Authors Note:

Hi,

first of all I want to point out that English is not my first language, i.e. I'm sorry if there are any mistakes (I'm sure there are ;-) ), and that this is my very first FanFic ever, so please don't be too hard on me :)

Necessary information to understand this FanFic:
This is set some time after 1x16, but is AU. Rebekah came back and she and Klaus made up again.
Rebekah is no longer a vampire in this story but isn't completely human too (even though she is mortal now).
She is still in her original body but has no vampire abilities apart from that she can't age.

Songs that inspired me while writing this chapter:
"Shattered" by "Trading Yesterday"
"How to save a life" by "The Fray"
"Who you are" by "Jessie J"

Disclaimer:
The title of the story is taken from the song "Who you are" by "Jessie J".
I do not own the mentioned songs all rights belong to their rightful owners.
Unfortunately, I do not own any of the characters nor do I own "the Originals" or "the Vampire Diaries" all rights belong to their rightful owners.

Please fav & review! :D

Chapter 1

It was a chilly foggy and dark night in New Orleans. Rebekah has parked her car near one of the bridges leading over the Mississippi river. The crying blonde walked along the empty bridge and came to a halt when she has reached the middle of it.

Rebekah's POV

My face was damp of the tears streaming down my face, and my whole body was shaking as I climbed over the banister of the bridge, and positioned myself on the other side of it. My hands were shaking as I held the cold, steel banister behind me in them. I just stood there for a while, while the icy wind blew back my long blond hair. Alone. Lost. Crying. I didn't dare to look down.

What has happened to me? 6 month ago I was this sovereign, strong, badass original, and now… I have no idea who I am anymore… I wish I could just turn the time back and make it all undone. But I can't. Just like I can't be the one I was before all of this happened.

The last months have been too much for me. I've lost everything I have been for the last 1000 years. My speed, my strength, my ability of compelling other people… my self-confidence… my immortality… everything that defined who I am.

Of course I had my family to support me. Nik and Elijah both tried to help me in their own way. Elijah gave me nearly all of his attention, and always asked me how I was feeling, and if I needed anything, but, despite trying to not show it, I knew he was also very worried about me.

Nik tried to help me in his own way, but honestly I would have rather had him not helping me, because he wasn't helpful at all. Despite the thoughtful try of him to give me his blood, when I cut my hand once, in order to see if vampire blood would still work on me, and thus I could be turned into a vampire again, which didn't work, he was more possessive and overprotective than ever. He denied me to leave the house without either one of them, him or Elijah, and forbid me drinking; he even decided that my new bedtime is at 10pm. I know he loves me and that he had the best intentions, but I felt like a bird in a golden cage.

I just can't go on like this anymore, I can't get up morning after morning pretending that I'm fine, that I'm not broken, that I'm not lost, that I'm not helpless, that I'm not fragile,… that I'm not desperate,… that I'm not scared,… that I'm not, not the same person anymore…

My vision was blurry from all my crying and sobbing, and I was so cold that I couldn't feel my hands anymore as I dared to look down. I couldn't see much. Just the darkness and the fog. But I knew that there was the river some meters below me. I could hear the water…

Just one step, and all of this is over. One step, and I'm no longer a burden for my family. One step, and none of all this misery matters anymore. One step, and I'm free…

I raised my foot slowly as my breathing quickened. I was scared. But it was the only way out… I thought of pulling my foot back but I didn't. Instead, I jumped. Closing my eyes as I fell, I heard the wind in my ears and felt how my hair and my clothes were being blown up by the air, before I hit the water surface.

All I could feel was the coldness. My breathing quickened a lot. I could not feel my body anymore. I panicked. I tried to swim but I just couldn't. It was too cold. Slowly I began to sink. I tried to pull myself up but it didn't work. The water went over my mouth. I pulled my head back so that I could breathe. But it was no use. A moment later, I was completely under the surface.

The only thing I could feel was this terrible coldness. It went from the water through my whole body. I was scared for my life. I tried to breathe. The only thing that came into my lungs was this icy water. Moments later, there was darkness. Spreading from the corners of my vision. Soon, all I saw was darkness…

End of Rebekah's POV

Meanwhile, on a nearby road…

Klaus and Elijah were sitting in Klaus' SUV, while Klaus was rushing the car down the road. His face displayed a mix of emotions. Worry. Angst. Anger. But the hybrid wasn't the only one showing emotions, Elijah's face was full of worry. Klaus was the one who broke the tense silence.

"Have you heard anything from Marcel's men yet, brother?", the younger one asked impatiently.

"No not yet. Just like I have told you the last thirteen times you have asked me in the past ten minutes. You do realize that they will not contact us sooner just because you choose to ask me if they did every view seconds, brother?", the elder one answered in a seemingly calm but slightly stressed tone.

"What if she 's lying somewhere in an alee, beaten up and bleeding, or worse!? If I find the one who took her, I swear I will grand that bloody coward a long and unmerciful death.", the hybrid growled, tightening the grip of his hands around the steering wheel.

"Niklaus, calm down. We don't know if she's been taken, perhaps she needed some time to herself, and went on her own.", Elijah advised. Now the elder one was getting an even more bad feeling in his stomach, thanks to the mental picture his brother just painted.

