This fic is rated M for language and lemons...you've been warned.

I own nothing...it's all Mrs. Meyers!

Renesmee POV

It was a normal sunless afternoon in Forks. Jacob and I sat in the dense forest around my family home, feeling sluggish from the elk we had just finished draining. I grinned over at him, gloating because for once I had gotten the biggest one without him having let me.

"It was luck Ness! Don't let it go to your head or anything!" he reached over and mussed my hair out of it's ponytail.

"It wasn't luck Jacob...it was skill!" I shouted

"You're like 5 years old, you don't have any skills yet."

"Do I look like 5 year old Jacob?" I asked with raised eyebrows. Being a half-human, half-vampire hybrid of sorts, I aged rather quickly. True, I had been born a little over 5 years ago, but mentally and physically I was closer to 14.

"Looks can be deceiving Ness" and he mussed my hair again. Jacob Black was my best friend, sort of like an older brother even. I'd known him my entire life, he had always been there for me, as a play friend, babysitter, protector..etc etc. He was like my own personal sunshine, I could always depend on Jacob to get me thru the rough spots and I was glad to have him in my life.

We sat there, talking back and forth for another hour or so, he was asking me about my homeschooling when suddenly his head jerked toward me and I saw his nostrils flair. Only half a second later, I smelled it too. I felt the wetness between my legs, and in what felt like slow motion I looked down and screamed.

Jacob POV

Holy fuck! This isn't happening! Not now! FUCK!. "Ness, Ness! Calm down, it's okay!" I was trying my best to get her to calm down. She was literally having what can only be described as a hissy fit. Tears were pouring out of her eyes like a faucet. She was beat red from embarrassment and probably a little fear. She wouldn't look at me and she was struggling against my arms that held her shoulders.

"Oh my God! Jacob, please let me go, I have to go!" she was screaming and screeching. I had to let her go, it was what she wanted. Flinging herself off the ground, she took off at vampire speed towards the cottage. I sat back against a tree and hung my head. Fuck! What the hell am I supposed to do? It hurt like hell to see her cry, it was even harder to sit here against this fucking tree and not run after her. But I knew "girly stuff" well enough to know that she needed a female right now, and not me. Even that thought tore open my heart, she was my imprint, I was supposed to be anything she needed me to be, and I couldn't do a fucking thing right now.

Renesmee POV

"MOM" I screamed when I got near the cottage. I was bawling and running at full speed, and I had unfortunately inherited my mother's clumsiness, so I was tripping over my own feet, and bouncing off the trees. I could hear her coming, the air changed and instantly she was there. She stopped a few feet from me and glanced down at the blood now running down my leg. Her brows nit together and I could see the sorrow..and pride? run across her face. "Oh Renesmee" and she pulled me into her ice cold arms, gave me a quick hug, then lifted me off the ground and ran me home. I couldn't tear myself away from mom's arm as she set me down in the bathroom and turned the shower on. I was still sobbing uncontrollably. Crap! Why did this have to happen today! Of ALL days, it had to be today? In front of Jacob? "Baby," my mother was saying, looking at my horrified expression, "honey, you're okay, we talked about how this might happen, it's no big deal, it's a good thing!"

"I know, I know all the medical stuff mom," and I hung my head, "but I started in front of Jacob! My GOD mom, he smelled it, he knew what was happening before I did!" I was practically screaming in hysterics.

She gathered me in her cold embrace again, and I swear I heard her chuckle. "Don't worry about Jacob honey, there's nothing you could do that would keep him away. He's your best friend, he understands, I promise" and she kissed my forehead as she helped me out of my clothes. "I've got to go to the main house and get some things for you, take a shower and calm yourself down, it'll all be okay baby." I climbed into the steamy water, and already felt some of the stress melting away.

"Mom?" she turned to look at me. "Will you try and find Leah? I really want to talk to her"

She smiled her brilliant smile at me, "of course Renesmee, I'll find her."

Jacob POV

I couldn't sit there against that tree any longer, I had to make sure she was okay. I was pretty sure it was just her getting a normal period, but what if it wasn't. We didn't know how everything worked with Renesmee, it could be something horrible. Just the thought made me physically sick. So I took off toward Edward and Bella's. I was almost there when I smelled and heard Bella.

"Bells!" I said as she stepped off the path towards me. "is she okay?"

