Disclamer: I don't own there wonderful characters I just use them...however if I did own Kartik...lazy smile
This takes place after TSFT.
I sit at my desk, looking out the open window, hoping to see what I know I never will. I look back at the letter I had started writing over an hour ago.
Dear Fee,
I hope this letter finds you well…
I…
I glance back out the window. Tears rushing to my eyes. I brush them away, laughing at what I've become. My dreams are all that keep me here. Dreams of him. Dreams of what could have been.
"Stupid, stupid Gemma." I say, "Still crying over a man, a stupid, stupid, man. A man your never going to see again because you let him, you let him sacrifice himself. You let him die. You let him die and you never deserve to be happy again! You're a terrible person. I'm a terrible person."
The tears are flowing freely now, it's not like anyone can see me. I'm alone. I look back at the letter, and put my hand to the page.
Dear Fee,
Ignore the above.
I still dream of him and how he would touch me, cautiously, guarded, lovingly. I miss him so much and wish he were here. I know it's been a long time and I should be over it but I'm not. I love him Fee. I know you didn't understand and you still don't but I love him and I want him back, I want him back right now!
I crumple the letter and toss it in the waste basket. A glance at the clock tells me it's midnight. I walk to my mirror and place a hand upon my face.
"Why?" I look at myself. The tears streaming down my face. I brush them away again and take a deep breath. I know he wouldn't like to see me like this. I know it deep down in my heart that he's always with me. The worst part is he's not truly dead. If I killed myself it would do nothing. I'll never see him again. He's in the Winterlands, trapped in a god damn tree. I stand to my full height, it should have been me. I should be the one stuck there, not him. One last look at myself and I fall into bed, waiting for my dreams to claim me.
If you like it hurra!
There's more to come. If you want it. If you think I should continue that is.
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-tIe