Authors note: Been feeling sort of depressed as of late so I decided to try and cheer myself up with fluffy and sad otp ficlets
It kind of hurt for you to see this. He was to blind to even fucking notice that Tavros clearly didn't feel the same for him, but flushed for Jade instead. It hurt you for him not even to realize your own bordering affections for him. Red tinging the soft pink middle of a diamond. You wanted to fucking grab his arm and yank him into an embrace. You wanted to kiss him until your lips bruised the hideous color or your mutant caste. You wanted to have his paint smeared over your lips and cheeks from soft to rough kisses. You would gaze at him from your view port fondly, wondering if one day that would happen. Then…something happened. Tavros turned his painted face and lanky body away. You watched Gamzee's smile flicker, the corners of his mouth turning down before into a small smile again. You could see the pain in his eyes, the hurt in the way his muscles remained tense. He just waves to Tavros and turns, walking into another room. You just scowl at the brown blood and turn, rushing into the room Gamzee had gone in.
"GAMZEE?…" You say. Your attention is brought to a slight quivering figure, letting out soft broken sobs and sniffles. You rush over and sigh, sitting beside him, before hugging him to you and petting his hair. He just tenses and looks up at you before burying his tearstained face into your shirt. Seeing him like this killed you. He was usually so happy all the time, smiling and honking stupidly…but…cutely. You shake the thought from your head. No indulging on your own feelings. He needed a moirail at the moment and a moirail is what you were gonna be. You kiss his head, petting him and papping him. He mumbles through broken sobs that he was stupid, that he should've waited for a better time, that Tavros probably would hate him. You just mutter soft it's okay, he's still your friend and shooshes to him.
"At least you got it out… If you had held back anymore he might've died or something…you did a good job…" Gamzee just looks up at you, before to the side and sniffling. You just take his face in your hands and hesitate before kissing his forehead. He just pulls you to his chest and hugs you close. You sigh and relax. You hated the fact that you couldn't take your own advice. You just didn't think it was the right Time to bring up any of your feelings at the moment. This was his feelings jam and right now he needed a pale quadrant mate more then a red one. It hurts to hold it in but for now, at least you had him somewhere.