Ryan couldn't believe it when Kelly bought in the slip from her doctor's. She was two months pregnant. The whole office stared at him, waiting for his reaction. He took a step back, trying not to flip out. First he counted to ten. Then he held his breath. Then he began to sweat. His eyes shifted around, conscious of the reaction of those around him, always conscious. But at this point he no longer cared. He had been betrayed in the worst way a man could be betrayed. Kelly had lied to him. She had sworn up and down she had been taking her birth control pills. Apparently she hadn't.
"Pregnant? Are you out of your freaking mind?" He finally said after what seemed like a lifetime.
Kelly seemed oblivious to his mood. "I know! It's it the most wonderful thing you've ever heard in your life? I am so happy! Here is the ultrasound! It's the size of a bean. It's our bean Ryan. Yours and mine. It's perfect. I hope it's a girl. I want a girl sooo bad. We can name it Jennifer or Angelina or Beyonce. Beyonce Howard. She'll be the most beautiful baby in Scranton. Oh and I already checked with Toby. They offer paternity leave here so you can take off six weeks to be with me and the baby…"
Ryan closed his eyes, wishing he could escape. "Shut up Kelly. For the love of God will you shut up? I don't want you and I don't want this baby," he lowered his voice when he realized everyone was still watching him. "Don't you get it? I don't love you. I never have and I never will. You only meant one thing to me. I definitely don't want to be a dad, not with you."
Kelly stared at him for a minute. "I know you don't mean that Ryan. What about all the times we watched The Notebook and you stayed up all night crying with me? What about all the times you called out my name while we were in bed together after you begged me to come over at three in the morning? What about all the times you told me how you thought you were never good enough for your parents so you tried to make everyone here think you were perfect? Would you have done all of that if you didn't love me?"
Ryan looked around, knowing everyone thought he was a jerk but he didn't care. He was barely out of his twenties and there was no way he was going to get tricked into being a dad.
"I'm sorry Kelly. None of it means anything to me."
And with that he sat back at his desk, pretending like nothing had just happened. Everyone stood there, not knowing what to say. Toby came up to Kelly and put his hand on her shoulder, and she turned around and ran into his arms, allowing herself to cry. It finally sank in what he said. Ryan never loved her. She was going to have the baby she had dreamed of since she was three, yet she was more alone than ever.
to be continued