Long were the nights when
My days once revolved around you
Counting my footsteps
Praying the floor won't fall through, again
And my mother accused me of losing my mind
But I swore I was fine
You paint me a blue sky
And go back and turn it to rain
And I lived in your chess game
But you changed the rules everyday
Wonderin' which version of you I might get on the phone, tonight
Well I stopped pickin' up and this song is to let you know why
"Sherlock!"
John bounded up the stairs, taking two at a time. He had something he wanted to tell Sherlock. It had been nearly a year now since John had first met Mary. She was sweet, funny and basically everything John wanted. She had been unusually accepting of John running off to Sherlock's every command but now they thought it was time to test their relationship fully. He was moving into another flat with her.
Sherlock was in the kitchen (that he had seemingly adapted into his lab) and staring into his microscope at something.
"Sherlock?"
"Not now I'm busy." Sherlock said.
"I need to tell you something. It's about me and Mary"
When Sherlock heard Mary's name mentioned he couldn't help the shudder that ran through him.
John had noticed that Sherlock didn't like Mary at all. He had never liked any of his girlfriends but with Mary he seemed to despise her. It's probably just Sherlock being Sherlock John thought.
"So...what is it? Have you broke up? Something happened?"
"Ummm...no."
"Well what did you want to tell me. Do hurry. As you can see I am in the middle of something here." He gestured wildly with his hands at the experiment in front of him.
"Well...actually...I'm moving out."
"Oh" That's all Sherlock seemed to be able to manage. John was expecting a much bigger reaction. He was expecting Sherlock to start going through the list of reasons why he shouldn't move out and so forth.
"With Mary I presume." Sherlock looked up at John expectantly.
"Yes, with Mary. It's a nice house. Don't worry we will still be doing all this. I will keep in contact all the time. Call me whenever you need me or you just want to."
"No. You clearly won't have time for me anymore."
John thought that Sherlock would take it badly at first. He shook his head.
"Sherlock. Yes I will! Just because I'm with Mary it doesn't mean that I could ever forget about you."
Sherlock just nodded and went back to looking through his microscope telling John that the conversation was over.
When Sherlock finally finished the experiment he went into his bedroom. After about an hour John was curious but also a little bit worried about what Sherlock was doing.
"Sherlock? What are your doing?" He tapped on the door.
"Nothing" came the curt reply.
The door was locked so John tapped again.
"Sherlock! Are you ok? What are you doing?"
John heard an annoyed sigh come from behind the door.
"I'm fine!"
"Then why are you shouting?"
Sherlock sounded frustrated and John wasn't quite sure but he thought Sherlock had sounded a little upset about something. It wasn't about him moving out was it?
Suddenly the bedroom door flung open and Sherlock stood, towering over John, scowling at him.
"I'm fine! Now can you leave me alone?"
"No need to be so moody! I just was wondering about you." John could see that Sherlock was in one of his big moods and thought it was best to go out. He didn't like being around when Sherlock was moody. It was never pleasant for anyone involved.
John decided to meet Mary and go for dinner.
As soon as he heard John disappear out of the door he sat in his chair and steepled his fingers underneath his chin. Over the last few months Sherlock began to feel something change within him. He started to notice tiny things about John that he never had before. At the first meeting in the lab at Barts, when Mike introduced them both, he immediately felt some form of connection between them. He immediately realised that John was different. He was exciting. After two months of living together, Sherlock had realised that John was going to stay. All the others left. No one liked him. Everyone thought he was a freak. But John had never called him that.
Sherlock felt something for John. He wasn't quite sure what it was. Love? But he was a sociopath. He didn't have emotions. But as it turned out, he did. Sherlock had realised that he loved John but John would never love him, not in the way Sherlock wanted anyway. Sherlock hated all of John's girlfriends and always did his best to get rid of them. They usually disappeared quickly but Mary kept hanging around. Sherlock insulted her. He called John constantly on all of their dates but she wouldn't go away.
Sherlock had never had any experience with a relationship. He had never been loved in that way. He wanted John. But he knew it was too late.
When John got home later that evening Sherlock acted his usual self and appeared not to be bothered by John moving out. However, inside he felt the cursed emotions creeping up and trying to break out. Sherlock stubbornly refused and put his cold mask on.
"You are ok then, with me and Mary."
"Yes I'm fine. Why wouldn't I be. I lived alone for many years before you came John." Sherlock said bluntly.
"Yeah...you don't want to change anything? I mean...we will still be doing everything. The crimes and...stuff."
"I know." Sherlock knew deep down that as soon as John had moved in with Mary he would see him less and less. He would move on with his life. Have a family. Something Sherlock could never give him.
John grunted and rose from his chair, "well I better go and have a shower. I'm gonna have an early night. I'm knackered." He said whilst yawning.
"Ok. Goodnight John."
John couldn't believe what he was hearing. Sherlock actually said goodnight to him.
"Goodnight Sherlock. Actually try and get some sleep tonight."
"I can't"
John sighed and walked away.
Sherlock couldn't sleep that night. Sleeping was boring anyway but even if he had tried to sleep he wouldn't have been able to anyway. Instead he stayed up all night listening to John's quiet snoring coming from his bedroom.
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