Have you ever felt so upset that honestly death seemed like the better option ? Have you ever felt like you didnt belong and no one wanted you ? Ever since I was a kid , I've been bounced between houses , my moms , my dads , my grandparents . Never really belonging anywhere . It finally got to the point one sunday night that I gave up . I didnt want to die near my family . As much as they hated me , I couldnt let them find me like that . I thought of ways to make it seem like an accident . I could go to the wrong part of town and prevoke a fight with a couple thugs . I could "fall" off a hotel balcony after a few too many drinks . The only problem was getting out of the house . Being a 16 year old girl with no freedom , getting out of the house was kind of hard . My only escape was music . It seems cliche , but it is true . The only time I was allowed out of the house was to go to concerts . They all understood my need to be at a show . Shows kept me sane . The feel of being in the crowd . How your heart starts beating in tune with the drums . So I found the show that was nearest time wise , and bought a ticket . I could go to a show , and then leave forever . Or so I thought . That night , my whole life changed . I met the person who would save me . That night , and many to come .