"Relax Jacob, she's fine, it's normal, I promise." She patted my shoulder. "That couldn't have been the most comfortable experience for you" she said with a laugh.

"Fuck Bells! It was freaking horrible!" I said as I slumped over against yet another tree.

She raised her eyebrows at me "language Jacob!"

"Sorry, sorry, I was just shocked."

She walked over to me and plopped down on the ground next to me. "She'll be fine, she's more embarrassed that you saw that than anything else." She was absently ripping blades of grass apart with her stone cold fingers.

"Oh man, she shouldn't be embarrassed about it, it's normal, there's nothing she should feel.."

Bella raised her hand to cut me off with an exasperated sigh..." I know this Jacob, I told her this too. I know how you feel about her, you don't have to tell me...again." She gave me the annoyed look that she used to give me all the time and I couldn't help but laugh. "Should I? I mean do you think I should go talk to her?" I asked.

"No Jacob, she needs some space right now" she must have seen my face fall "She'll come around, she just needs to deal with this first"

"Sure, sure, I guess that makes sense." I stood up at the same time Bella did.

"Can you try and track down Leah? Renesmee wants to see her." she said as she turned towards the main house.

"Yeah Bells, I'll get on it" I said as she took off.

I walked back into the forest and removed my clothes. I let myself shimmer down into my wolf form. I couldn't hear Leah so I called to her.

LEAH! you there?

Yes O mighty ALPHA I'm here

Shut it Leah, Nessie needs you at her house.

What? What happened?

Girl stuff Leah, lots and lots of girl stuff. I could feel her reading my thoughts, seeing my memories.

Oh wow! she thought excitedly my little girl's growing up

The Alpha in me growled my little girl!

Relax Jake, you know what I meant!

Sure, sure...just get you're butt over there!

Roger that!

Where's Seth?

He's with Edward and Emmett, they went hunting and he decided to tag along for some reason.

I could see in her thoughts that she wasn't far from me, so I phased back and pulled my clothes back on just in time to see her come crashing through the forest towards me. She skidded to a halt behind a large tree and I felt her phase. She came into view wearing her usual black shorts and gray tank top.

"So be nice Leah!" I said in my Alpha voice, "she's freaked out"

"Like you have to tell me like that" she said giving me a dirty look, "she's my friend, I wouldn't hurt her" she stomped off shaking her head

"Not what I meant Leah" I said as she entered the cottage and slammed the door.

Fuck! I can be an ass sometimes!

As much as I wanted to stay around, I knew that Renesmee would want to have a private moment with her girl friend, so I turned to leave. Just then the door to the cottage opened up and Bella stepped out onto the porch and gave me her huge smile, just like old times, only very, very different.

I had loved Bella at one time, not so very long ago actually, but that didn't matter anymore. She was just Bells now, my best friend, well..behind Ness. I gave her a questioning look as she walked towards me, I figured she would be in on the "girl talk".

"I'm still not Leah's favorite person, I wanted her to be comfortable, Renesmee wants to talk to her, so I thought we could go hunting?"

"Sounds good." I nodded and we began walking into the woods. We walked in comfortable silence for a while, getting deeper into the woods, both lost in thought. So much had changed in just 5 short years, I no longer loved Bella, not like that anyway, I was happy that she was happy. I no longer hated Edward, or any of the Cullen's for that matter...well except Blondie, but that was mostly just because she was too fun to antagonize. Our fight (or lack there of) with the Volturi after Nessie's birth had brought all of us closer together. They had trusted me with their daughter. If things had gone badly they knew that she would always be safe with me. An unlikely friendship had blossomed first between Leah and Blondie and then as she aged, Renesmee and Leah. Renesmee didn't have any human friends really, so she went to Leah for the problems she had on her "human side" as she called it. It still shocked me to no end that Leah would have anything to do with any of the Cullen's, but she really seemed to be at peace with them now. Shortly after the Volturi event I had gotten a job at Dowling's in town, finished up high school on the reservation and had begun saving my money in hopes of one day opening my own garage. I was still a ways away from being able to go into business, but with Alice and Carlisle's help, my money had quadrupled in just a few short years. Everything was right on track..until now, until today. 5years, 5 very short years, and now Nessie was almost fully grown. I couldn't handle that. I wasn't an expert on the imprinting thing, but I was pretty sure that as soon an Nessie hit maturity it would kick in and her feelings toward me would change, my feelings would change, and I wasn't anywhere near being prepared for that. She had to have a chance at a normal life, a chance to live and see the world, to grow up without the imprinting tie holding her down here. Edward and Bella had agreed not to tell Nessie about the imprinting until I was ready for them too, they understood how I felt about it having to be her choice to be with me. My head was spinning.

