Dear Cole,
How can I explain my decision, a decision, that I do not understand myself properly.
I have to move on with my life. I have to continue moving, living. The question is how? How should I go on. I don´t think that I can live. Not with you, nor without you. Bit I think I could manage life without you easier. I know it is cowardly to go down the easiest path and maybe this decision is a big mistake. But at the moment I´ve got only the power for the easy way and if this should be a mistake I will also learn to live with it, because that´s what living is for, isn´t it. Live your life and make mistakes and learn of both.
I'm sure I found a soulmate in you. But I´m also sure that the circumstances and the time are not right for us. I believe that our souls will find each other in all of our lives and we´re gonna find ourselves again through the lives and mistakes that it took. Today all of this may not be a consolation, because I know how long this life is going to be without you. But in my heart you will always be with me. And this consciousness will never allow time to vanquish your name. I will always open my heart for all the memories of you. And these memories shall make me smile about all those things we had and cry about all those things we lost.
With taking an other path, maybe these memories would not be possible anymore and that would be a price to high for me to pay.
I will always love you and I won´t wake up in the morning without thinking of you and won´t got to sleep without you being my last thought and knowing about the love we have. Because you and our love are a part of me. I won´t implore nor beg, but I´ll go on living and loving you. And that´s what you should do too. Keep our love in your heart and let it guide you through the remaining part of this life, guide you in the knowledge that your love will also always guide me and we´ll find through it back together again. Someday.
Love Phoebe
How can I explain my decision, a decision, that I do not understand myself properly.
I have to move on with my life. I have to continue moving, living. The question is how? How should I go on. I don´t think that I can live. Not with you, nor without you. Bit I think I could manage life without you easier. I know it is cowardly to go down the easiest path and maybe this decision is a big mistake. But at the moment I´ve got only the power for the easy way and if this should be a mistake I will also learn to live with it, because that´s what living is for, isn´t it. Live your life and make mistakes and learn of both.
I'm sure I found a soulmate in you. But I´m also sure that the circumstances and the time are not right for us. I believe that our souls will find each other in all of our lives and we´re gonna find ourselves again through the lives and mistakes that it took. Today all of this may not be a consolation, because I know how long this life is going to be without you. But in my heart you will always be with me. And this consciousness will never allow time to vanquish your name. I will always open my heart for all the memories of you. And these memories shall make me smile about all those things we had and cry about all those things we lost.
With taking an other path, maybe these memories would not be possible anymore and that would be a price to high for me to pay.
I will always love you and I won´t wake up in the morning without thinking of you and won´t got to sleep without you being my last thought and knowing about the love we have. Because you and our love are a part of me. I won´t implore nor beg, but I´ll go on living and loving you. And that´s what you should do too. Keep our love in your heart and let it guide you through the remaining part of this life, guide you in the knowledge that your love will also always guide me and we´ll find through it back together again. Someday.
Love Phoebe