The Suicidal Life
By: TheWildfool2011
(I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho. I just make fanfics.)
Nobody, Everybody. Gone.
I thought I'd be glad that I never got to see the detective and that idiot Kuwabara. Glad that I didn't have to hear logical shit that fox spreaded around, happy that I wouldn't be bothered by that annoying girl Botan. And sure as hell happy that Koenma wouldn't have any use of me, and would set me free.
I was wrong.
I missed the all, though I never could truly admit it.
I miss Kurama the most…well after all I was attached to him. Maybe, it was that thing the humans' call it…love? No can't be. I would know nothing of this love it would be nothing but a game to me.
Yet, I found myself, staying amongst the humans in their world. Why am I not in the demon world?
I could honestly say, I do not know the answer to that question. It crosses my mind ever once in a while…
Speaking of crossing my mind, I've been thinking a lot about dying lately. I'm not sure whether praise the thoughts of dying slowly, or fear it…no fuck fear, I've never feared anything.
Except for Kurama, that fox always seems to strike fear into my heart…something I loved about him…ahh there I go again! I am not in love with that damn fox! Even if I was, he would never love a piece of shit like me, I'm not worthy of feeling his body against my own…and I never will be.
I could only guess why it might be a reason I welcomed death with open arms.
Did I ever mention how much I love blood? Well the sight of my own blood, the taste of the coppery metal clinging to my tongue. How I love it so…you would almost think I was obsessed with death, cutting…killing. Maybe I am, and I don't give a fuck who thinks I'm insane.
Listen to me ramble on…I should at least acknowledge the old hag, only cuz she let me live at her temple.
It's nice to live with Genkai and Yukina. I could keep a close eye on Yukina, make sure that idiot Kuwabara never touched her…but he never comes around anymore. And no it's not my fault. I don't know what's going on with him anymore.
Nobody comes…
I've never felt this loneliness, this hurt, this pain…this longing.
I blame everything on that bastard Koenma, he used us. I know it. He didn't get rid of us because, his bastard father told him too, he disposed of us because, he no longer need us. Saw no use of us.
Heh, now he gets to sit back and watch us deplete, decay, from a fucking nice view. I hope Botan annoys the fuck out of that little son of a bitch.
Yeah…for everything he's done to us…