DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN TWILIGHT, STEPHANIE MEYER DOES!
AN: Please no flames… this is kind of based off of stuff that's going on in my life right now. Thanks. Please leave a review though!
This is set when Edward and Bella are in about 10th grade. They are both human. Blla writes this and doesnt plan on sending it or ever letting him see it.
Dear Edward,
Do you even miss me? I doubt it. I see you every single day. We talk, we joke, and we smile. You don't realize that behind my smile is a broken heart, do you? Well honestly there is. Every day is a living nightmare. I hate seeing you and knowing that you aren't mine.
It used to be so simple, being yours. I was so happy, every day was full of was so perfect… while it lasted. I still find myself thinking about that bus ride. Traveling with our friends on the way to our track meet. The whole way home sleeping on your shoulder and holding your hand. So perfect. My favorite memory of you.
We were what they called the perfect couple. Everywhere we went wet got compliments of how cute we were. How perfect we were. I miss that so much..I miss holding your hand as we walked down the halls at school together. I miss hugging you as we parted ways to go to our separate classes. I miss it all so much.
What would you do if you knew that even after two and a half months of us being over that I'm still not over you? Would you say you're sorry and pull me close and tell me you made the biggest mistake ever by leaving me? Probably not, but I can dream right?
I have a plan you know? A plan to win you back.. it's probably a bad idea but hey it could work and I'm willing to do anything. The main part of the plan starts when I can drive.. only another year of this I hope.. I'm hopeless…
I'm trying to keep myself busy by for the mean time. It's not easy trust me but I'm trying my hardest. Edward, his name is Evan. We met last year. We were friends then I started to talk to him when we ended. He was just a relief from the pain of losing you at first. Then I realized maybe I felt something for him. Not as much as I felt for you but at least when I talk to him my pain is almost gone for a while.
It's so weird talking to him and not having it be you. I miss you so much it's not even funny. You were so right for me. Then you were gone. I guess I did see it coming though.. that day when it happened… you were different. You didn't hold my hand when we walked to class like you always had before. You didn't hug me when you had to go to class. I had to get you to do those things. I was concerned but I didn't think too much of it. Now I realize I was right with my suspicions.
Edward, I want you back so bad. I don't know what I did that caused you to leave me. I just wish I knew the real reason. i asked you and you just said you weren't really ready for a relationship at the moment and wanted to just be friends with me. I heard from others that you said I had changed since we had started to be together. I wonder which one is true.
Edward, I miss you so much. Evan can't rid me of the pain I feel when I see you walking towards me and then right past me without saying hi to me. He just can't get rid of that. No one but you could. Part of me says I need to drop this whole thing but then I hear your name, or smell something and it smells like you or something and fall for you all over again. It sucks Edward. It really truly sucks.
Why can't you see the pain I have to go through every day?
-I LOVE YOU EDWARD!
Love always,
Bella XOXO
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Much love;
Kylee