I tapped my pen on the table in the conference room listening to a tune in my head. Greg sat across from me watching my pen tap away distracting him from reading. He kicked me underneath the table making me cry out dropping my pen. He smiled at me as I glared at him.
"Why did you do that?"
"Because you were tapping your pen."
"You could have mentioned it instead of hitting me." I said, rubbing my leg. His shoe touched mine then it went up my leg gently.
"Now what are you doing?" I asked
"You know what I am doing." He said, smiling.
I looked at him smiling as he smiled. The door opened as the other's came in oblivious to our looks at eachother. Grissom came in sitting down beginning the meeting.
Greg and I had secretly begun a relationship. It began after a rain storm and I had to stay at his house. One thing led to another as we ended up in bed. He was two years younger than I, but it didn't matter. I felt cared for and secure.
Grissom locked his door after shift seeing me standing in the hallway looking for my keys in my bag. He stood still watching me then walked ahead when I found the keys. I walked out seeing him walking to his car.
"Hey Grissom." I said
He turned stopping at the curb looking over at me.
"Hey, going home?"
"Not exactly." I said "Goodnight."
He watched me walk to my car then he went to his. Greg let me inside his apartment. He kissed me then let me go.
"What is that smell?" I asked, looking around.
"I got take out at this new place. Greek food."
"Oh."
I wrinkled my nose walking over seeing he was putting comtainers on the counter. He opened one up showing lamb meat with bread. He stopped seeing my expression.
"What?"
"Your eating meat?"
"Sara, I tried to stop, but I am a carnivar." He said
"Can't you see haw bad that is?" I asked
"Yes, and I feel terrible." He said, eating some.
He handed me a container that had a salad inside for me. I gave him a digusted look and walked away. After he was done eating he walked over to where I was on the couch. He leaned down to kiss me and I stopped him.
"Brush your teeth." I said
He sighed walking away. When he came back he sat down beside me leaning over kissing me. I kissed him gently moving back to look at him.
"So what do you want to do? Sleep or…something else?"
"Something else then sleep." I said
"Good answer." He said, pulling me up. I let him take me to his room.
Minutes later he was kissing me in bed making his way down my neck. I closed my eyes enjoying the feeling. He moved down my chest kissing my stomach then coming back to my lips. His hands kneaded my skin. I gasped as he sucked on my neck making it hurt. Things were heating up slowly as he took his time. I was ready to go, but he chose to savor every moment.
We slept in eachother's arms after he finished. I woke early moving my head against his chest as he moved his head sighing. My cell phone was ringing on the floor. I unwrapped his arms around me and sat up grabbing my phone.
"Sidle." I said, quietly.
"Sara, I need you to come with me on a case." Grissom said
"Now?" I asked, looking back at Greg.
"There is no one else and yes, I need you now."
"Okay, I'll be at the lab in a few minutes." I said, rubbing my head.
"No, it's easier if I pick you up at your place."
"I rather meet you at the lab." I said
"I'm getting ready now I will be at your place in ten minutes." He said, hanging up.
I got up getting my clothes looking at Greg then I ran out the door dressing along the way. I made it home at four minutes taking a quick shower and dressing. Grissom honked his horn outside seeing me running down buttoning my coat groaning from the rain pelting me. He watched me come inside shutting the door looking at him wet.
"It's been raining a while. I hope our crime scene hasn't disappeared." He said
He looked at me concerned as he reached over touching my chin moving my face to the side seeing a bruise on my neck.
"Sara, what happned to your neck?"
I froze remembering Greg giving me a hicky. I touched the spot looking at Grissom.
"It's nothing that won't heal in a few days." I said, waving it off.
"Did you fall?"
"No."
I moved my head to look out the window then at him.
"Aren't we in a hurry?"
He said nothing as he put the car in reverse. All the way to the scene he glanced at me. I avoided his stare jumping as my phone went off. I put it to my ear smiling hearing Greg's voice.
"Where are you?" He asked
"Grissom called me to go with him to a scene." I said
"I thought you ran away."
"No, not yet."
"Did he ask you about my handy work?"
"Yes." I said, looking over at Grissom.
He chuckled laying back in bed.
"I love you." He said
"I do to." I said "Bye."
"Bye."
I hung up staring at my phone then I looked over at Grissom.
"Boyufriend?" He asked
"You could say that."
He nodded looking at the road.
"That's good."
"I thought so."
