Its 8.25 am. I am going to be late for work! "Darn that Nowaki, saying that he would wake me up. What a load of bull!." I dashed to the bathroom, freshen up, stumbled at the drawers, cursing as if this only had happened once.

"Am I forgetting anything?! No?!." I dashed out of the house with Nowaki nowhere in sight. That is usual. I feel as if he in no longer present in the house no more. Always kept busy with his work. Coming home for a change of clothes, have a short casual talk with me then run back to the hospital.

"Dont let this get to you, you're late for work". I finally reached to the front door of my classroom. Thank god i brought my materials with me or not I have to be lectured by that Professor Miyagi this early in the morning. As I enter the class "everybody behave, lecture is going to start- you there! No cellphones allowed in this class!".

Exhaled after my classes are done for the day. I entered my office with a cringe on the face "Good evening Professor Miyagi". Then i see a person with all sparkles in his eyes upon hearing my greeting. Your sparkly-sparkly attitude is annoying! Urgh.

"Well, well, good evening to you too Hiroki. You look as crappy as always. Anything bad happened? said the annoying divorced man called Professor Miyagi. "Can you stop being all sparkly?! Dont lecture me on how crappy i look! Mind your own business! And dont call me by my first name!"

"Wow, someones moody. Something did happen. Want to talk about it to this enduring old man? I am a good listener." My eyes twitched. "Its non of your business professor, and by the way have you finished your paperwork on the-" as i sat down and look back a him, HE WAS MISSING. I called upon all diety to help me calm down my nerves. He must have not finished it yet. Isn't the deadline tomorrow?! I ain't going to help you on this one!

I kept on working, but my mind isnt solely focused on my work. All I think about is jet black. Nowaki. I looked at the clock and it's 9 pm. It was already that late. Gathered my materials and saw my phone blinking, indicating I have a message. I read it and it said.

"Im sorry it looks like i would be staying the night at the hospital again tonight. There are a lot of emergency cases and we are short of staff. I will make it up to you. Happy Anniversary my beloved. I love you. See you tomorrow. - Nowaki"

My heart aches. I knew it was the best decision not to make reservations anywhere or get exited over a celebration. We have been together for 9 years excluding the 6 years he went to America. An anniversary is suppose to be nothing by this time right? As long as he still loves me. Then again I remembered all the arguments that we had before, all about petty things but it was all important to me. Aside from his sempai, every time i come over to the hospital, I noticed all eyes were on him. My Nowaki. He is mine! But he is getting more an more popular to both men and women. He is highly praised in the hospitals university and gradually became one of the most capable doctors in the hospital. As expected from- my man? Tears starts to flow down to my cheeks without me noticing.

"Hiroki, are you okay?" asked Professor Miyagi. I jumped and immediately rubbed my eyes to wipe off those useless tears. "Of course I am alright, and you, where have you been?! Suddenly disappearing like that then reappearing like a ghost! You scared me..."

I toned down and looked away as I was still hung up on all the thoughts about Nowaki. Professor Miyagi saw it right away and hugged me.

"Calm down, its not the end of the world now is it? How about I make some coffee? Then we can talk about things 'kay?". He looked at me with a smile. Usually I would go full berserk but I dont feel like doing that now. I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs on how I hate Nowaki and miss him so much at the same time. Is it alright if I tell Professor Miyagi about my insecurities? I am sure he would'nt mind as he has a male lover too. "Yes please...professor".

I ended up chatting to Professor Miyagi, not letting him know everything. But told him my situation as Nowaki is at the hospital for 5 days now and before that was a whole week. And even before that-even before that. He is too busy to even spend time with me, always working non stop to the point of me worrying about his health. Professor Miyagi listened to me the whole way and came up to the conclusion. "You should hold your ground, say that you are tired of all of this! Spend more time with you and give him an empty threat that you will leave him if he dosent do as you say."

Leave him? Nowaki? I can't do that! I need him, I NEED HIM! He gives me warmth and completes me. Only he knows the real me! Thoughts running in my head about our relationship. He can always leave me that easily, he can always start a new life without me. He dosent need me. He's got everything that he wants now, all the success and fame. Me? If he leaves me...I have nothing. Tears starts falling again. I feel the shushing and a warm pat on my head from Professor Miyagi. His face looks as if he regretted giving me that idea. He hugged me and reassured that he was going to be there if anything happens.

"Pffftt, hahahaha!". I laughed. His dumb founded face was even more funny. I continued laughing while wiping my tears away. "haaaa, that was a good laugh. Thank you Professor Miyagi. But wont your young lover be super jelous if he heard that?" "Urkk..". I added when he knows I made a point "and arent you trying to comfort me because you have not finished with your report and wanting me to help you finish it by pulling an all nighter tonight?". "Urghhhh, my Hiroki...you sure are sharp at these things, huh? Well that wasnt my plan initially but since you said it that way ehehehe"

His lowly attempt at doing an ugly puppy dog eyes is annoying, but he did listen to me about Nowaki and I dont want to be alone tonight so, why not. I sighed and said "Okay Professor Miyagi, I will help you on condition that you brew more coffee for me!" "Yes, sir! Haha, great!" This is going to be a long night I talked to myself..