This Burden Broke Her Shoulders
Just a little warning guys, this fanfic does contain self-harm and other sensitive issues so if these issues are triggering or could potentially harm or affect you in anyway, please disregard and do not read this fanfic.
My name is Maximum Ride. I'm 17, I live with my step-dad, my brother and my sister. I am a shameful existence.
It had been summer, the worst season of the year. It was hot, my hair was plastered to my wet and sweaty face. My long-sleeved grey jumper did nothing to cool me from the heat, and neither did my heavy jeans. Occasionally I would get glances and whispers, "why is she wearing that? It's a thousand degrees" or "Is she stupid, she's sweating out of her mind?". Even when the heat wave struck, I reluctantly slipped on my thin long-sleeved shirt and jeans and close to fainted whenever I went outdoors. The truth is, if I wasn't clad in winter attire, I would probably receive more glances and whispers, more attention, and this time, the comments would be even harsher.
"Maximum Amarylis Ride, get your butt up before Dad get's home," Gazzy whispered, poking my face. Gazzy was my little brother, 13 years old, he would rather die than be called little. At the words, my eyes snapped open and I threw my covers back.
"Gazzy can you fix breakfast for Angel, I have both of your lunches in the fridge," I hurriedly ran into the bathroom, pulling a random ensemble of clothes from the wardrobe. He nodded and hurried out to the kitchen.
I could care less about how I looked, but I brushed my teeth and pulled my hair into a side braid quickly. Personal hygiene was important after all. Stepping into my jeans and hoodie, I folded my clothes and made my bed in a matter of seconds. Making sure Gazzy's and Angel's beds were tidy too and smiling to myself when they were made and their floors were spotless.
In the kitchen, Gazzy was packing Angel's sandwich, jellybeans and box of fruits into her My Little Pony lunchbox while he simultaneously stuffed his face with bowl of lucky charms. I kissed his head as I walked past him and he pretended to gag, but beamed up at me with his tired blue eyes. It pained me to see how little energy he had left in his eyes, Angel's big blue eyes were filled with pain and lethargy too. They were too young to be going through this right now. They should be out having fun. I mentally reminded myself to work harder to make sure they could have fun.
"Guys, we gotta get a move on, Jeb's gonna be home anytime now."
I ran my hand through Angel's silky blonde hair and pulled them into two pigtails quickly as she finished up her cereal. She beamed up at me when she was done and I stroked her head lovingly. Quickly, I threw both of their bowls into the sink and slung Angel's schoolbag over my shoulder and my school bag over the other, ushering Gazzy and Angel out the door just in time to see a beat up old Camaro roll up drunkenly at the other end of the street.
Angel and Gazzy noticed too and their pace quickened, all of us hurrying down the pavement until the car and our house was well out of sight. Soon, we reached Angel's elementary school and Gazzy's middle school was right next door, with about half an hour to spare.
"Do you guys want me to wait with you?" I asked them, helping Angel put on her schoolbag and tightening her pigtails.
"No Max, you get to school. And you better get some food, you need to eat, breakfast is the most important meal you know?" Gazzy said, making me smile. When had he grown this much? I pulled him in for a hug and he struggled out of my hold playfully.
"Jeez Max, not in front of my friends!"
"What friends?" I retorted, ruffling his hair and he scoffed. Angel pulled at the hem of my hoodie and I looked down at her big bambi eyes blinking innocently up at me.
"What is it sweetie?" I asked her, running my fingers through her hair.
"You no kiss me goomorning..." She said defiantly and I giggled, bending down to kiss her on the forehead. Gazzy took Angel's hand and they both waved at me before disappearing off onto the school grounds. I watched their retreating backs until they were gone before walking down the pavement to my school.
Or, a better name for it would be Hell, really.
I sighed as I saw the herds of teenagers. Blondes with caked on make up, sitting in expensive looking convertibles, gossiping anxiously to friends with similar caked on makeup with similar expensive looking cars parked close by. Big, muscular guys in wife beaters, sitting on top of land rovers in groups of 5 or 6, a cigarette in one hand and a football in the other.
With my head down, I made my way past a certain superficial redhead that was dead-set on making my life miserable, trying to remain invisible. Unfortunately, my stealth needed working on and I heard her scream my name.
"MAXIE POO! Looking real good today, I wasn't aware it was winter though," She sniggered, I rolled my eyes. Walking quicker past her car, but she reached out and grabbed my arm and I winced.
