A/N: Okay so here's the deal. I wrote this early before any Private Practice details came out, so its a little bit AU.. oh well. Also, the first three chapters are written in a weird dialog format, but I didn't feel like going back and changing everything so if you don't want to read that weird stuff skip to ch. 4, I think its better than the rest. Finally, I posted the whole story at one time, so if you're wondering why 4 chapters are already posted, now you know. Thanks!!!

Remember: If this doesn't look appealing just skip to chapter 4!!!

Addison: Hey!

Alex: Hey, I was just checking on her, she spiked a post-op fever last night, but she's doing well now.

Addison: Yeah, she's a fighter, she's going to come through, but um... how are you? The Meredith

thing... it was... intense, so... if you need to talk or something...

Alex: Yeah... I'm good, yeah, but um... maybe we could get lunch or something

Addison(smiling inwardly): Yeah, yeah okay.

Later at lunch

...Alex: I'm still in shock a little bit, and its not like we're really close or anything but, she's one of us. And I don't mean she's just an intern, but its like here at the hospital, we're all a family and she's part of that family and so losing her... This hospital and these people, they're all I really have so its hard for me to imagine that she could have died and it just hit me, but I'm working through it.

Addison: You trust me.

Alex: What?

Addison: You don't open up like this with people, I can tell, it takes a lot for you to trust someone enough to tell them what you're feeling, but you have that with me...

Alex: Yeah, I do, I trust everything about you.

Addison: I trust you too, a lot, and since we're sharing, I need your opinion... on something...

Addison: Do you promise you won't judge me...

Alex: Sure thing...

Addison(smiles back):Okay

Addison: I gave Mark another chance, I told him if he could go sixty days without sex, if he could be completely monogamous, then I would try having a real relationship with him. So..

Alex: Why give him another chance? Do you really think he's changed?

Addison: You said you didn't want me.

Alex: Really...?

Addison: No, but kind of... but(reminiscing) Mark... he's the man that I gave up my marriage for. I fell in love with him, it was an accident, and I should have seen it coming, but its too late now. I fell in love with him, I gave up everything for him, and I have a hard time thinking that throwing away all that history is really such a great idea. Although... there's the other part of me... the part that says "What the hell Addi? You bring this crap on yourself by treating your love life like it's some damn game show. "The Can he or Can't he show". So.. now what do you think?

Alex: I think that you are making him give up sixty days for you, when you gave up your life for him, why?

Silence

Alex: I also think that I would give up a life time, just to have a single chance with you.

Addison(stunned): Oh...So 60 days... you don't think that's long enough..?

Alex smiled knowing Addison was stunned

"I would give up anything for you. For the way you smile and the way, you talk to the babies in the nursery when you think no one is around. And your "sparkling personality" and how I think you are the smartest woman I have ever met... And your eyes... the way they light up when you're happy...60 days... no way in hell is that long enough."

Addison should have been smiling, but instead a grimace crept over her face. She should have seen this coming. All the stolen glances in the hall, the shared cups of coffee, the hours spent together under the pretense of "doing charts", It wasn't meaningless. Damn it... damn it...

I have to tell you something. I don't think you are going to want to hear it...

If you think its awful, then just skip to ch. 4 atleast. Comment on that one..please?