 23 is now open." An announcer said.
"Well that's my cue. I guess. Let's just leave it like this without saying goodbye. Okay?" I answered dejectedly as he nodded.
"Okay."
I walked away from him. I turned my head to look at him one more time and he smiled and waved. I wanted him to come with me. I promised myself that I wouldn't let him hold me because I knew I would break down again. I was almost at the attendant and all I felt was regret. I wanted one more kiss from him. Hell, I would have settled for a touch.
Fuck it!
I ran back to him as fast as I could. I ran so fast that I crashed into him.
"Bella, what are you doing? You're going to miss your flight." He pulled me to face him.
"I don't care."
"Yes, you do."
I wanted him to tell me to stay. Though I knew he wouldn't. I pulled him back to me and refused to let go, he held me just as tight. All I cared about was being in his arms at that moment.
"Can I have one more kiss?"
He smiled that famous crooked smile only he could create. Then placed his hand on my cheek and leaned down to press his lips to mine. I licked his top lip. Knowing what that meant, he opened his mouth willingly and our tongues met. They moved in synch with each other. He pulled away when we couldn't breathe. Our foreheads against each other's breathing heavily in each other's faces. He chuckled sadly and unhooked me from him. I pulled away from him before he did.
"Come with me."
"Last call for gate 23."
"Bella we-"
"Please…"
"You have to go."
"Fine."
And I walked away from him and back to gate 23 again. I gave the attendant my ticket when I reached her.
"Leaving a loved one?" She asked knowingly.
"Yeah," I answered softly and walked onto the plane. It took everything I had to get on that plane. I was honestly thinking about missing my flight. If only we were in a movie. He would've ran up to me and said he was coming with me . But we're not so he didn't.
I took my seat and saw a couple across from me. They were snuggled up together. My tears finally fell down my face. I no longer had a boyfriend. This was the last time I would see Edward. We were no longer Edward and Bella. We were two single people going their separate ways. I wasn't just leaving him. I was leaving my chance at a family, a husband, a different life. I cried silently in my seat. I chose to leave. I was closing the doorway to my dreams and opening up another. I wish I didn't have to give up one dream to achieve the other. But, that's life. It just isn't fair. Suddenly words started to play in my head. I opened my laptop and started to type.
I just need.
One more kiss. One more touch.
I just can't get enough of you.
But, I'm in a rush I gotta fly away.
Plane's waiting up for me right at gate 23.
There's a doorway to my dreams I can go or I can stay.
When I was finished I shut my eyes and thought of everything I had sacrificed. I knew one thing was for sure if I didn't become famous. I gave up my life for nothing. I would be nothing. And I would have nothing.
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A/N: There is only 1 more chapter and it's already finished. Please review and give me your thoughts. I'll update real soon. :)