Disclaimer : I don't own Vampire Diaries.
Bonnie's Pov...
Sitting on the couch at my house, I think about the past on how so much has changed. So many times, I let myself get used as a tool for the Salvatore's personal use. All for the sake of Elena freaking Gilbert. The girl whose supposed to be my best-friend only to turn out she was so much the opposite. At every turn, I somehow get caught right in the middle of all this supernatural drama. To be honest, I'm tired of all this. For some reason, my friends or family is the price every time. I sick of it, and I'm soon reaching my limit. I can feel it. And once I reach it, and I refuse the monster of girl, Elena freaking Gilbert, I'm willing to bet I'm going to be either hounded by her Salvatore lap dogs. And either help her by force or be killed later just for refusing to do something I don't want be apart of in the first place. Then something keeps recurring, I see myself doing everything in my power to help this girl, time and time again, for what our so called friendship. She couldn't care less of it, as long as it doesn't get in the way of what she wants. I was a fool not to think that she was anything but another Katherine. It makes me sick to see, that I'm here just now realizing how far I let this go on. Too many people died all for the sake of that spoiled, idiotic, monster of a girl, that I once called my best-friend. From now on Bonnie Bennett, is going to live for Bonnie Bennett. Screw what anyone else thinks.
Now I'm in the bathroom, taking a shower feeling the warm water hitting my skin. Thinking about what I've done in the passed year. How everything had turned out so horrible. And not like I originally planned. I'm supposed to be having fun with my friends, and hunting down colleges in my spare time. But do you see me having time to do any one of those things? All cause of a certain Gilbert who can't leave well enough alone and stay away from a world that will lead to only Pain. Heartbreak. Anger. Revenge. And finally Death. Sooner or later, something is going to happen and I'm not going to be there to save their ass every damn time. Breathing out the steam that seemed to radiate off of me. I turned off the water and headed upstairs with my dark navy blue towel around my waist. I made it to my room and slowly took off the towel then placed on my black panties and bra. And slowly placed on some deodorant along with my panjamas then got into my bed. And quickly fall asleep to the rushing cold air. Letting my world soon fall to the gentle yet alluring black darkness take me, as I slumber.
Time flows down the river, and dreams began to lead into ambitions for another day. Here I lay asleep waiting for my chance to be apart of something that won't either kill me or separate my from my family and friends. But here I'm waiting for something more, maybe I should leave this town. Since there is basically nothing here for me anymore. Other than being a tool, for someone else's personal gain. So I can live for once in my life, without the fear of dying or being hurt in the long run.