It's the beginning of summer, and today's the day… which I leave this world of hurt and pain. I can't take it anymore. Being alone and rejected, not really having a home or friends or family to care or love me. I can't deal with this anymore. It'll be better if I were to disappear. So I walk silently in agony to the place I will vanish. A bridge in an area not many people are around so no one will notice. When I get close I pass by someone but I keep my head down to keep myself from looking.. It seems this person tried to call out to me but I'm so out of it, I'm so fixed on suicide that I just hear a muffled voice. I get to the bridge; I climb up and stare at the ripples flowing into the water. It's deep enough so I'll just fall in and drown. Staring mindlessly at the water I just fall forward and close my eyes. It's difficult to breathe but I don't fight it, this is better for me-for everyone that I die. Just as I'm about to black out, I hear that muffled voice again and I see a dark figure approaching me, then all I see is black…
Am I dreaming..? Is this reality… has it really all come to this..? I was always a good person, did what I had to do always listened.. When I was younger I suffered so much between home and school. Being bullied, ignored, rejected by everyone, even my own family. Being abused every day, for no reason. Mother being a drug addict, step dad who's a drunk and abusive towards me. Then after a while depression hits hard, self-harm is induced cuts and scars on my body. I still went to school and graduated. I got tired of all the abuse and negligence so I just left. Wandering place to place, not having a home or people to care. It's hard for someone who's 20 years old and not have a home or friends. Just remembering everything all at once, it hurts so much it kills. Have I passed on…am I no longer living..?
All of a sudden I feel air and I let out a huge cough. I hack up water I swallowed. Am I alive? How can I be alive…? I feel my eyes open a little and I see that figure again, but I can vaguely see it. I feel so weak and I hear a voice say to me, "Are you ok?" I'm so weak, I feel so cold… I can't answer and I black out again. I'm dreaming again…Everything surrounding me is dark and I see a little glimmer of light ahead.. I walk closer to it and I see me as a child alone, crying. She turns around and looks at me. I'm staring at myself, looking inside.. She sticks out her hand to touch mine and without hesitation we touch hands.. Then everything flashed white and I awake.
When I awaken, I'm in a room.. But how...? When did I get here? How did I get here? I look around and I see pictures of different places and a British flag hung up on the wall. I see a window, wide opened with a breeze blowing through and white curtains flowing with the air. As I continue to look around I'm covered in a blanket on a bed. It feels so warm and smells so good. But where am I? I tried to remember what happened, but all I remember is falling off that bridge to drown myself. Did someone save me, to prevent me from committing suicide? I hear a door open and I quickly turn my head. At the door was a man, tall, muscular, has brown hair, blue eyes. He looked stern and a little serious but a very handsome man. "You're awake now, good." He says. His voice is deep; the way he speaks is like he sounds proud. I just look up at him and I try to avoid eye contact. He grabs a chair and sits next to me. He takes a deep breath and says, "What the hell were you thinking? Why were you trying to kill yourself?" I look at him in the face with no expression I answer, "Why do you care? One less person in this world would be better." He says to me with a serious tone, "Are you stupid or something? You have a long life ahead of you! Don't just throw it all away just like that!" I shout, "What the fuck do you know?! You don't know me or anything about my damn life! Who the hell are you to tell me what I should do about my life!" I get so angry, I get up to leave but as I got up, I felt so weak and light headed I fall forward. I felt him catch me, I can't see straight, it's difficult to breathe; he picks me up and puts me back on the bed. "I'm gonna go get you something to eat and drink." He says and then closes the door.
Why the hell is he doing this? I would leave right now if it weren't for me feeling the way I feel right now. Damn it! He doesn't even know me! I just keep thinking and thinking. Being lost in thought, I smell something good. I haven't smelled something like that in a while. He comes in and brings a hot bowl of clam chowder along with some tea. "Here eat this." Then he quietly leaves the room. I look at the bowl of chowder and it smells so good. I take a spoonful and blew because it was really hot. When I took that bite, it was so delicious. I haven't eaten good food like this in a while. I eat it all up and drank some English breakfast tea. I felt so warm inside I start to feel sleepy. I just fall asleep soundly.
