disclaimer: DNON

I cried at night but no one ever saw.

I hid the tears every time I felt a hand creep up my thigh as I was forced to sit still and smile. It became worse when I felt the bile I had to subdue every time I felt a hand groping my body. The tears never came out.

Not even when the clothes came off.

Not even when he whispered the nasty things he'd like to do to me.

Not even when he dragged his hand up my body.

Not even when he entered my body.

Not even when he released his semen inside of me.

With a smile I told my manager I'd leave, covering myself with a coat.

I left hugging my body, flashing a wink or a seductive smile to bring them back…and they always came back for more with a load of cash.

I step into my apartment and the tears would finally fall. I'd look in the mirror, just staring at myself looking for the girl who I wanted to be, the girl who I used to be.

The pure and innocent virgin.

I'd climb into my shower and scrub my skin until it turned raw red.

My only sanction was the cash I earned. With a small sigh, I'd count the money and put in my purse to deposit into the bank.

Every night I'd pray to God, hoping he'd forgive me for my sins. Tossing and turning I'd fall asleep waiting for my alarm to ring at six in the morning.

I was a prostitute.

The alarm rings and I get up wearily turning it off.

With a small yawn I get ready, brushing my teeth, putting a comb through my hair, placing my glasses in front of my eyes to hide my weariness. Grabbing the bagel I place a small amount of cream cheese and take a bite before throwing it away.

In the car I fix my hair, clipping my bangs back, keeping them out of my way. My heels clack as I walk across the floor and I turn my head at the sound of his voice. My boss, Uchiha Sasuke.

I pause briefly, waiting for him to catch up. He gives me a brief smirk before walking into the elevator with me.

I get caught up in his looks, and close my eyes willing the images of him to wash away. I see him pressing me closer to his body, whispering my name before he kisses me.

"Haruno?" I snap my eyes back open and turn my head, blushing at my time of spacing out. I apologize, "Gomen Uchiha-san."

He frowns at me, peering into my eyes, through my glasses, "You look as if you haven't been sleeping."

The word "sleeping" catches my attention. Again, those images jump back into my mind. I bite my lip, the pain drawing me out of my thoughts, "I'm fine," I whisper and a small smile creeps onto my lips, "I've just been tired."

I hope that this was the end of this topic. I would much rather talk about him.

He stays silent and gives me a small nod and doesn't press the point. It was almost as if he read my mind. He tells me to join up with him during lunch so we can go over the new client's wishes.

I am elated at the thought of just the two of us.

We reach the third floor and I frown… I belong on the fourth. His phone rings and he picks up. He turns to me and wishes me a good day before stepping out. I catch the name of his caller and my thoughts come crashing down on me.

"Karin."

His fiancé.

Sitting behind my desk, I lay my head on the pile of papers I have to sort. I've met Karin before, and she was nice…I really tried finding a flaw, but for every imperfection I had, it seemed as if she made up for it through perfection.

She was beautiful with red hair. Her smile was bright and her eyes lit up at the sight of him. She was carefree. She was rich. She laughed. She had no idea what the world was really like and I knew that Sasuke would do anything to keep her from knowing the harshness of the world.

I hated the feeling of jealousy that rose through me. I hated that she didn't know what I had to do to keep up with the payments...what I had to do to survive. I hated that she had everything and she couldn't even let me have the one thing I wanted more than anything-love.

But I couldn't even think about taking him away from her, I already did that to women at night. Married men walked in all the time and they didn't have the shame to take their rings off. The hate I had for myself built up even more each time I knew I was helping the man commit a sin.

Karin had no reason to worry.

She was kind. My first meeting with her wasn't the best. I walked in on her kissing Sasuke and I was shocked. The whole time, I had thought he was single and I thought he liked me…I had every right to. We had gone to dinner a few times, a few walks, and I had thought that there was some chemistry between the two of, but obviously I was wrong. I dropped the cup of coffee on her handbag and turned beet red. I began stuttering my apologies. She waved them off with a smile.

I could not look him in the eye and I made no attempt to do so. I took the rejection with a smile because there were always men ready to take me.

…but I wanted him.

Naruto came through the sliding doors and looked at me sympathetically. "Bad night?" he questioned with the hint of a smile in his voice. I looked up and groaned in response. He chuckled and put one hand on my desk.

I sighed and slowly brought my head up. He gave me a wide grin, "I got something that will make your day brighter," I looked at him curiously and he produced a cup of coffee in his hands.

He apologized, "It's not much, I just made it in the cafeteria, but I figured that you'd need it."

I stood up and gave him a hug, "Thank you Naruto!" I drowned the burning liquid in four gulps. He looked at me amazed and I shrugged. I looked at the clock, "Naruto! Don't you have to be in-" Before I could finish, he had jumped up, shouting how late he was to his meeting.

Naruto was his best friend. I shook my head and returned to typing.

Lunch was a disaster.

I could not keep myself together.

He paid for my lunch and I gave him a quick hug in thanks but as I pulled away, I knocked over the lunch tray, sending the salad I was going to eat to the ground. I apologized repeatedly to the cashier and the lady at the counter looked annoyed. She scowled and waved me away.

I flushed miserably as he steered me over to the table.