"Bells, you and Edward have to leave now." I blurted out. She looked at me with shock and outrage and then confusion. "What the hell are you talking about Jacob! Why would we leave now? It's not time, no one suspects anything, it's okay Jacob, we have a few more years. Edward and Alice don't see anything that would make us have to leave."

I was looking at the ground, shaking my head and running my hands thru my short cropped hair.

"No Bells, it's not about that," I was trembling on the inside, I could barely put into words the way I was feeling "It's Nessie." I finally looked up and saw only fear and concern in her big brown eyes.

"Jacob," she said slowly, "what's wrong, what's going on?" She walked over to me and put her hands on my shoulders to try and calm my shaking.

I couldn't sit still, I began pacing around in circles, still shaking, still ripping my fingers thru my hair.

"Bells, it's only a few more years, she's gonna be fully mature. What the hell am I supposed to do? She's still like my little sister, I can't be around her right now, I can't deal with this imprinting thing yet" I let it all rush out in one breath and raised my eyes to meet hers.

Bella was looking at the ground, but immediately raised her head as we both felt the air change and smelled Edward coming towards us. As soon as he cleared the trees Bella was in his arms and his eyes were on me. He didn't bother asking what was wrong, he could read it in my thoughts, the pain, the confusion...the guilt.

"Don't feel guilty Jacob." he said quietly "You only want whats best for Renesmee."

Bella jerked from his arms. "WHAT!" You can't honestly think we're going to leave do you? We can't leave right now, what about Renesmee? She'll be heartbroken over this, Jacob is her best friend...and what about Charlie? I can't leave him yet, Renesmee can't leave him yet, she loves him." she was looking between the both of us with pleading eyes.

Edward pulled her into him for a quick hug, and held my eyes. "He's right Bella. If we're still here when the time comes, the imprint tie will take over and she'll never have a chance to choose her own way."

Bella looked down at the ground and I could see her shoulders shaking with her silent dry tears.

"But she's you're imprint Jacob. You're supposed to be together. It's FATE!" she screamed at me. "How can you want to be away from her? I thought it would hurt too much! That's what you always say, how it hurts to be away from her!"

I walked toward and her and grabbed her stone shoulders. "It will hurt Bella, but she has to have a chance to live. Once this imprint thing happens for her, it'll be over, she won't ever want to be with anyone else or be anywhere else. Do you want that for her? Do you want her to never have a choice? I don't. I can't stand the thought of her not being able to live like a normal person." I let go of her and hung my head "you have to go. Let her grow up, let her live, I refuse to let this imprint thing rule her life. If the time comes that she wants me, I want to know that SHE chose me because she loved me, not because of the imprint."

I felt a cold hand on my face, "You've suffered so much Jacob" Bella said "You've done so much for all of us, how can we do this to you?" She was biting on her bottom lip and the little furrow between her eyes was all bunched up.

"Because I want you to Bella"

RPOV

"Oh my God Leah! It happened right in front of Jacob! My God it's so disgusting and embarrassing!" I hung my head and felt warm tears escaping my eyes and running down my cheeks.

"It's normal and natural Ness, Jacob knows that..." she looked at me with complete honesty "he's not disgusted, he won't think any differently of you."

Over the years, I had come to depend on Leah for all my normal human girly emotions that seemed to overwhelm me at times. She was the closest thing to a human girlfriend I had. My aunts didn't remember the emotions associated with puberty, my mom's memories where extremely clouded but she helped when she could, but Leah, she remembered with perfect clarity. She was always there for me when I needed her, I was almost as close to her as I was with Jacob. It was always easy with Jacob, and I really felt that I could talk about almost anything with him, but this...this was a different story, I needed a girlfriend for this.

After an hour of sobbing on my part and consoling on Leah's, I felt halfway normal again. I was still BEYOND embarrassed about what had happened, but Leah reassured me that Jacob wouldn't be all grossed out about it, and things between us wouldn't change. I felt only slightly better, something nagging in the back of my mind told me that EVERYTHING was going to change.