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Brennan's Office
There was only one place you could find Dr. Brennan at six in the morning, which was sitting in her office. She couldn't help but think about Agent Booth's question. She couldn't understand how he didn't already know the answer to that fateful question. Not really paying much attention to her surroundings she was jolted back to reality when she heard Angela.
"Hey sweetie! What's wrong, you look upset?"
'OMG, what time is it? Holy crap! I have been sitting here doing nothing for two hours! I need to manage my time more wisely. What has Booth done to me? How do I respond to her with an honest answer? She can read me like a newspaper.'
"I'm fine, just a little confused," was all she said to Angela. Right then Angela knew something was wrong.
"Sweetie, what are you confused about? What happened?" Looking at her best friend, Brennan tried to get herself ready to explain before crying. Finally she spoke.
"Well, yesterday afternoon Booth asked me how I feel about him. I was a little shocked." Angela sat in stunned silence. That was not at all what she expected. She contemplated the best way to respond.
'How do I ask how that's a bad thing? Wait, she probably ran. Hmm, how do I get the most information out of her, without sounding nosy? Let's see, oh I know the best way.'
"Well, Bren, what did you say? I mean you did say something right? Please tell me you didn't run?" Brennan just slowly looked away sheepishly.
"Oh, sweetie come on, I'm wrong right? Please tell me I was wrong! Why didn't you answer him? You can't just run from him. You know that only makes it worse right? He probably thinks the worse." Angela exclaimed.
"Well, I don't get it. How does he not know how I feel about him? I'm always there for him, I fight for him. I just got up and slowly walked away. I was in a daze. It totally, completely, shocked me and hurt me a little Ange. I didn't know what to say or do. I did the only thing I knew to do, which was walk away and I now know it wasn't the best thing to do but I panicked."
They just sat there looking at each other for what seemed like years to Brennan.
'I can't stand uncomfortable silences. Why is Angela not responding? I really did screw up didn't I? UGH!!' Angela sat there trying to think of the best way to explain to her best friend that she needed to tell Booth about her feelings. That she can't run from him. She means too much to him and it isn't like he would ever leave her on his own. When Angela finally went to speak Brennan stood, looked at Angela, sighed and walked out the door in search of Booth. Angela, slightly worried, got up and followed the uncharacteristically quiet Temperance Brennan.
When Angela noticed where Brennan was headed, she stopped dead in her tracks to take in the scene that was about to take place right in front of everyone in view of "Booth and Bones." When Booth finished speaking with another lab worker he turned around and almost ran into Bones.
"Umm, hey Bones. What's up?" Booth said in just above a whisper.
"We need to talk now, in my office. Please and thank you." That was all Booth got in response before she turned around and walked off toward her office. Booth nodded and followed her. Once they both had entered her office Brennan shut the door, locked it, closed the blinds to her office, and sat down beside Booth on her couch.
Booth opened his mouth to speak but before he could Brennan asked "You asked me something yesterday. Do you remember what you asked?"
'Ha, like I could forget what I asked her. I so would love to just say I love her right here, right now, but I can't, not until I know how she feels about me. It's just too much to risk.'
"Yeah, I remember everything I said and you did." He tried to read her facial expression like he always did but he couldn't read her, she had too much going on for him to catch on and ride the waves of emotions on her face. Worried she was going to close up and not continue he said, "Look, Bones, its ok, don't worry about it. You don't..." Before he could finish she interrupted him.
"Yes I do Booth. How could you not know? I mean I have been trying to show you for forever. I know I'm not good at expressing my emotions and that I suck at reading people, but I thought I was doing a great job showing mine. At least good enough for you to know how I feel. I guess I was wrong. I mean, it wouldn't be the first time. I suck at this kind of stuff. Maybe Angela was wrong. I knew I should have just done what I always do, compartmentalized everything. Ugh, I knew this would happen. I would look like a fool and lose you. I can't believe I was a fool for..." She was stopped mid sentence when Booth crashed his lips to hers.
"Bones, I didn't mean to upset you. I wanted to make sure I wasn't reading you wrong. I thought you did. I wanted to go with my gut and heart but my brain as always said, 'You fool! She doesn't love you. She could never love a man like you.' I don't know. I'm an idiot. I mean, look at me, I couldn't find a better way to make you stop talking besides kissing you. I mean, don't get me wrong, I want to kiss you, but I shouldn't have without making sure it was okay. Ugh, see I'm the fool."