Again, I'm dreaming and all of the bad memories are coming to me in that dream. I hate these dreams… Why won't they go away? I want to be at peace, I'm tired of suffering! All of these horrible memories I'm so tired of them, I can't take it anymore… I wake up with a cold sweat breathing heavily. I silently cry, no whining, not a sound. I sit there while tears just fall from my eyes down to my cheeks. I feel my chest tingle and it's not the good tingling feeling. It hurts… It hurts so much… Why didn't he let me end it? Why? Why did he stop me from dying? I can't take much of this life anymore. I've been through Hell and back so many times. What would make this anymore different? I hate him for stopping me… I hate him so much. I keep crying while thinking so hard. I look out the window and its night time. Maybe he's asleep…? I could leave then. I put on my shoes and I try to be as quiet as I can. I open the door slowly and I quietly walk to the door I look and he's on the couch asleep. Shit… I hope he doesn't wake up…He's next to the damned door. Ok, I need to keep calm and be really quiet! I try to be as quiet as possible. I get to the door, I unlock it and open slowly and leave.
As I walk out and go outside, it's around the city. Late night restaurants and bars with lots of people out. It'd be good to leave; I wouldn't want to be a burden on that guy. I keep walking into the crowd to blend in. He wouldn't be so dumb as to follow me. I don't know where to go but my feet will take me wherever. As I keep walking I see a group of guys try to call out to me. One of them says, "Hey baby where ya off to?" I simply ignore them and walk away. Another guy says "We only wanna talk and have a little fun, don't go." I keep walking and ignore them. As I keep walking, I look back and they're following me. I really don't like where this is going. I start to walk faster and they come after me, I tried to go into the crowd to lose 'em but they're catching up to me. What the hell am I gonna do now? Shit… I try to avoid them as much as I can then they push me into an alleyway. Dammit… Why do these things always happen to me? They corner me. One is tall, light skinned, very short blonde hair, rugged looking. The other, a round man with short brown hair, his height shorter than the other guy also a little darker in skin color. In paranoia and fear I put my fists up and strike the short round guy in the face. "You little fucking bitch!" he snarls. The other guy grabs me from behind and pulls my hair, pulling my head back. The man who's holding me down says, "Now you're gonna get it!" The round one approaches me while taking out a knife. He looks at me with the bloody nose he's received from me. "You're gonna regret doing that." He growls. He then takes his knife and cuts into my shirt. I'm so scared, I'm paralyzed with fear. Complete and utter fear. I'm shaking-trembling, my throat is aching. I'm so scared I can't scream or make any noise. Both men laughing in glee, torturing me. I'm gonna die like this. Raped and killed… I can't fight anymore, I'm so scared… I give up…
The round man runs his knife down from my throat to my chest. I keep thinking to myself, I'm gonna die… Just end it already please…. All of a sudden I hear a voice shout, "HEY!" That voice sounds so familiar. "What the hell are you doing to her!?" The round guy tells his friend, "Keep her held down, I'll take care of this asshole." I take a look at what's happening and I don't believe it... It's the same guy from earlier. "Know your next line? 'Mind your own damn business!' That's the one" and the round guy says "Mind your own damn business!" and he stood there shocked. I'm thinking what's happening? Is he gonna help me again? Why can't he leave me alone and let me die... I just look and for a moment is would've sworn he was glowing a golden yellow color. He breathes "Kohhhhhh..." and attacks the guy and I thought I was going crazy but I saw his hand light up. He knocks the guy out cold. The one holding me pulls my hair more and pulls out a knife to my throat. "Get the fuck back or she's dead!" she shouts out. "You know what I really hate? When cowards use women as shields!" He shouts angrily. I can barely see but he had something in his hand. He shouts out "HAMON" and something literally shot out and hit the guy's head knocking him flat still holding me, I fall back with him. I'm still paralyzed with fear and the man who helped me from before approaches me. I freak out and get up and back into a wall and hide in a corner like a scared child. I feel him behind me and when he put his hand on my shoulder I just scream "NOOO!" Then he hugs me from behind and shouts, "I'm not trying to hurt you, I'm trying to help you dammit! Stop being so damned stubborn!" He hugs me tighter and all I could do was cry. He stays quiet and just holds me, I turn and I bury my face into his chest and cry and cry.
While I cry, he says "Come on, let's go." But my legs are so weak and my shirt is ripped open. I can't get up… I cover my chest and look down. He lets out a sigh, takes off his jacket and puts it on me. "Can you get up?" he asks. I shake my head and I even try but I fall. Then he just picks me up and walks. I feel so ashamed I hide my face in his neck. He smells so good… While walking he says "Joseph." I looked confused and said "Huh?" He answers, "My name, Joseph Joestar. But you can call me JoJo." I reply with "Rin… Rin Takashi." Joseph then says, "I'm taking you back home, this time no leaving." He keeps walking til we get to his home. Will things change for me after all…?