He said nothing more as he turned down a road stopping about half a mile down it looking ahead.
"Why are you stopping?" I asked, looking at him.
A clap of thunder crashed down making us both jump.
"It looks like the water is rising and we need to get over that bridge." He said
I looked out seeing the water rushing to the right almost to the woodent bridge that ran over it.
"We will just have to try." He said, sighing.
I watched as he put the car into drive looking out ahead. I pulled my damp coat against me shaking as he drove over the bridge. He stopped suddenly reversing then trying again.
"What's wrong?" I asked
"The tire is stuck." He said, trying again.
I looked out of his side window seeing something dark becoming bigger.
"Grissom, what is that?"
He looked at me then out of his window. He rubbed the window looking out then he turned back to get us out of this situation.
"What is it?!"
"A tree!" He said
I gasped as it seemed to be becoming faster towards us. Grissom tried again this time moving forwards. We made it to the over only to have the tree hit he bridge causing it to crash making the bridge break. I screamed as we started to slide into the water because the brigdge was going with the tree. Grissom stepped on the gas causing the Tahoe to roar into action going forwards. He stopped the car looking back seeing the bridge was gone. I breathed in and out fast leaning back in my seat. He looked at me as I looked at him.
"I think we have had enough excitement."
"Yeah." I said
He went back to driving in silence as I looked out the window. We worked the scene then we went back to the car getting in.
"Well we will have to go the long way around." He said
"Good." I said
He drove down a road turning onto another road. I yawned looking at the trees going by. Grissom looked over at me.
"Sara, you can sleep if you want."
"I'm fine." I said
He looked out at the raod again.
"So what is that mark on your neck?"
I looked at him.
"I told you it's nothing."
"It's not nothing." He said, looking at me. "Obviously you were hurt."
I sighed looking at him as I laid my head back.
"If you must know it is a love bite." I said
He looked at me as I smiled at him.
"Oh." He said "Anyone I know?"
"Yes."
He looked at me then at the road raising his brows.
"Who?"
"Grissom, I think I am allowed some secrets."
"Warrick?"
"What?!"
"Is it Warrick?"
"No!"
"Don't tell me it is Hodges?"
"No, your just being disgusting now!"
He chuckled. I sighed looking out again feeling my eyes become heavy. Closing them I listened to the winsheild wipers and the hum of the car.
Suddenly we swerved making me alert. All I saw was a tree infront of us as Grissom tried to miss it. We hit the tree then went down the embankment stopping at the bottom.
I woke looking out at the rain hitting the cracked windshield. Grissom was moving around reaching over touching my neck.
"Sara?"
"I'm awake." I said
"You don't look injured." He said
"Everything seems okay. What about you?" I asked, looking at him.
"A few scratches."
I looked at him confused as my vision went fuzzy a minute.
"What's going on?" I asked
"What?" He asked, getting a flash light from under his seat.
"My vision is blurry." I said
A light flicked on and pointed straight at me. He watched me look away then I looked at him.
"Your eyes look fine." He said
I felt my vision dim again as I laid my head back on the head rest closing my eyes.
"Sara?" He called, shaking my arm. "Sara, wake up!"
I came awake looking around in the dark. A dim light was shining from somewhere as I laid in the back seat. Grissom moved into my sight touching my cheek.
"Sara, can you hear me?"
"What's going on?" I asked
"We were in an accident. It's raining heavily now. You past out." He said, concerned.
I blinked feeling his cool hand touching my cheek.
"I tried to call someone, but my phone is out of range. I am waiting for the rain to stop so I can go up on the road to try again. I didn't want to leave you while you were out."
I nodded enjoying his hand cuping my cheek. He moved my hair back searching my eyes.
"You have a bump on your head."
"I didn't feel anything." I said
He nodded letting me go to get some water on the floor. He lifted my head letting me drink from a bottle. I laid my head back down swallowing. He put the cap back on the bottle setting it down.
"I suppose your boyfriend is worried about you."
"I'd forgotten." I said
He looked out the dark window then at me. I shivered pulling the blanket he put over me up against my chest. He sat back taking a breath.
"This reminds me of the first scene I went to." He said
"What happened?" I asked
"I was going with another CSI and we got stuck in the mud. We had to wait till morning to get out."
"Great story." I said
He smiled as I looked at the ceiling.
"Sorry, that's all I have."
He moved touching my head. I closed my eyes.
