This is just a really short fic of when a certain someone finally thinks of
the things he's done in the past and there's a special friend nearby to be
with him.
I know, sounds stupid. There is a little OOCness but please R&R.
I do not own Gundam Wing or Sailor Moon so go sue someone else.
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Break Down
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I was just walking in the park heading towards the Tokyo Lake, it was kind of chilly but of course I didn't notice.
The others and I had first come here on a mission, we met some people while staying and became friends with them.
After the war ended we decided to come back and try a regular life. We have lived here about six months now, but I don't usually stop anywhere near Tokyo Lake.
Standing there may be relaxing to everyone else but it bothered me. It was too peaceful and it gave me too much time to think.
But that's exactly what I was doing.
I didn't know what was wrong with me the last few days, I stopped talking to everyone.
Even Duo was starting to worry about me.
I stood watching the sun shining off the water, and my mind drifted.
I stood there thinking of different things, the guys, Dr.J, Zechs, our new friends, and even Relena, although I shuddered when I started thinking of her.
Then I thought of my Gundam and my missions. The ones I had completed. . . And the ones I failed.
The ones that hadn't cost my life, but the lives of others.
People whose lives were destroyed and ruined. . . Because of me.
I froze coming to that realization.
Innocent people died because of me. They lost their lives because I failed a mission.
I fell to my knees crying for the first time in the longest I could remember. Crying for the people, crying from the hurt I caused. . . Crying for the guilt I felt.
It wasn't fair, why should I have lived? What was the point anymore?
All the emotions I carried and never showed from the very beginning were piling up, and I couldn't control them.
Who even cared about me?
It was as if some one heard my question because a figure came up behind me and put their hand on my shoulder trying to comfort me.
I felt a wave of understanding come from this person. I cried even harder not being able to stop, not wanting to.
The person kneeled down next to me letting me cry. They encircled their arms around my shoulders so I could know they were there and I wasn't alone.
I knew exactly who it was without having to look. I didn't say anything, but just leaned back against them, my shoulders still shaking.
An unknown amount of time passed before I stopped crying. The person was still holding me, rocking back and forth.
We sat like that another few minutes before I turned around to face my angel.
Those crystal blue eyes looked back at me sadly. I realized my angel was mourning for me.
I tried to smile, something I hadn't done in a long time, it came out a little weak but it was enough to receive one from her.
I opened my mouth wanting to say so many things but there was only one thing I could say,
"...Thank you Serena..."
Serena nodded her head, "You're welcome Heero."
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Okay, there it is. Tell me what you think. I don't mind flames at all. I'm thinking about making a sequel to this with a bit of romance. Tell me if you think I should.
I know, sounds stupid. There is a little OOCness but please R&R.
I do not own Gundam Wing or Sailor Moon so go sue someone else.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Break Down
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I was just walking in the park heading towards the Tokyo Lake, it was kind of chilly but of course I didn't notice.
The others and I had first come here on a mission, we met some people while staying and became friends with them.
After the war ended we decided to come back and try a regular life. We have lived here about six months now, but I don't usually stop anywhere near Tokyo Lake.
Standing there may be relaxing to everyone else but it bothered me. It was too peaceful and it gave me too much time to think.
But that's exactly what I was doing.
I didn't know what was wrong with me the last few days, I stopped talking to everyone.
Even Duo was starting to worry about me.
I stood watching the sun shining off the water, and my mind drifted.
I stood there thinking of different things, the guys, Dr.J, Zechs, our new friends, and even Relena, although I shuddered when I started thinking of her.
Then I thought of my Gundam and my missions. The ones I had completed. . . And the ones I failed.
The ones that hadn't cost my life, but the lives of others.
People whose lives were destroyed and ruined. . . Because of me.
I froze coming to that realization.
Innocent people died because of me. They lost their lives because I failed a mission.
I fell to my knees crying for the first time in the longest I could remember. Crying for the people, crying from the hurt I caused. . . Crying for the guilt I felt.
It wasn't fair, why should I have lived? What was the point anymore?
All the emotions I carried and never showed from the very beginning were piling up, and I couldn't control them.
Who even cared about me?
It was as if some one heard my question because a figure came up behind me and put their hand on my shoulder trying to comfort me.
I felt a wave of understanding come from this person. I cried even harder not being able to stop, not wanting to.
The person kneeled down next to me letting me cry. They encircled their arms around my shoulders so I could know they were there and I wasn't alone.
I knew exactly who it was without having to look. I didn't say anything, but just leaned back against them, my shoulders still shaking.
An unknown amount of time passed before I stopped crying. The person was still holding me, rocking back and forth.
We sat like that another few minutes before I turned around to face my angel.
Those crystal blue eyes looked back at me sadly. I realized my angel was mourning for me.
I tried to smile, something I hadn't done in a long time, it came out a little weak but it was enough to receive one from her.
I opened my mouth wanting to say so many things but there was only one thing I could say,
"...Thank you Serena..."
Serena nodded her head, "You're welcome Heero."
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Okay, there it is. Tell me what you think. I don't mind flames at all. I'm thinking about making a sequel to this with a bit of romance. Tell me if you think I should.