Title: You Can Cope
Author: Blemery
Rating: PG-13?
Pairing(s): S/J
Beta: anubiset
Spoilers: none
Warning: Mpreg character death
Summary: Seto reflects while losing Jou to birthing complications
"AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!"
I love you.
Now.
The inhuman cry sounded through the room, making my blood run cold as I tried my best to stay under control. I watched my blonde lover pant desperately, trying to fight for air, and the screaming was not helping, and it just took his breath away. 'Stop screaming you idiot, why can't you just stop screaming? It's not your fault, it's his, he did this to himself, and he's the one that wouldn't stop screaming. Just please, I…'
The doctor's worked desperately, for hours now; it could not take this long, could it? What was going on, why was there so much blood?
"Uh-uh I…" I leaned in closer as tears streamed down my puppy's face, trying to keep the two of us distracted from what the doctors were doing.
"P-please I-make…PLEASE!" He screamed out again and he clutched my hand as pain shot through him. "Make it." He closed his eyes, thrashing about, trying to do anything for the pain. Why couldn't they give him something for the pain, someone help him, he needs help! I glanced to the doctors rushing about, trying to do everything they could, and even if my tongue was not stuck to the roof of my mouth I wouldn't have the guts to stop them from their work. "Go away…" He breathed, innocently gritting his teeth as he tried his best to stop crying. His face began to pale, and he choked and sputtered, groping for any kind of air. Again I had to look away from him, I couldn't watch this. The doctors were not nearly finished cutting into him, they just kept going further. It was like they had never delivered a baby before!
"Stop!" He whimpered, withering, but I don't even want to see that. Usually I like to see him withering, but not like this.
"Jou." I brushed the bangs out of his eyes trying to give him hope of any kind. "It's alright, just…"
"Seto, I'm so sorry." He gasped, tears streaming down faster than ever. That was not helping his breathing, either. Why was he doing this, what was wrong with him?
"I should never have fought with you. And I'm sorry; I wish we had gotten on better in High School. I love you so much. I'm sorry, I'm sorry." What's the mutt talking about, those things did not matter anymore. They never really mattered anyway, never. Why was he acting like this, what was wrong with him? Couldn't he see that they were trying to operate? Stop apologizing for things that don't matter!
"I love you Seto, please, you love me?" I stared down at him. It wasn't like I never said it to him anymore; it wasn't like I had trouble expressing my emotions. Of course I loved him! Why was he acting like this, what was he doing? Why was he pleading with me so much with his eyes? Why was there so much blood? There isn't supposed to be that much blood. He didn't have enough already. Stop that, you're making him bleed.
"AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH." Stop screaming! Please someone just help him!
"Say it Seto please, please." Katsuya grabbed me closer, drawing all my attention to him, and just him for that moment.
"I- I lo…"
"WAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIL!" The shriek interrupted me and my attention was diverted again. The baby, it was here, it was…so disgusting. Ackk, what was all that slime and stuff on it? I made a face as they asked if I wanted to cut the cord. Shrugging, they managed on their own as they brought the gift to be cleaned, thank God! Curiously I began to follow the doctors, was it a boy or a girl, did they have blue eyes? Chocolate? Would it have his smile? Did it have ten fingers and ten toes? Would it like the blue-eyed-dragon plushy that I had managed to get at the gift shop before arriving here?
"You have to leave now." One of the doctors pushed in front of me, as I had nearly made it over to see my pride, joy, heir. I gave the "I'm-Seto-Kaiba-so-if-you-want-to-keep-your-job-move" look, but it didn't work! It always worked!
"You have to go; there were complications and we…well…" He glanced around me over towards Jou. Suddenly I found myself in the waiting room, I'm not really sure how it happened, but shock is what they said it was, it was just shock.
Yugi stared up at me with big watery eyes, they knew, it was too long and something had to have happened but I-I didn't even know what. It was because of him, he kept screaming and he shouldn't have been screaming and he, he, all the blood, why had there been soo much blood, his blood, that was suppose to be mine! He's mine, you hear me, that's my blood! You can't take my blood! Knees buckling I slipped to the floor, tears welled up in my eyes and his friends blurred out of vision as I tried to keep calm. I had to, I couldn't cry, this wasn't suppose to happen, not like this, we were suppose to be a family...
Arms enveloped me suddenly and my head found my brother's chest. I couldn't help but weep. It was over; it was all over before it ever really started. I knew it, no one had to tell me, I saw what was going on, he was in pain and no one helped him. Why didn't anyone help him? Why couldn't they help him? Did he do something wrong? What did he ever do to them? Maybe it was me? Was it me, did they hate me?