"Your hand feels good." I said, softly.
"I just….wanted to check for fever." He said
I opened my eyes looking at him feeling his hand slide down my cheek.
"Don't stop." I said
He searched my eyes coming closer. I searched his opening my mouth breathing out. He looked at my lips coming closer. I closed my eyes as he barly touched my lips. When he made contact with mine I moaned feeling him move. His lips moved over mine with a gentle movement. I moaned again as he moved back.
"Sara." He said
"I need you." I said, looking at his lips.
He moved back sighing.
"Maybe….we should stop…..your hurt."
"If you stop now I won't make it." I said, moving closer to him catching his lips with mine. He let me pull him against me on the seat. Thunder up above never distracted us as we made out. The flashlight went off causing Grissom to move back breathing in and out fast. I brought his attention back on me by touching his cheek.
"Light…went…out." He said
"We don't need it."
He kissed me again this time with more passion. The warmth of his body seeped into mine. He started to breathe in and out faster as he moved. I closed my eyes feeling pleasure come all the way up my body.
Later light came into the car. I moved closer into Grissom's chest as he slept holding me. He moved a minute later seeing we had made it through the night. Rain still came down outside though not as hard. His hand moved back my hair as he looked at me. My head was bruised on one side making him concerned.
"Sara?"
My chest rose and fell slowly as he gazed upon me. His hand touched my cheek smoothing the skin. I moved my face from the warmth of his chest. My eyes slowly opened seeing Grissom above me.
"How do you feel?" He asked
"Sleepy." I said
He sighed looking around then at me.
"Sara?"
"Hmm?" I said, opening my eyes again.
"I need to call someone to help us."
I reached up touching his coat.
"Grissom?"
He put his hand over mine touching his coat. I moved so he could get up to leave. As he went I sat back in the seat looking down at my hands. He eventually came back telling me contacted Brass. We waited until help arrived. After a fight he agreed to let me go home instead of the hospital. He had Brass wait in the car as he walked me to my door.
"Your sure you are all right?" He asked
"I'm fine." I said
He touched my arms coming closer. I watched his lips move towards mine. The front door came open making us jump back. Greg came out hugging me to him.
"I was about to come out and find you!" He said
"We had an accident, but we are fine." I said, looking at Grissom.
Greg let me go seeing the bruise on my head then he looked at Grissom.
"Grissom, thank you for keeping her safe."
"I was happy to help." Grissom said "Sara, take tonight off."
"Okay." I said, watching him go. Greg turned to me touching my head.
"Well having him find out about us wasn't as bad as I thought it would be." Greg said
"He keeps the shock to himself." I said
Greg kissed me leading me inside. When I woke he was gone. I decided to soak in the tub and then lay on the couch watching TV. My phone went off waking me. I reached for it putting the phone to my ear.
"Sidle."
"Hey babe, I won't be able to come over tonight." Greg said
"Why not?" I said, disappointed.
"I am working over with Nick. Don't be mad."
"I'm not mad, I am disappointed." I said
"Me to. I'll make it up to you."
"I know."
"Love you." He said
"Love you to." I said, before hanging up. I set the phone down beside me sighing as I thought about him then Grissom.
A few hours later I was woken by the doorbell going off. Getting up I walked over opening the door seeing Grissom in his work clothes looking at me. He must have read my mind because he came in shutting the door as I backed up.
As if from a dream he walked over silently kissing me. I felt his hands roam my body as if looking for something. He backed me up will we hit a wall. He moved back breathing mildly fast looking deep into my eyes.
"Sara, I have waited for this to happen."
"Why didn't you say anything?" I asked
He shook his head looking down.
"I was trying to protect my career and yours. I was foolish for refusing you that time after the explosion. You dated Hank and now Greg. I thought I lost my chance to tell you I am in love with you."
I gasped as I looked at him.
"I have fallen inlove you Sara." He said, touching my face.
I shook my head slowly digesting his words. Ever since I met him I had dreamed of him saying that and now it was here. He waited paitently for my response.
"Grissom, I love you to." I said
He pulled me to him in a hug then a kiss that made me forget everything. He led me to the bedroom where we showed our love for one another. He held me against him smoothing my hair back as we both stared into space. I moved my hand over his bare smooth chest content.
"It's going to hard to tell Greg." I said
"We can together." He said, kissing my head.
"No, it should be me."
"Okay."
He looked at his watch.
"I should go home to sleep."
