A/N: There are italicized conversations with in the story, obviously they are not writting the conversation in their journals, I just thought it would be better with something in there besides just them writing. I don't know how well this story works. Let me know if I should re-write where it's not through journal entries.
Um.. I see people say they don't own what ever they are writting about, I don't know if it is nessecary, but I will say it too. I do not own HSM. :)
Day 1 12-25-07 3:47 PM
Today is Christmas. We just got finished unwrapping our gifts. Ryan got me the most beautiful bracelet ever. I gave him a watch and also a journal that looks just like this one. I thought it would be a good idea to write each day for a full year. That way next year we can look back and re-read each day and see how much we have changed. I think we would learn a lot about ourselves after we re-read them. I don't know if he will. I hope he does though. I said to start January 1st, but I felt the need to start today. Write more soon.
Sharpay.
December 26, 2007 1:01 AM
Well, today was Christmas.. Shar gave me this journal and told me I should write in it everyday once the New Year starts. I think it's a little weird but I guess I can do it for her. She also gave me this awesome watch. I really like it. She said she liked her bracelet I got her. She even put it on right there and gave me a big hug. It was nice to have some affection shown from her. Well it's getting late. I'm going to bed.
-Ryan
Day 2 12-29-07 7:53 PM
It's Saturday and there is only one more week of winter vacation. I heard there was this party tonight. If anything good happens I will write more.
Sharpay.
December 29, 2007 11:15 PM
I can't believe I'm writing again before I even have to. I have just been thinking a lot lately about everything. It has been hard for me to fall asleep all of the sudden. I just wish I knew why. I tried laying down awhile ago but all I did was toss and turn. I kind of wish I went to the party with everyone. Shar tried to get me to go, but since I don't drink a lot, I doubt I would have had any fun. I wish I could figure out what is wrong with me. I'm going to try to get some sleep.
-Ryan
Day 2 (cont.) 2:33 AM
I just got home from the party. It was so much fun. I met a guy named Justin. We talked for the longest time. He seems really nice, but he tried to get me to do things that I wasn't comfortable with. It's too soon to just jump into sex. He said he understood that I couldn't yet. I didn't tell him I was a virgin though. After the party he drove me home and kissed me before I came inside. Justin is a really good kisser. Sometimes I wish I wasn't so scared to go all the way with someone. I guess I just want it to be special for my first time.
I have to go. I almost got caught still being up. I'm not sure who just came into my room but I had to pretend to be asleep. Write more soon.
Sharpay.
December 30, 2007 2:51 AM
I finally got some sleep, but only to be woken up suddenly with only one thought on my mind… Sharpay. I went silently down the hall to her bedroom and tapped really lightly on her door. There was no answer so I opened it very slowly so it wouldn't creak. I saw her sleeping in her bed. Thank god she got home okay. I usually drive her home from parties because she drinks so much. I'll have to ask her tomorrow how she got home. It's really late; I should probably get back to bed.
-Ryan
Day 3 12-31-07 6:02 PM
There is supposed to be a HUGE party tonight. I asked Ry if he wanted to go tonight and he said YES! I'm excited for him. He needs to get out more and meet some new people. All he ever does is just sit around. LAME!! I know. I'm going to get ready. Justin will be there tonight. I'm really happy I get to see him again. W.M.S.
Sharpay.
January 1, 2008 4:04 AM
So I finally got out of the house. I went to a party tonight. It sucked at first, but after a few hours it was fun. I saw Sharpay prance around towards all the guys. They all wanted her, but all knew they couldn't have her. I saw some guy grab her by the arm and lead her upstairs. I hate seeing that. I'm supposed to be her brother, the one to protect her. But there I was, sitting in the corner, doing nothing. I guess she is a big girl. She can protect herself. Oh before I forget. I met a girl there. Her name is Alex. She is from another school. She seemed nice, also very flirty, but in a sweet way. She leaned in to give me a hug when she was leaving, but before pulling away she nibbled on my neck. It was gentle and I liked it. Just then Shar pulled me aside and said she was ready to go. I could smell the alcohol on her breath. I told Alex bye again and she gave me her number. I don't know if I will call her or not, but if there are more kisses on my neck like the one before, then I might consider it.
When Shar and I got home, I had to make sure she made it to her room okay. She was pretty drunk. You could see it in her eyes. After she got to her room I told her good night and proceeded to my bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror only to realize I had a hickey on my neck. I didn't think Alex bit that rough on my neck. But sitting there staring at it, I started to think of how good it felt when she kissed my neck, and I kind of got aroused. I took my shower and tried to lay down for bed. It's going to be another one of those nights where I can't sleep. There is one fool proof way though. I will just have to masturbate. Hopefully it works. Good night.
