Painful
Summary: "Sometimes, I wanna tell her how much I love her, but then, when every time I see her fainting over him, all my hopes are fading away."
By: HanayakaXy
Genre: Drama/General
Words: 531
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Come to think of it, I love her for ages now . . . I do not even remember when was the first time I fell for this girl who admires someone else. She's my first love, I fell for her . . . I think since I was in academy.
I remember, back in academy days, when Iruka-sensei announced the teams . . . I was delightful to know that she'll be in my team, and Shino of course.
The three of us did numerous missions together . . . those missions are really memorable moments for me, because of that . . . we built our friendship and we became close to each others. In our team, no jealousy or hatred to each other unlike the others.
Kurenai-sensei was the assigned Jounin in our team . . . she can be a real bitch most of the times, that's why she's the best. When the time she was about to quit as our sensei when we were 13 . . . we were really sad, thanks to Naruto . . . it did not happen.
But when Asuma-sensei died, Kurenai-sensei was the one who was really affected since she was carrying his child, and she decided to quit. Yes, in that time, we were 15, it was confirmed that she quitted, but no one can really blame her. We just have to be understanding.
Since then, the team eight was all gone . . . nonetheless, we still hanging out together.
Back to her, as I was saying I love her, but I don't think she can feel or see it. She was too blind to see that I love her because of her love for someone else . . . or do I have to say it's Naruto?
As much as I love her . . . as much as she loves Naruto.
She loves Naruto as I love her . . . like me; she secretly loves someone for ages now.
Yet, Naruto, as her, was too numb to feel that someone is waiting him, it's like I am waiting for her.
I love Hinata, Hinata loves Naruto, Naruto loves Sakura . . . and I don't know if Sakura loves him back. Nevertheless, it was hinted that she likes Naruto. No one can deny that . . . well except that idiot Naruto, he can't see it.
It hurts to see that the girl you love won't love you back and the worse, the one you love wants someone else.
Life is unfair . . . why is that she's the one I really want and the one I can't have?
Sometimes I am asking myself these questions like what did she ever see to Naruto that she can't see in me or what did I do wrong not to deserve her?
I wanna tell her that I really do love her, but then, I can't. I know pretty well that she sees me a brother, a friend and a teammate, nothing else more than that.
Moreover, knowing her, if I ever tell her how feel about her . . . things would be awkward between us.
Maybe I would just wait and hope?
Who knows?
But one thing I am sure about love . . . it's painful.
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