I raised my head looking at him.
"You can sleep here."
"I would, but Greg might come back."
"He called saying he was not coming over."
"Then I will." He said, kissing me.
I smiled moving as he moved lying down turning off the light. He spooned me putting his arms around my waist.
"Goodnight." I said
"Goodnight."
I woke hours later seeing it was sunny outside. Grissom slept beside me snoring gently. I smiled closing my eyes again moving facing him.
The front door closed loudly as I opened my eyes.
"Sara!" Greg shouted
I sat up as Grissom moved waking.
"What's wrong?"
"Greg is here!"
Grissom sat up hearing the noise outside.
"Go to the bathroom and hide. I will distract him so you can leave!" I said
Grissom nodded getting his things running to the bathroom. I put on my pajamas running to the door. Greg met me there looking tired. He hugged me and kissed me.
"I thought you weren't coming here." I said
"I had to see my baby." He said "I am going home to sleep. I just missed you."
"You look really tired." I said
He nodded pulling me with him as he went to the front door.
"I guess I will you see you later." He said
"Yeah." I said, kissing him again.
I closed the door as he walked out leaning my head against it. Grissom came out dressed looking around.
"He's gone?" He asked
"Yes." I said, turning to him. He walked over putting his arms around me. "I am not cut out for this double life I am leading."
"Want to end it?"
"No, this feels right to me." I said, smiling.
"I am just happy to stand here with my arms around you."
He kissed me then moved back lifting his arm looking at his watch.
"You have someplace to be?"
"A meeting at four." He said "I am going home to take a quick nap and shower. I will see you at work."
"Okay."
He kissed me again before leaving. I slid down to the floor touching my lips.
Greg saw me in the breakroom looking at my mug of coffee in thought. He walked over looking around then he kissed my head making me jump.
"Hey, you okay?" He asked
"I'm fine, just thinking."
"About what?" He asked, sitting next to me at the table. I set my cup down sighing.
"It's hard to talk about here."
"Tell me." He said, touching my hand.
I looked at him then I shook my head.
"No, later."
He watched me in silence then he nodded.
"Okay."
I smiled at him as he rubbed my hand.
"Hey, why don't you come to the locker room with me?"
"I have to get back to work." I said
"It will only take a minute."
I sighed letting him pull me up taking me to the locker room. I folded my arms over my chest watching him go to his locker getting something out. He closed the door looking at me.
"What's going on?" I asked
He walked up to me.
"Sara, we have been going out a while now and I really do love you."
I unfolded my arms looking at him in shock.
"Your not going to…"
He knelt down opening a box lifting a diamond ring up with shaking fingers.
"Will you marry me?"
As soon as he said that I felt sick to my stomach. The door opened behind me and Grissom came in stopping seeing us.
Greg stood looking over at Grissom nervously.
"What is going on?" He asked
"I….I was just asking Sara to marry me."
Grissom turned to me as Greg looked at me. All of a sudden vile came up in my mouth. I gagged holding my hand to my mouth. They watched me run out to the ladies room a few doors down. I went to the first stall throwing up. I knelt down to the floor losing what I had eaten plus the coffee I had drunk earlier. Flushing I went to the sink washing my face looking over at the door to the hallway.
I came out holding my stomach seeing Grissom walking over slowly.
"I may throw up again." I said, putting my hand out to stop him.
"I told Greg I would talk to you." He said
"He's probably devastated." I said "I don't know what happened. I saw that ring and it just made me sick."
His hand went to my elbow.
"Let's go to my office."
I nodded looking at the floor. He led me down the hallway to his office. I went to his couch laying down holding my stomach again closing my eyes. He put a blanket over me then he sat down touching my head and cheeks.
"What did you tell him?" I asked, opening my eyes looking at him.
"I told him that I would talk to you."
"I can't accept his proposal." I said
"Sara, you need to do what ever makes you happy." He said
I reached over touching his hand.
"I don't want to hurt him, but I love you."
"Let me talk to him."
"No, it should be me."
"Honey, you can't talk to him if your throwing up."
"Let me try just one more time. If I chicken out then you can."
"Okay."
He smoothed back my damp hair watching me close my eyes taking a slow breath. I felt him lean over me kissing my head.
"Are you leaving?" I asked
"Robbins needs to see me in the morgue." He said, gently. "You stay here and rest."
I nodded feeling him leave me. I must have went to sleep because he was leaning over me again. I moved opening my eyes seeing him.