I slumped down into my chair as he returned to get another salad. I didn't even try protesting this time. I had embarrassed myself and the damage had been done. He walked back over and I covered my face with my hands. Through my fingers I whispered an apology one last time.

It was ironic how with another guy, I was the one in charge - I could make him do things for me, I knew how to make him feel pleasure, but with Sasuke, everything went wrong.

It went down hill from there. I couldn't focus on what he was telling me. I came up blank every time he asked for my opinion. It was a disaster.

My break came to an end and I stood abruptly. He stood up as well and before I could make a move to leave, he grabbed my forearm. I felt a shiver run up my spine and hesitating, I looked up at him.

He asked me there was anything wrong back at home and I nearly laughed. He just had no idea how wrong my life was. He had no idea where I went after I left the office. But I was overwhelmed by his concern.

I let his arm stay on mine, not making a move. He seemed to have forgotten that he had a hold on me. He asked me again, "Is there anything wrong at home?" I looked at him and shook my head slowly.

"No."

Like before, he never questioned my answers.

He asked me if I wanted, no his exacts words were, "…if I wished too…" go over plans at dinner. I shook my head no saying that I had plans.

I waved a good bye to him.

…Plans to get laid…

Taki was my manager. He was a jovial fellow and I had even slept with him a few times. He said that it was purely business related, but I knew better. Even then, I knew he was a friendly face.

I walked in and he immediately directed me to the make up room telling me that apparently we were going to have a huge paying customer and I was selected from the list.

The ladies in there looked at me in envy as I was pampered. I sat in the chair in front of the mirror. The black wig was placed over my head, and the hands recreated my image. My eyes were brought to attention. Dark eyeliner lined my lids. A plum blue shaded my eyelids. Mascara was lathered onto my lashes. Blush was brushed across my cheek bones. The dab of lip gloss and my parted lips gave me the look of innocence.

I was role playing a school girl.

Yu Akito was my charge.

I paled.

I knew him. He was a big client of the Uchiha & Co and I had seen him walk into the building a few times. He was a big man with dark brown hair and eyes to match. His laugh was loud and he flaunted money.

but I couldn't deny him.

I was sent to his room and I walked in nervously. He didn't recognize me.

My heart beat frantically, in fear of being known, as he began with a kiss.

He pressed his hand against my chest and whispered, "Look how fast your heart beats for me."

He was impatient and I closed my eyes in shame as the vest came up. He told me to open them and I saw that his eyes were clouded in a fog of lust. I could feel him hard and ready.

He pulled at my skirt and tore my panties off. His mouth skimmed from my ankle to my thigh and a kiss was pressed to my center. I looked up at the ceiling, arching in time, moaning at the right moment, whimpering, saying things I knew he wanted to hear.

He rolled us over and looked straight into my eyes as he whispered, "Suck me."

I couldn't refuse and with tears burning my eye, I pressed a kiss down his body to his boxers. With trembling hands I lowered the article and I saw him erect. He mistook my hesitation as my role and ordered me to continue with a pleased smile at my reaction.

I took him in my mouth and I pushed the repulse away. I let myself fantasize that it was Sasuke I was sucking, that it was Sasuke who was moaning, that it was Sasuke who grabbed my hair.

I called him, "Yu-san," and it excited him even further. He thrust his hips against my mouth and he twitched in my mouth. He pulled me away from him by my hair and told me to lay on the bed.

I lay there with my arms at my side and legs pressed together. He pressed his fingers against my core and muttered to himself as I was not wet enough. I clutched his forearms as he slid a finger inside me and another.

The friction was good enough, he decided, and with a smile he ploughed inside of me. He moved against me. His hand was at my breast and I blinked and for a moment I saw Sasuke doing this to me. I moaned. He moved faster.

It was a quick one. Within a minute he had released. He collapsed on top of me and I did not complain of the added weight pressed against me.

It took him a while to slow his breathing, before he rolled off me. He turned to the side and told me how good I was and I deserved a reward. Fear grew in the pit of my stomach; he couldn't want more could he? Instead he slipped a fold of 100 dollar bills in my parted lips and with a lazy hand he trinkled 1 dollar coins over my belly. He laughed and headed out the door telling me he'd return to see me another time.

I stayed on the bed, pulling the money out of my mouth. I slowly got up and gathered the coins and waited.

Taki came in with a smile. He told that he was proud of me and I had earned them big money. He winked at me as he produced a check telling me that I did good work. He gave me a pair of sweats and a shirt and told me to go home. He said that I deserved a good rest.

I returned to my apartment and when the door opened I saw an envelope. I stooped over to pick it up. I had not paid my rent for three days now. With a classic sigh, I put the envelope on my table and counted out the exact money. I would pay in morning.

Secretary by day, prostitute by night.

And all of this-just to survive.

In the bad times, money is money, and in order to survive, we, as humans will do what is needed even if it means tossing aside our dreams.

To keep this from happening, each of us need to do little things to save ourselves from a failing economy: use a little light, leave the A. C. off, use your money wisely, study harder, etc.

I was watching the news for like the first time and I saw how bad the job oppritunities were and that inspired me to write this story to raise awareness.

Thank You!

BTW if anyone wants to volunteer to look over this story for me please pm or rev and tell!

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