"Hey Sam!" She shouted to the land rover of jocks, "Don't you totally want to like bone Max, isn't she so sexy?" She laughed, pulling on my hair so that my head snapped back and tilted up to face Sam and his imbecile friends. Lissa's hyena friends giggled and made puking noises, while Sam's friends laughed along. I reached back and grabbed her wrist, digging my nails into her flesh until she yelped and let go of my hair.
"BITCH! You made me bleed! I'm gonna get you"
I shook my head out and continued into school, pulling my hood up and stalking to my locker, pulling it open with as much force as I had in me. I exhaled in relief as my eyes zeroed in on the razor blades, laying neglected on the shelf of my locker. Checking to make sure no one was looking, I slid the blades out of my locker and into my pocket and ran into the bathroom.
Because it was so early, no one was in the bathroom and I locked the door, sitting on the toilet and pulling my legs up under me. I stared down at the blades in my hand as tears started to flow freely from my eyes. Slowly, with my hands shaking viciously, I pulled my sleeve up and pressed the cool blade to my wrist.
Closing my eyes, I pressed hard and dragged the blade down my arm, and allowed myself a moment of complete weakness. I did it again, and again, and again and again and again until the school bell rang and I shoved the blade back into my hoodie pocket. Quickly wrapping the cuts with toilet paper and pulling my sleeve down to my knuckles.
I ran out the door, head still down and didn't notice the tall boy standing in my way until -
"Whoa whoa, careful there," Said the boy I had almost ran into, he had reached out and held me by my shoulders to prevent the impact. I looked up to apologize but I wasn't expecting the face of a God to be looking, anxiously back at me. For a moment, I was lost in his beautiful obsidian eyes which were scattered with flecks of the most beautiful gold. Like an exquisite gem.
"I-I'm sorry!" I stuttered, before brushing past him and running off into class. Keeping my head down. Careful Maximum.
Fang's POV
I walked down the hallway with Iggy by my side, observing the scenery of my new school.
"Wow, bro, the girls here are smoking." Iggy laughed, pausing to make a show of running his hand through his hair and winking at a cute brunette who had been eying him.
"They're alright..." I mumbled, I wasn't one for the cakey make up and super showy mini skirts. I like humbleness. Something girls in this school, I had noticed, lacked. Iggy gasped at me as if I told him I was pregnant and shook his head at me, faking an expression of pure hurt.
"You really should take up acting..." I sighed at him, punching him playfully in the shoulder. As I turned around, I noticed a girl running straight for me and held out my arms to stop her from crashing into me. She had her head down and I rolled my eyes, such a safety hazard.
"Whoa whoa, careful there." I said, my hands still on her shoulders and she looked up slowly at me, her lips slightly parted.
I was blown away immediately by her beauty. She had skin that was flawless but not porcelain, she was tan, but a natural tan, not a hint of make up. A tinge of a blush splattered across her cheeks, along with light freckles that gave her an adorable charm. Her lips weren't plumped up with lipstick or lipgloss but looked soft and fluffy from lip balm, probably. Her hair wasn't styled into anything special and sprayed into hard clumps with hairspray, or dyed. She had gorgeous dirty blonde hair with highlights from the sun that flowed and framed her face in waves and was pulled into a messy braid to the side. I was so busy soaking in her beauty that I noticed how red her beautiful, icy blue eyes and lips were only a second too late, she had been crying.
Our eyes met and she seemed to be searching me for something. We held each other's gaze for a second before she looked back down.
"I-I'm sorry!" She said and escaped from my arms, brushing past me and disappearing into the crowd. As she maneuvered her way, I saw a flash of something shiny fall out of her pocket and heard a little metal clank of something hitting the linoleum floor.
It was a razor, and covered in blood. My stomach lurched at the thought of what she could've been using the razor for. I pulled out my timetable and folded the little sharp razor inside it to prevent it from slicing me up in my pocket and slid it into my jeans. Shaking her gorgeous face out of my mind. I headed over to Iggy who was talking to a blonde and leaning against someone else's locker.
"Hey bro, who was that hottie you were talking to?" He grinned, "You know her or something?"
I shook my head and smirked at him, "The girl's here might not be so bad after all..." I grinned.
Iggy gave me a smirk of approval and we walked to class.
Hey guys, yup I've started a new fanfic. And this time it's M. Whoaa, I'm growing up haha. I promise I will upload more soon, I'm currently in Budapest so I don't really have much time to type up much. I've already started typing up Chapter 2 for this fic, So it shouldn't be long now!
Just another warning: The contents of this fanfic can be triggering and I hope this isn't too offensive. If it does affect you in any way, please let me know.
Anyways, please review! I don't know if I should continue this or not!