Maybe you think I'm a horrible person.
And I am. I'm rotten to the core.
But I don't hit kids and I don't get drunk. I will never be my father. I would never let a child, let alone MY child leave the house with tears coursing down his face and his entire body stinging from the brutal abuse I had just received.
I take refuge in the fact that I have not that low and indeed will never.
I am not my father.
I try not to hurt people, especially children. I try.
I try, I try, I try.
You don't know me, so don't you judge me. You don't know how many times I've fallen from grace.
No one is there to catch me. But that's okay. I will catch myself. I will just stand up.
I don't need help from anyone.
I'm an awful, cruel person and I have done horrid things.
But I defend myself with these simple words: I do not take pleasure in it. In hurting.
I do not find anything satisfying about letting someone else just go through pain.
I try not to force them. I try not to let them go through that. But it's hard.
Who I am is a far cry from who I want to be, but you will never know me so don't judge me.
I will never get drunk and abuse children, not like my father. Never.
Not like my father did to me.
That's beyond cruel.
And call me what you will – horrible, rotten, cruel, despicable, cold…
But I am far from abusive. I am far from abusive and so far from heartless.
A/N: So I realize this is pretty bad. Choppy and cheesy. So don't say that.
But I really adore the idea of Jafar having an abusive father because it makes him more likeable. Or at least easier to empathize with. I don't think Jafar was heartless, just cruel, clever and cunning.
And I think he avoided hurting as much as he could. Think. Instead of killing Jasmine, Sultan or Aladdin when he had them all at his mercy completely, he spared them and kept Sultan and Jasmine as slaves and sent Aladdin away. He just needed the three out of the way.