By the time he finished speaking his chocolate eyes looked at her blue orbs and he saw tears waiting to fall free. A lone tear finally broke free and ran down her porcelain face. "Booth, I care so much about you. I have never felt like this for anyone. You mean a lot to me. I feel secure in your arms when we share a "guy hug." My heart melts every time you use that charm smile of yours, which you need to be more careful using, if I might add, because it is a highly dangerous weapon. I get bugs in my stomach when you smile at me or even look in my direction. When you compliment me I get all embarrassed which is irrational because it's just a compliment. Angela says I am in love with you but I don't believe in love. Love isn't a real emotion. I mean, I don't think I love you. If you can show me and prove that love does truly exist, then I may have to say I am in love with you." Booth smiles at the fact that this woman in front of him is a genius, but yet she can't get a simple pop culture reference right. She is truly amazing. She has no clue she is in love.
"Bones, you are something. Something special, real special you know that? I feel the same way as you do. It is love that you feel for me. Believe me; I would never lie to you. You know that, right? I have felt love for you for a long time now." They sat there staring at each other for a while before Bones spoke again.
"Booth, I trust you with all my heart. That's what makes us such a great team. Can you promise me to never leave me? To always be there for me if I let you in and love you like I want to? Can I know that you will always be faithful and not use me for biological urges? I need to know that I'm not going to enter into a relationship with you and then get hurt. I can't take that again, especially from you. I can't help but say what you said back in our second year of partnership, 'we are the center and we must hold.'"
'How do I promise that, knowing that if I was to die on an undercover case it would be the same as abandoning her willingly. I can't break her heart. I couldn't, correction, wouldn't do that to her. I love her.'
"Look Bones, I am going to promise you this and I am going to explain what I mean. I will promise you that I will never use you for my on benefit. I will never cheat on you. I will never lie to you as long as I live. As for leaving you, all I can say is that I will never willingly leave you. The only way I would ever leave you is if you tell me to leave. Even then, I will not go without a fight. I will do everything in my power to fight for you. I want you to understand that if something was to happen to me on a case and I did end up dying it was not me abandoning you. Trust me on this; I would fight to stay here. I would never he able to leave you. I just couldn't do it; it would kill me to leave you. Do you understand what I mean? I want to make sure you know how I feel and that you understand I would NEVER leave."
'I hope she understands. Please Lord, don't let her run. Please let her understand I want her for forever. I could never abandon her.'
"Booth, Seeley, you mean so much to me. I understand and trust me; I don't plan to push you away. I can't take not having you around. I have become so dependent on you that, it bothers me slightly that I have become like that. I shouldn't be like that. It is highly irrational to depend on someone else. You have nothing to worry about."
'I hope I am doing the right thing. I can't take another person leaving me. Did I tell him that I love him yet? Hmm, maybe I should. Wait, would that be a good idea? Maybe I should wait a little while. I need to make sure that he isn't going to leave, so that I don't embarrass myself.'
"Bones I have loved you for a long time now. I finally realized it when I thought it was too late. I had almost lost you and was hoping that once I found you I would tell you but, I panicked."
Booth and Bones sat for a while staring at each other taking in this new bit of information they had both shared. With all the emotions going on in the room you would need a knife to cut it. The crime fighting duo sat in Dr. Brennan's office thinking of the best way to now go about their feelings. Several things still had to be discussed. The number one issue: tell Booth's boss, Cullen, and pray that he wouldn't split the two up. Second problem; tell Brennan's boss, also Booth's ex girlfriend, Cam that they were now a couple. Brennan of course thinking Cam would be highly upset that Booth wants to date her instead and say that he and Cam were over. Her number one fear being Cam would fire her. She would like to think Cam was beyond being five years old.
Booth was wondering the best way to tell Cullen he was now dating his partner. Also, what was the best way to tell your ex that you are now dating your partner, her employee? He was in quite the situation. The only other problem either could think of that neither knew the other was thinking about was how to tell Parker Booth and Rebecca, Parkers mother. Booth was worried neither would be happy with the new change in his life. Mostly he was worried about Parker since he meant so much to him. Brennan was scared Parker would be mad that she was now dating his dad.
'What if he doesn't like me? What if he doesn't want me to date his dad? Oh no, I didn't think through this.' Brennan, being Brennan, started to panic. She couldn't believe what she had done. She dropped her head into her hands and started crying. Booth started to panic, thinking he had already messed up.
"Sweethea...Bones what's wrong? What did I do? Did I already say or do something wrong? Please tell me what I did, I want to fix it." Bones looked up with fresh tears streaming down her face.
All she could say was, "Booth, I am so sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry!" She got up to leave. Booth grabbed her not thinking of anything besides hugging her senseless and asking what she was sorry for.
"Bones wait, what are you sorry for? You did nothing wrong. Please, talk to me. Tell me what's wrong." She spun around and looked at him with hurt in her eyes.
