Title: If only…
Fandom: Inuyasha
Author: kira
Chars/Pairs: Hiten/Byakuya
Genres: romance
Warnings: none
Word Count: 666
Summary: Part of my Modern AU, Hiten and Byakuya find a way to have a more physical relationship, despite Hiten's battle with AIDS

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"Please, Hi-chan…" Byakuya said softly.

Hiten lay in bed, looking at his young would-be lover. Byakuya knew damned well they could not have sex even with a condom as he was deathly afraid of infecting him with AIDS. It was hard, going solo together and just cuddling when they both wanted more. Especially when they both knew deep down they would be having sex if Hiten was not sick. Hiten sighed, gently brushing his fingertips against Byakuya's cheek. "You know the only reason we can't is I don't want you getting sick."

"I know and it's a risk I'm willing to take, Hi-chan! I love you; damn it and I don't care!"

"You should care!" Hiten grabbed his young lover's chin. "This is isn't a cold, Kuya-chan, this is a death sentence." He sighed. "You have your whole life ahead of you."

"I know… but I…"

"Don't speak…" Hiten lightly brushed his lips against the younger man's forehead. "We'll do it, but on my terms."

"Okay…" Byakuya reached up to cup his lover's cheek.

Hiten smiled, and rolling over, got up out of bed. He padded over to his dresser and opening it, he took out a small box of condoms and brought it back to his waiting lover. "I'm wearing one whether you like it or not."

"It's okay, Hi-chan…" Byakuya sat up. He pulled his t-shirt up and over his head, tossing it onto the floor.

Hiten watched as the rest of his pajamas followed. He moaned softly as Byakuya was drop-dead gorgeous and he longed to taste him. He felt himself growing hard when he reached out to gently touch the lotus blossom tattoo on Byakuya's hip.

"Hi-chan, before we do anything, I want one too. It's only fair I wear one if you do."

Hiten quirked his eyebrow, and got up to go get another condom. Stripping naked, he chuckled softly when he put on his condom and Byakuya did the same. Sitting down on the bed, he laughed.

"What?"

"It's not you, Kuya-chan, it's me. I feel young and stupid again, like I'm fifteen and about to do a friend of mine…"

"Kusao Bankotsu?" Byakuya said. The man was just as much a part of their relationship as he would had been had he actually been there. Yet, Byakuya found it hard to be jealous of him. Kusao was Hiten's past; he was his present and his future.

Hiten nodded. "We thought we were hot shit, having stolen a box of condoms and once we got them on, we didn't know what to do with ourselves."

Byakuya laughed. "I take it you figured it out, right?"

"Yeah… we did this…" Hiten kissed his beloved's cheek, his jaw, his neck as he pushed him gently onto his back. Blanketing him, he began moving his hips, creating a delicious friction that would have been better had they been able to go skin to skin. Still, it was better than nothing and it was as close to sex as Hiten was willing to go. "You like…?" he murmured softly in Byakuya's ear.

"Yeah…" Byakuya breathlessly replied. It was more than he had expected and it felt surprisingly good, especially when he moved along with him. He felt himself inching along to his release a lot faster than he had expected. Since this was as close as he was going to get, Byakuya lay back and enjoyed the ride such as it was and soon climaxed.

Hiten let out a soft moan as he came. He quickly got up and padded over to the bathroom. He wanted to get rid of the condom and he felt a pang of guilt as he removed it, flushing it down the toilet. He smiled sadly when beloved came up behind him, and wrapping his arms around him, he kissed Hiten's shoulder.

"There's nothing to worry about, Hi-chan." Taking his condom off, he dropped it in the toilet and flushed. "Let's clean up and go back to bed."

"Yeah…"