Disclaimer: Seto Kaiba and everything else Yu-Gi-Oh! was created by Kazuki Takahashi.

I don't know when or why I started to feel this way. I only know of the ever growing pain that pierces my heart and tearing up my soul…if there is anything left. All I ever wanted to do was cry but have no clue as to why. I want to be away from everyone. I just want to be alone. Is that too much to ask? I wish for once that people would leave me alone and just let me be. But no, that can't be.

I have nothing left. My heart feels so empty and broken; my soul lost. I don't know who I am anymore. What could've done such a thing to me long ago.

I still cry in the middle of the night as I lay in my bed. Tears flow down my face as I ask myself : 'Why is this happening to me?'.

I'm afraid; afraid of myself. I don't know what I'll do next. Perhaps I'll have to shut myself away from everyone else for awhile. I need time for me. I need time to think.

Then again…

Thinking.

Is this actually a sin? It seems the more I know, the more deeper this feeling goes. I may not be the smartest person in the world and not to sound too cocky, but sometimes I wonder if I'm too smart for my own good. Ignorance is bliss after all right? Was I cursed with this from the beginning?

All my life, I never knew the true meaning of success despite running Kaiba Corp. and everything. I didn't know what it was like to fail. What I had thought was failure was only a mere illusion. I had too reach rock bottom to understand the true meaning of success. I have never climbed a mountain from the bottom up before. It was as if I was being lifted higher on the wings of a bird which felt great but now I realize, I should've started from the beginning. That way I could get the most experience out of life. I have to make that happen.

I wasn't living the life. Sure, I had anything and everything that anyone would want in the world from my mansion to my maids but that's just to compensate for the large and empty hole within myself. It's engulfing my heart and causing such unbearable pain. I'm letting it consume me but I obviously don't want it to.

I yearn for that warm feeling that only exists in fairy tales and in your imagination. I could picture it, but I can't feel it. I want to experience these emotions for myself. I don't want to feel alone anymore despite having so many people around me. I want it all to end so I won't have to suffer anymore. I don't want to go through this for another six years or so. I don't know if I can endure this any longer.

All I hear from people is how "smart" I am. At one point in my life that was what I wanted to hear but now it's the LAST thing I want to hear. I don't want to be smart if that's where I get this pain from. Secondly, these people. How can they formulate an opinion on me if they don't even know me; the REAL me that they obviously have no clue about.

It doesn't even matter anymore, does it? What I really want doesn't exist anymore.

Love.

Is that too much to ask? They say love hurts but I'd rather be heartbroken than never experiencing it at all. At least then I'd know what it feels like to love and be loved and not in a brotherly way.

Is there someone who can help thaw the ice that's plaguing my heart and soul. Please… someone take me out of this Hell because I don't know what will happen if I lose the small light of hope that still inside me. Please guide this lost soul. Someone hold me tight and unleash me from the darkness. Please get me out of this cage before I die. Wake me up from this nightmare and show me there is more than life than just pain and suffering.

Please…

Someone…

Help me!

A/N: This is my first fanfic I've actually posted on the net. Any reviews/comments would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.