A/N: Hi everybody! This is a story I've had in mind for a long long time along with other Naruto characters I have in mind for future stories so I hope ya'll don't mind it, I'd also appreciate some reviews from those who're reading this since I'm not very confident in my story telling skills. I've never been the best at typing/writing things out so if there's any mistakes or anything you'd like to comment about I'd love some feedback! ^_^ If you guys don't like the story I'll understand that and just make this a one-shot. Anyways, enough with me rambling on. Enjoy the story! First chapter full of sad shit and angst.

This is thought

"This is speech"

Love. In this world love is something that cannot easily be kept, a world full of constant death and constant tragedy everyday, being a shinobi, a chunin, hell just being a ninja in general is never easy when people are in love. In Orochimaru's case is the worst. A missing nin in love with and secret lover to the famous toad-sage from Kohona is the worst to be in love with.

Orochimaru has been in love with Jiraiya ever since they were just children, in his teenage years he found himself wanting, lusting over his childhood crush and best friend, even after he left his village he could not stop wanting to be with him and regretted everyday leaving Konoha. During his mid 30's he was found by his crush one day as he kept trying to pursue him into coming back to his home, to his sensei, to everyone.

"Just go away Jiraiya! Leave me alone!" The snake-sage shouted and turned heel to run away from his best friend, but still heard Jiraiya following him walking just as fast as he was. "I'm not gonna go away just because you told me to Orochi! I'm going to bring you back no matter how long it takes!" Orochimaru grit his teeth and clenched his fists tightly wanting to punch him so badly, but all he had wanted to do was to was go to his hideout and calm his heart from his childhood friend and crush.

The white haired man asked. "Why now? Why do you run from me now?" That made Orochimaru stop in his tracks and turned around glaring at the man. "Excuse me?" Jiraiya took a few steps closer to the raven haired man before he stopped staring directly at him. "You think I didn't notice you looking at me whenever I was in another village doing research." Orochimaru scoffed. "Yeah right 'research.' That's just another word you use so you can perv on women and watch them." Jiraiya winced at the venom in Orochi's voice, but took a step forward. "Why is it every time when I mention a woman you act like they did something bad."

The younger man stared at his crush in astonishment questioning Jiraiya. "Are you serious right now? Even after so many fucking years, you still don't get it do you? How dumb do you have to be?!" The tanned skin man just responded confused, but also furious at the snide questions. "What do you mean?" Orochimaru shook his head rubbing his temple. "I don't believe this. You are so dense, and you write porno books with love confessions in them and you still don't get it." The snake turned his back to him throwing up his hands in frustration. "You are so infuriating." Jiraiya stepped close enough that he was only a step away from the shorter man with his back turned towards him. "What the hell is wrong? What the in the actual fuck do you mean-" All that anger and frustration was washed away when plump lips had connected to tan ones.

A kiss.

Orochimaru had just gave a kiss to Jiraiya that had been full of love the snake-sage had felt towards his friend for years of growing up together, Jiraiya surprisingly didn't want it to end. To his dismay, the warmth had disappeared when the pale lips left his, when he looked at him to see why he did that and why he had stopped he saw golden eyes swelling up tears and his voice crack saying "I'm sorry." Then just like that, he disappeared in a puff of smoke leaving a stunned Jiraiya thinking about his childhood in a different light and discovering that he had always felt more than just affection and friendship towards Orochimaru.

Years later, a candle faintly lighting a inn room with the air heavy and thick with sweat and the stench of sex from the couple. Pale skin below glistened with sweat and flushed pink left in a writhing, moaning mess. The man with white hair was on top of the pale man gripping tightly onto the wide hips as he thrusted in and out the tight hole gripping his thick cock so sweetly.

Reaching out Orochimaru held his arms open to Jiraiya with that cute expression on his face contorted in pleasure as his way of saying 'kiss me' Jiraiya smiled leaning down and gave a tender, passionate kiss. Shortly the kiss was broken by Orochi letting a high pitched moan, almost like a squeak. "C-clo-Oh! Clos-se." Holding him close as the snake moaned in his ear. "I'm close too Oro.."

Orochimaru wrapped his legs around Jiraiya's waist as he came onto his stomach and Jiraiya's letting out one last moan, giving a few more thrusts the man came in the one below him. Both panting heavily from the passionate sex they had, soaking in the afterglow of their love-making.

Their bodies intertwined with each other holding one another close, just whispering sweet nothings to them. "You're honestly the most adorable person I have ever met." Orochimaru giggled at the response blushing. "You're the only person that's able to make me blush like this Jiraiya. I'm well known for being stoned cold faced, yet here you are able to make me blush and giggle like a schoolgirl just at your name." His chest rumbled with a chuckle petting the snakes head.

Ever since that day when Orochimaru had kissed Jiraiya he has not regretted it ever since it had happened, he's happier than he ever could be with the toad sage, but.. He knows… They both do. They know the day that comes to fight Pein is the day they will not no longer be together on this earth anymore. Orochi grips Jiraiya's shoulder trembling at the thought, he can't bear knowing that kind of knowledge.

He sees his loved one trembling and rubs the marked back from their love-making session calming him down. "It's ok Oro. I'm here." He knows that his lover is still here, but he never wishes for him to leave, he was the only one that would treat him like a person when all the other villagers would see him as a freak. Jiraiya took the hand off of his shoulder and opened the drawer from the nightstand rummaging around for something.

"I was gonna save this for when everything is finally done and taken care of, but now is a good of a time as any." That peaks Orochimaru's interest. He sat up looking at his lover curiously as he took a deep breath and turned around looking at him. Jiraiya held a small black box in his hand nervous to show Orochi. "I wasn't sure what kind of design you'd like, so I just went with something some-what traditional."

Titling his head, he was about to ask what it was, but Jiraiya shutted him up when he opened the box showing a gold band ring, a small diamond in the middle of it, and engraving on the side saying 'Forever yours, Jiraiya.' Orochimaru felt his eyes start watering and he covered his mouth in shock. "Orochimaru.. Will you marry me?"

Orochimaru gasped laughing trying to choke back on his tears. "Of course you idiot!" He hugged Jiraiya tightly crying tears of joy. He lets go as Jiraiya held his hand and slipped the ring onto his ring finger. He kissed the tears away holding his head as he softly spoke. "I probably don't have enough time on this earth, but I want to be married to you for as long as I have left. For you and.. Both of them." He stared at Orochimaru's stomach rubbing it softly with the one month old in his stomach, and smiling at the thought of their three year old child in the next room.

Sadly, the time they had together was not for long. Seven months later, Jiraiya went to go face Pein and defeat him once and for all, but he could not kill him.

I'm sorry Orochimaru. I wish I could've stayed longer with you. Do not cry over my death, I want you to smile no matter what happens. I mean, what kind of face are you going to make when you tell our children the stories of you and I? His body floated down the endless abyss as with his last moments before his soul leaves him.

I'll see your in our next life my love… maybe then we'll have a chance at happiness...