"Think about it Booth, we can't be together. Cullen will split us up, Cam will probably want to fire me, and Parker probably can't stand me so he won't want me to be dating you and I would hate to even think about Rebecca's reaction. She probably doesn't want me around her son. I wouldn't either, I suck with kids. I can't believe I didn't think about all of it before I agreed to date you. I can't believe I let myself love you without considering what you would have to give up and what will happen to you. I apologize for not being considerate. Feel free to go ahead and leave Booth. I promise I won't blame you. I know it is for the best."
'I can't believe she thinks I care whether I lose my job or what Rebecca thinks. She may be Parker's mother but she has no say about my love life. As for Parker, I can't believe she cares enough to consider him. I certainly don't deserve a woman like her.'
"Look Bones, I am not leaving you. It's not happening. I finally have a chance to date you and I am not letting it go. I am so happy that you care enough to consider Parkers reaction and how he will feel. I could care less about my job being at stake as long as I have you. As for Rebecca, she has no say over my love life, none what so ever so don't even worry about her. Parker is my son and I can say who he will or won't be around when I watch him."
"Booth I love you so very much. I know you want marriage and I don't want that. At least I don't think so. You want marriage and a family. I can't keep you from that. You need someone who wants to get married and start a family."
'That right there is what I didn't want to hear. Her saying that was what I only wanted. It's so not true.'
"Temperance, listen to me, and listen to me good. I don't have to have marriage. If I have you then that's all I need. I don't care about marriage or having kids with you. I'm not going to lie and say I don't want either with you because I would be struck dead by lighting with that kind of lie. You are all I want. I want all of you. I know that is a bit much but its true and I'm not hiding it any more. Do you understand?" Temperance was now crying like a little girl. She couldn't believe this man would give up everything he wanted for her. He was truly perfect. After thirty minutes of Booth begging and trying to reassure Bones he wasn't leaving, she finally agreed to keep the relationship.
"Booth, we need to tell Cullen now. Sooner rather than later would be great, so that we can get the worse over with. Then, of course, Cam would be next. Then we can make it official. I have some ideas," Bones said with a slight smirk on her face.
"Alright, I agree. I am so happy you are going to give me a shot. I can't believe this. I must be dreaming, don't pinch me," came Booth's response.
"Umm, Booth, how do we leave this office? I mean the second we walk out this door Angela will know we are a couple."
'She's right Angela will know. She is like a psychic.' "I'll go and then you can follow behind me after a few seconds. Try to make it look natural. Then, once out the double doors, we act like a couple in love." Booth wiggles his eyebrows.
'Huh? How do we act like one and not act like one? Why wouldn't we act like one?' "Umm, Booth what do you mean? Aren't we a couple now? What would be different?" Look at her! She is so gorgeous with that confused look on her face. She has no idea that look is one of Booth's favorites.
"Well, once outside I can kiss you and hold your hand," responded giddy Booth. Brennan looked down feeling stupid for asking a lame question.
"Right, okay. Go, I'll be right behind you."
Meanwhile, Angela and Hodgins were up on the platform having a discussion about the duo. Angela of course saying that the two would be in a relationship by the time they walked out of the office.
Hodgins saying, "No way, Dr. B is too professional. She would deny having feelings for the "G" man. We all know she does, but I mean come on. She always denies it." Angela had to agree with that.
"Look Hodgins, they both deny their feelings and say that they are 'just partners'. We all know that's a load of crap. We aren't stupid. They just like to dance around each other. They have been doing that for over four years now. At least we have two things to look forward to when they finally hook up. One, we get a lot of money. Secondly, they finally stop dancing around and get together, have amazing intercourse, and finally a wedding! You know they will have amazing looking kids," was Angela's long winded response.
"You know Ange, I think we need to help them out if they come out still not in a relationship," replied a determined Hodgins.
"I'm starting to worry Hodgins, they have been in her office for over an hour. I hope they are okay. I just hope she hasn't killed him for saying he loves her. Though, I think if she killed him she would have already came out. Hmm, maybe they are making out. I should probably go check on them." Just as Angela finished her sentence the office door flew open. Booth walked out looking just like he always does. Nothing appeared to be different in his appearance. If anything, he looked a little down.
Five minutes later, outside the Jeffersonian, Booth and Bones stood making out passionately. "Alright, when we get to the Hoover Building we will walk in, knock on his door and pray to God he doesn't separate us. Sound like a good enough plan to you," Booth asked.
"Of course it does. I would hate for him to try to split us up. I may be arrested if he even tries. No one knows what I'll do." They made their way to the black SUV and Booth, being the gentleman he is, helped her into the passenger seat without protest. They drove to the Hoover building in a comfortable silence for Bones but an unnerving one for Booth. He was afraid she was thinking about the new change and would realize that she deserved better and would break it off. Twenty minutes later they were parking the SUV. Brennan continued to sit there.