Dear Diary,
Today at school I found out that Finn may still have feelings for me. Now I know what you may be thinking, isn't it obvious. First, he still gave me my Christmas present he got me after we've been broken up. I would have thought he threw it away. But no, he kept it for this long. Second, he kissed Quinn again though. Doesn't that make him a hypocrite? Well, yes, it does in fact. Because that means he doesn't like it when girls cheat on him, but yet, if he is the one the girl is cheating with, it is perfectly fine!
Now, I must admit, I still do have feelings for him. He is still super cute and very sweet to me. But what do I do? Do I tell him? Do I ignore my feelings? No! I am Rachel Barbra Berry, what I will do, is... is... I'll sing about it! Perfect!
I, Rachel Barbra Berry, will sing Avril Lavigne's "Things I'll Never Say" during Glee tomorrow afternoon. Who knows how the others will take it, but to me, this song is an awakening to my feelings I still have for Mr. Hudson. And pretty deep feelings at that.
Watch out Finn Hudson, I am going to show that I still am in love with you. And that you can not just get rid of me.
Love,
Rachel Barbra Berry.
Finn looked shocked at the diary entry that was taped to his locker. Someone had found Rachel's diary and stole it. Made copies of some of the entries and posted them all around school. Was Rachel still really in love with him? He tore the page off his locker and folded it up. As he stuffed it in his pocket and turned around to see Rachel walking down the hall. Head down, not like she usually was. People pointed, whispered, and giggled as she walked down the hall.
Finn frowned and walked up to her, taking her books from her arms. "Hey Rachel." He said with a smile. Hoping she would smile back. She nodded and still looked down. "So... are you ready for that test in Biology today?" He asked her. Looking down at her.
Rachel then looked up and nodded. No words spoken at all. He walked with her to Biology and took a seat next to her. He set her books down on her desk and smiled. She queitly and quickly pulled her sleeves of her jacket up more, so she could hold them in her hands. She looked horrible. Like she was going to cry at any moment. That's when he jumped, hearing her voice for the first time in almost 30 minutes.
"So, Finn, what page did you get on your locker?" She asked. Looking down. She must have seen all the pages on everybody's locker. And on her locker was a list of how many pages were handed out. Only one page was handed out once. And what if it the page she confessed her love of Finn on? Finn looked at her and sighed.
"Well... let's just say. I can't wait to hear your song you're going to sing today." He smiled a bit and she smiled back. Yep, he had gotten the page she had thought of. She looked around the room and noticed people turn quickly away.
"You know, if I was a Cheerio, this would have never happened." Rachel said, probably thinking aloud.
Finn shook his head though. "Rachel, you are better than half the people in here. Hell, you're better than everyone in here. Don't let this stupid prank get you down. Anyway, you have Glee Club. They won't judge you." Rachel shrugged. Taking out a piece of paper she started to write a quote.
It read; "When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I'm already better than them."-Marilyn Monroe. It was in beauitful handwriting and little drawings went around it. Rachel quickly put it in the front of her binder she always carried. She looked down at it and smile. Also in that binder was a picture of Finn and Rachel right before they had broken up.
"You still have that?" Finn asked, confused and kinda shocked. Though at the same time, glad about it. She nodded, blushing a bit. He took his wallet out and pulled out his own copy of the same picture, which was kind of messed up due to being folded and unfolded over and over again. Rachel smiled at him and nodded. Finn smiled back at her. Then the late bell rang and they had to turn to the front. Though, Finn couldn't help but look at Rachel every few minutes, or was it seconds? Was he getting feelings for her once again? Or were they always there, waiting for him to realize he still lvoed her?