"What did you forget?" I asked
"I just came back from a meeting."
"How long have I been here?" I asked
"About two hours."
I jumped up fixing my hair.
"You should have woke me?"
"Sorry, I just thought you needed rest."
I stood trying to wake up. Grissom pushed my hair down smiling.
"I'll see you later." I said, leaving.
After shift I drove to Greg's apartment. His car was parked and he had already gone in. I walked up to his door knocking. He opened his door seeing me.
"Hey babe." He said
"Hey." I said, coming in.
He closed the door pulling me against him.
"So are you okay?"
"I think so." I said
He nodded searching my eyes. He kissed me then took my hand leading me to his bedroom.
"I don't want to go in there just yet." I said
He looked at me confused as I let his hand go.
"Can we sit and talk?"
"Sure."
I went to his couch sitting as he sat beside me.
"First of all I am touched that you proposed. I am sorry I ruined it."
"You didn't ruin it." He said, taking my hand.
"You just sprung it on me and I just freaked out."
"I know."
I looked at him as he moved kissing my cheek.
"Greg, I think we should break up."
He looked like a wounded animal. He let go of my hand.
"Break up?" He said
"I didn't mean for it to happen, but I love someone else." I said, looking at him.
He stood putting his hands on his waist looking down then he turned to me.
"It's Grissom isn't it?"
"Greg." I said, standing.
"Just tell me!" He said, upset.
"Yes."
He nodded looking at the couch.
"I am so sorry." I said
He looked at me sad.
"So what now, you're just going to be with him?"
"I don't know." I said
"Yes you do." He said, shaking his head.
I stepped closer to him just as he went to the front door opening it motioning me out. I walked over looking at him then I left. He slammed the door shut as I turned looking at it. I sighed walking away.
Grissom opened his door seeing me looking sad. I came in hugging him putting my head against his shoulder. He shut the door hugging me understanding.
As he slept beside me I stayed awake twirling my hair around my fingers looking out the window seeing the sun coming up. Grissom moved over putting his arm around me kissing my head.
"Get some sleep." He said
"I keep thinking about Greg." I said, softly.
"Give him some time."
I moved facing him touching his cheek as he blinked slowly looking at me.
"Will you just….hold me?"
He pulled me against his chest smoothing the back of my hair. I closed my eyes smelling his scent feeling safe.
A few weeks later I was walking into the break room seeing Greg standing by the counter eating an apple. He stared at me as I slowly made my way to the small fridge to get my sandwich. I got the bag closing the door looking at him.
"Hey." I said
"Hello." He said, throwing the core away in the trash can near him.
"How have you been?" I asked
"Great!" He said, sarcastically.
I walked away as he watched me. I sat down at the far end of the room looking over at him before opening my bag. He walked out quietly as I sighed rubbing my head. I looked down at my sandwich in a plastic bag. Grissom came in getting some coffee looking over at me. He poured some coffee as I scooted the sandwich away from me. He walked over looking at me as I held my head.
"You okay?" He asked
I looked up at him slowly nodding.
"You look pale tonight."
"I'm fine." I said
He touched my head then he walked away. I started to feel off after that noticing that it was not getting better. The doctor confirmed I was pregnant. I walked into my apartment sitting on my couch touching my stomach.
Grissom came in later seeing me already in my pajamas walking over to greet him. He smiled taking me in his arms kissing me. I deepened the kiss making him groan. He moved back gazing at me.
"I don't know what that was for, but whatever it was I enjoyed it." He said
I looked at him sadly and he looked at me with concern.
"Sara, what is wrong?"
A tear came down my cheek.
"Gris…..I have to…tell you something." I said, my voice breaking. "Your going to be very….angry."
"What is it?" He asked, touching my cheek.
I sniffed closing my eyes then I looked at him.
"I'm….pregnant." I said
He looked at me in surprise. I moved away knowing he would not want to be with me anymore. He pulled me back to him searching my eyes.
"I need to understand this first. You are telling me that you are expecting my child?"
I nodded.
"When did you find out?"
"Earlier." I said
He let me go to rub his face.
"Grissom, I don't expect you to stay with me. I am sorry."
He looked at me as I cried. I hid my eyes as I shook. He touched my arm making me look at him.
"Where would I go?" He asked
"You mean you want to still….be with me?"
"I love you, honey."
I sniffed hugging him.