Never Enough
A/N: Based on the song 'Never Enough' by the Cure. Set during the End of Time Part Two. Just what the Doctor might have been feeling as he contemplated who or what to shoot. (Although seriously, it's not like he only had one bullet. Jeez...)
I don't suppose it matters if you haven't heard the song, but if you wanna listen, I'd suggest that you search for the Cure on Jango or an mp3 website, because YouTube doesn't seem to be the best place for their songs. :/
All the frustration he had felt in the past hours had melted and morphed, changing from fear to sadness and self-pity, until it was pure anger. And that made him very dangerous and impatient as he stood between two men, the gun clenched tightly in his hand.
Regeneration always came too soon, regardless of how long he had spent in a body, but the fact that he knew it was coming, and so quickly, infuriated him. For what could he do? No matter how much he tried, or what he did, it was going to happen. Whatever power he had ever felt was rendered useless by that damn prophecy of someone knocking four times, and the feeling of helplessness that that caused him to experience sent him flying into a raging temper. He was the Doctor, he was supposed to save people, heal people...and now, it turned out that he couldn't even save himself successfully. If it wasn't for the situation he was in, he would have allowed himself a bitter, humourless laugh.
Plus, pulling that trigger wouldn't even offer any kind of stress relief. He wasn't that kind of person.
Of course, he could cover pain and frustration with smiles and false happiness, he did it all the time. But this time, that wouldn't be appropriate, and he was tired of pretending. He was going to show his true colours, whatever happened. Reveal the powerful and...well, frightening person he could be. Because whatever he did that day, it would never be enough.
Finally knowing what to do, he pulled the trigger.