''Life after the spark went out.''

***I know that some of the information in this fanfiction may not be exactly the same as the books but I am creating my own twist. This is based on the after-mockingjay setting showing the life from Katniss Everdeen's point of view. I hope you enjoy this, this is Chapter One. Any questions or advice feel free to speak up. Enjoy! :-)***

Chapter One - The future is the mirror to our pasts.

~ Prologue ~

The rebellion was a hard time for everybody. Lives lost, sacrifices lost, hero's made and wars won. When the Capitol had officially announced a surrender the Rebel's erupted into cries of joy and victory. Yet, as much as this was good for Panem many did not celebrate. Many cried, many screamed. The yearned for the lost ones they loved. The ones who fought and died becoming just another war hero.
Katniss Everdeen's life had changed dramatically since the rebellion. Her darling little sister Primrose was snatched cruelly by the merciless fight of the rebellion. It had been like someone had physically ripped her heart into shreds. However, Peeta Mellark had been the one to stitch together the pieces of her broken heart with a kiss on top.

First of all he visited every other day bringing her fresh baked goods and a smile. He slowly brought her out from her basic survival introducing her to the positive side of life once more. He helped her make a memorial of the ones they loved in a book with her father's hints on survival. He helped her smile and laugh learning to cherish live instead of despise every second she took a breath.

After months went by as did the years she felt a feeling she had felt before. A feeling that crept up on her starting in the tip of her very toes to the hair on her head. It fills her with a unfamiliar feeling yet it was a welcomed stranger. She was falling in love with Peeta all over again.

Eventually after a couple of years he moved in with her and their relationship really began. She loved every second she was with Peeta cherishing his warm, sensitive and good humored nature. He was a sunshine lighting up her life from the inside out.

After another seven years she fell pregnant with their first child. Peeta had been trying to convince her about having children for a while. He never pushed it, just left subtle little hints here and there. Unfortunately, for a long time Katniss was sensitive over the subject of children. Ever since Prim died she had found it hard to even discuss the matter. After years she realised that it it was okay, that the world they lived in wasn't fraught with danger. Their child wouldn't have to go into the games. It was safe.

~The Beginning~

Katniss is pregnant with their first child and enjoying life. The only problem is, Peeta has been having episodes of his hijacking self which the Capitol forced upon him. He had been given medication he should take daily to control it yet recently that hadn't been going as well..

Katniss Everdeen was pregnant. Six months pregnant to be precise. The sun was shining and Katniss was glowing pregnancy fitting her well. She was humming to herself whilst she cleaned the kitchen.

Peeta walks in his expression sour and his feet heavy. Katniss turns in confusion. ''Peeta, are you alright?'' She asks tilting her head slightly. He sighs ''Yes, Katniss. I'm fine'' he huffs rubbing his face. She sighs ''Have you taken your medication?'' she asks concerned. He laughs flatly. ''Medication. Stupid little pills that keep my 'hijacked' side in order? It makes me sound like a crazy person and I'm sick to death of it!'' He yells banging his fist on the side. Katniss widens her eyes and clenches her jaw. 'Here we go again..' She thought to herself.

His ''Episodes'' were getting worse lately. If he missed his medication for even a day his hijacked side would make a break through and frankly it scared the hell out of her.

''What are you staring at?! Huh? Waiting for me to turn mad?'' He says sneeringly. She puts a hand to her stomach keeping well away. ''Calm. Down.'' She says raising her hands defensively. ''It's just as simple as that isn't it? I mean you would know. You were the one trapped in the Capitol tortured day after day! You had to watch your friends scream as strangers beat them. You had to suffer someone getting inside your head and twisting everything you know to make your daily life a nightmare!'' He shouts his face burning red with rage.

Katniss looks at him tears lacing her eyes. ''I.. I'm sorry..'' She says her voice weak and hurt. He puts his hands over his ears and groans. Seconds later he blinks and looks around breathing heavily his expression confused. He sets sights on Katniss and immediately his expression softens. He see's her hurt and his face falls. ''Oh no.. did I?..'' She nods and he sighs walking over to her. She steps back instinctively and he groans falling to his knees. He looks up at her tears streaming down his face. ''Please.. please don't hate me.. I'm so so sorry..'' He mumbles between sobs. She sighs putting her hands to his head and stroking his hair soothing him.

He puts his hands to her stomach and leans his forehead against it. ''I'm a monster.. my past.. it's going to ruin our future..'' He mumbles. ''No, Peeta. It's not. It will get better.. Plus your going to be a brilliant father..'' She swallows hard getting chocked up. ''I know.'' He smiles and kisses her bump mumbling softly to it.

She smiles down at him, relived, that he is back to normal. Yet, a nervous chill runs through Katniss laced with anticipation that wouldn't leave her. She had a feeling.. a bad feeling. This wasn't the first time Peeta had acted strangely.. it was worse than normal. Her heart beating double time she can't keep her thoughts from trailing off. 'What about next time?'