I'm alive and if you don't believe me well you will just have to wait and see. The beating of your heart does not define your existence so why should my lack of one? "I think therefore I am." Someone said that right... Descartes? I dunno I always forget that one but the meanings still there, my brain works and my limbs function, all of them, so why can't you see me. Humanity is so limited, stepping away from the predisposed is so liberating and freeing. Yes, my demon can cause trouble but that's under control. I have a shiny new soul and I feel, feel more than I have in a very long time. So why can't you see that I am not what I once was. I have changed, isn't that what life is all about changing and progressing along the path towards destiny. They say I shall be a champion, who really wants to be... to do something like that? I want to settle for once and be still, just enjoy what comes and share my existence with someone kind, but we all must pay the price. What price you ask? Repent our sins and be punished for what we have done. I had a wild youth. I do not deny that and for that I must now prove my worth, I shall fight for what is right, fight the good fight, but truly what I fight for is a time of rest. A time when I can just be and weapons and pain are no more. Will this come about or shall we forever be in this cycle of blood, death and despair. I know you shall not answer for you never do but one day dear mother I hope to prove my worth and be allowed to rest, forever by your side.