"She knows that she isn't allowed to leave the compound on her own, Elijah! What was she thinking? She knows how dangerous it is out there, New Orleans is full of our enemies!"

Elijah sighed, arguing with his brother when he was in such a murderous mood was pointless.

Out of the corner of his eye he recognized a red convertible, but before he could inform his younger sibling about his discovery, the car was pulled around harshly and came to an abrupt halt in front of the red vehicle.

"That's 'Bekah's car.", the blond said as he recognized the registration plate and immediately jumped out of his car, hoping to find indications of his little sisters whereabouts, while his older brother followed him.

Unfortunately, they found nothing.

"What could she want to do here at this time?", the elder sibling wondered.

"I don't know, but we better find her soon. You search on the bridge, I search at the shore, call me if you find something.", the hybrid commanded before both of them sped into the foggy, dark night.

While he sped down the shore, the hybrids eyes noticed the body of a blonde lying in the water, with the stomach and face turned to the ground.

"ELIJAH!", he shouted before he jumped into the freezing water, and swam to his little sister.

"Rebekah? 'Bekah? Are you all right, sweetheart? Please, answer me, open your eyes, love, please…", the older sibling pleaded as he grabbed the unconscious younger one, and noticed her very pale and freezing cold skin, her purple lips, and her very slow and weak heartbeat.

When he received no reaction, he pulled her with him to the shore. Carried her out of the water. Carefully lay her down on the ground. And immediately kneeled down beside her.

Feeling a light blow of air, he moved his head upwards to look at his shocked elder brother.

"… What happened?", the elder one asked in a frightened tone, as he collapsed to his knees at the other side of his sister.

"I don't know… I found her like this in the water.", the wet hybrid answered looking down at his little sister with watery eyes. Suddenly he noticed that her heart has stopped beating, and that she hasn't been breathing.

"…Is she dead?", the eldest asked as he noticed the lack of vital signs too.

"No.", the hybrid answered in an angry and hurt tone, as he started reanimation, "Call an ambulance, now!", the hybrid demanded from his brother." We won't let her die just like that! I won't let her die like that!", he shouted in desperation, as tears rolled down his cheeks.

The eldest did as he was asked and called an ambulance, while his own eyes were very watery. When he hung up they suddenly heard their little sister coughing up water and gasping for air as she opened her beautiful, blue eyes.

"'Bekah, sweetheart, are you all right?", Klaus asked in relief, as he pulled her into a tight hug.

The youngest nodded her head and whispered "… yes.", as she hugged him back weakly with a gnawing feeling of guilt in her chest.

After the hybrid reluctantly released her from the hug, Elijah was the next one to pull her into a hug and whispered in relief "Thank god, you're alive.", before he kissed the top of her wet head.

"What happened?", the eldest asked in a worried tone after he let go of her, while keeping his hand on her shoulder for emotional support.

Rebekah's eyes began to fill up with tears, and she stuttered as she looked on the ground and lied quietly "I-I… I don't know.", while the guilty feeling in her chest grew bigger and bigger as she sat there on the ground.

"What do you mean you don't know? You must have seen something, Rebekah, who did this to you?", Klaus demanded as he grabbed her by the shoulders and turned her to face him.

The youngest looked him in the eyes, but didn't answer.

"'Bekah, who did this to you?", the hybrid asked again, as he looked her in the eyes, trying to find out what she was hiding from him.

The girl began to cry, hot tears streaming down her face as she sobbed a quiet "…I …"

"What? What do you mean?", the hybrid asked shocked, he couldn't believe what she was telling him.

"… I-I… I jumped… from the bridge,", the girl sobbed, "… I-I'm so sorry…".

Niklaus' eyes widened. This couldn't be true, could it?

"But why would you do such a thing, Rebekah?", Elijah asked shocked, while he moved to her side so he could see her face.

"… I just can't live like this anymore, I am no longer who I was 6 month ago, and I have no idea who I am now." The blonde sobbed, as Elijah held her small hand in his larger ones, "I just know that I do not want to be the person I am now, I may look like the old me… but I am not… I'm inferior to her."

"No, Rebekah, you're not.", he stated as he looked her straight in the eyes, "You're still the sweet, loving sister I have known for over the last 1000 years."

She nodded, and tried to give him a small smile, but failed miserably.

Nik gently placed his hand on her cheek and moved her head so that her blue eyes met his own. "Always and Forever.", he said "This is the only promise I have ever kept in my entire life, and I intend to keep it.", he said with a sincere voice while raising his eyebrows.

Then he smiled at her and whipped away her tears with his hand. Rebekah gave him a weak smile in response, before he pulled the still very pale girl in a hug and kissed the top of her wet head. A moment later, Elijah joined the group hug and whispered "We'll find a solution, we always do.", while the sirens of the approaching ambulance could be heard.

Authors Note:

I hope you liked the first chapter. I wanted to start writing FanFics long ago, but I never really found the time to do it, and now I have it. I would love to hear what you think of it, so please, be so kind and leave a review.

Thank you so much for reading my first chpater! :)