Title: I Thought She Knew
Author: Faith
Disclaimer: It's not mine, it all belongs to Joss (lucky fool *g*) only the story belongs to me *g*
Pairing: Cordelia/Xander
Rating: PG
Seasons/Spoilers: Before Cordelia leaves for LA, so somewhere before season 4. No Anya and Xander
Summary: Cordy leaves and Xander's hurting
Distribution: Ask and you shall receive
Author's Notes: = thoughts, ** = bold thought's or sayings, ~~ = journal writings
Feedback: *please*
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~ Dear Diary,
I can't believe Xander didn't even say good-bye. I mean we've been friends since we broke up. Oh well, I can't expect him to hold the same feelings as I do. He was the first guy that liked me for me, not for what I had, but for who I was.
I guess that's why I'm really leaving Sunnydale. Not to start my acting career, but because of my first love. It hurts to think that he doesn't care about me anymore.
Oh, I'm here, in LA. I think. I'm so confused; I don't know what to do anymore. I'll write later.
Cordelia
Chase~
(Back in Sunnydale)
I was running late, and now I've missed her. I never did tell her that I still love her, but she should have known. Maybe that's why she left, to get away from me. Xander slowly walked back towards the person that knew him the best. His best friend. Willow.
"Xander, what are you doing here?" Willow asked when she opened the door to see her best friend Xander. "What's wrong? You look down."
"I just wanted to hang out for a while. Is that okay? You don't have anyone over?" He asked looking around for signs of Buffy or Oz.
"Xander, honestly. You know my best friend comes before anyone else." She said waving him in and pulled him in to a hug. "Cordelia left without seeing you didn't she?" He nodded and she continued, "Xander I'm so sorry."
"It's okay she laughed at me the last time I told her how I felt." He said gloomly.
"Xander, that was before she herself decided that she loved you too. Everything worked out alright then, she has to know how you feel."
"I think she does and that's why she left me." Xander said leaving the Rosenburg home.
"Xander! Wait." She called to him rushing out the door. The Dingo's are playing at the Bronze, maybe you should go. It'll make you feel better."
"Honestly, Will. Having Cordelia in my arms would make me feel better but we all know that's not going to happen. Besides I'm thinking movies and chocolate for this guy." Xander replied.
"How about you come over tomorrow and we'll watch movies." When she softly smiled she continued, "You know you can stay, hang out. Talk if you need too."
"Thanks, Wills. But I think I'm going to go home for now. I'll think about going to the Bronze." With that he walked away.
~ Dear Journal,
Cordelia left me today. I know that we weren't together the past few months but I can't get her out of my mind. I've tried to move on with Anya but she got her demon powers back and she left Sunnydale. "Tomorrow's another day" says Willow but I'm not sure how many tomorrows I can live through without Cordelia.
Sure she may have been the most popular girl in school but she liked me for me. Plus she wasn't the kind of person you could ignore, Willow may have loved me our whole lives but I didn't know it.
No more dating for this guy.
Xander Harris ~
TBC? Should I continue?
Author: Faith
Disclaimer: It's not mine, it all belongs to Joss (lucky fool *g*) only the story belongs to me *g*
Pairing: Cordelia/Xander
Rating: PG
Seasons/Spoilers: Before Cordelia leaves for LA, so somewhere before season 4. No Anya and Xander
Summary: Cordy leaves and Xander's hurting
Distribution: Ask and you shall receive
Author's Notes: = thoughts, ** = bold thought's or sayings, ~~ = journal writings
Feedback: *please*
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~ Dear Diary,
I can't believe Xander didn't even say good-bye. I mean we've been friends since we broke up. Oh well, I can't expect him to hold the same feelings as I do. He was the first guy that liked me for me, not for what I had, but for who I was.
I guess that's why I'm really leaving Sunnydale. Not to start my acting career, but because of my first love. It hurts to think that he doesn't care about me anymore.
Oh, I'm here, in LA. I think. I'm so confused; I don't know what to do anymore. I'll write later.
Cordelia
Chase~
(Back in Sunnydale)
I was running late, and now I've missed her. I never did tell her that I still love her, but she should have known. Maybe that's why she left, to get away from me. Xander slowly walked back towards the person that knew him the best. His best friend. Willow.
"Xander, what are you doing here?" Willow asked when she opened the door to see her best friend Xander. "What's wrong? You look down."
"I just wanted to hang out for a while. Is that okay? You don't have anyone over?" He asked looking around for signs of Buffy or Oz.
"Xander, honestly. You know my best friend comes before anyone else." She said waving him in and pulled him in to a hug. "Cordelia left without seeing you didn't she?" He nodded and she continued, "Xander I'm so sorry."
"It's okay she laughed at me the last time I told her how I felt." He said gloomly.
"Xander, that was before she herself decided that she loved you too. Everything worked out alright then, she has to know how you feel."
"I think she does and that's why she left me." Xander said leaving the Rosenburg home.
"Xander! Wait." She called to him rushing out the door. The Dingo's are playing at the Bronze, maybe you should go. It'll make you feel better."
"Honestly, Will. Having Cordelia in my arms would make me feel better but we all know that's not going to happen. Besides I'm thinking movies and chocolate for this guy." Xander replied.
"How about you come over tomorrow and we'll watch movies." When she softly smiled she continued, "You know you can stay, hang out. Talk if you need too."
"Thanks, Wills. But I think I'm going to go home for now. I'll think about going to the Bronze." With that he walked away.
~ Dear Journal,
Cordelia left me today. I know that we weren't together the past few months but I can't get her out of my mind. I've tried to move on with Anya but she got her demon powers back and she left Sunnydale. "Tomorrow's another day" says Willow but I'm not sure how many tomorrows I can live through without Cordelia.
Sure she may have been the most popular girl in school but she liked me for me. Plus she wasn't the kind of person you could ignore, Willow may have loved me our whole lives but I didn't know it.
No more dating for this guy.
Xander Harris ~
TBC? Should I continue?