-Ryan
Day 4 1-1-08 5:39 AM
OH MY GOD! I can't believe myself. What have I done? Okay, I'm getting ahead of myself. So I will start from the beginning. Ry and I got to the party and I immediately start drinking. Justin finally showed up after what seemed like forever. He grabbed me and took me upstairs to a bedroom. He laid me down on the bed and started to kiss on my neck. I liked it, but I felt distracted. He moved over to my lips and we kissed for a second before his hand slowly moved down my stomach and then moved over my... well ya know what I mean. He kept moving his hand down farther until before I knew it, he was up my skirt. It felt really good and he said I was really wet. I told him that we couldn't have sex yet. I kind of spilled that I am still a virgin. He didn't seem to mind. After I told him he slipped a finger inside me. I started to moan kind of loud, so I made him stop. It really did feel good though. After I made him stop we went back downstairs and I saw Ryan hanging all over Alex Thompson. What was he thinking?! She is a major slut. The last party she was all over 2 guys at once. Today it was said that she had a 3some with them! God Ryan is dumb. I went into the kitchen so I wouldn't have to watch them together. I drank some more and hung out with a few people then went back into the living room after awhile. I looked around the room and saw Ryan and Alex again. Then I saw Alex getting closer to Ryan, I knew I had to stop him. She was kissing his neck by the time I got to them. So I pulled him away and told him I was ready to leave. When we got into the car I looked over at him and saw a hickey that whore left him. I wondered if he knew he had that. I laughed a little but then I started thinking. I know I am a virgin, but what about Ryan? How far has he gone with a girl? I felt myself get that wet feeling again and decided that I shouldn't think of Ryan being sexual with anyone. When we got home he helped me to my room. I laid down to go to bed, but I kept thinking of everything and couldn't fall asleep. I decided to take a shower. When I got undressed, I touched myself and I was still wet. Man that was so weird. I didn't take a shower; instead I got dressed and thought I would go talk to Ryan. Wow was that a BAD IDEA. I tiptoed down to his room and put my ear up to the door. I heard some strange noises coming from in there. I tapped on the door but the noises kept going. I slowly opened the door and whispered for him. He pulled the covers over him so fast and yelled at me to get out. I ran back to my room and slammed my door. I had just caught Ryan masturbating. Fuck this. I need to cool off.
January 1, 2008 (continued) 7:37 AM
I can't believe Shar walked in on me. I am so embarrassed. I tried to go talk to her and apologize for getting angry but she was in the shower when I got to her room. I was so close to getting off. It sucked, but I can't stay mad at her. She didn't know. Besides my door was unlocked. I'll try talking to her when she wakes up. Today our parents are going out of town. Shar will be drinking a lot over the next few days since no one will be around to stop her. I have tried but she wont listen to me. I think I am going to get some breakfast. More to come.
-Ryan
Day 4 (cont.) 9:05 AM
I had to wake up early to see my parents off today. It's another business trip, but that's okay. I'm used to them being gone. At breakfast this morning I could feel Ryan looking at me, but I refused to catch his gaze. Things have been awkward since everything that happened last night. Our parents left shortly after 8:30. Once Ryan and I were alone he tried to talk to me. I just got up and walked back to my room. It was too weird. I need time before I can look at him again. W.M.S.
Sharpay.
January 1, 2008 (continued) 12:55 PM
Shar has been in her room for awhile now. I don't think she has left since she went in there this morning. I'm going to go see if I can talk to her. Hopefully she will let me explain myself.
-Ryan
Day 4 (cont.) 6:44 PM
Ryan came in earlier to talk to me about last night. I told him he didn't have to explain anything to me, but he insisted. I broke him off by telling him to shut up and to come drink with me. I figured he would say no, but surprisingly he said okay. I thought drinking would loosen him up so he would stop freaking out. It did. He was a completely different person. Fun even. Although, he did spill beer on me. I told him I was just coming up to take a shower. I better get going so he's not drinking alone. W.m.s.
Sharpay.
January 1, 2008 (continued) 7:36 PM
Shar got me drunk tonight. It was a lot of fun. I think maybe I will start going to parties more so I can do it more often. I did accidentally spilt beer on her though… She didn't act like she was that mad about it. She said she was going to take a shower to get the smell off of her, but that was almost an hour ago. I'm going to go check on her.
-Ryan
January 1, 2008 (continued) 8:37 PM
Wow. I don't even know what to say at this point. I have been sitting here in my room replaying everything that has just happened. I went to go check on Sharpay, but when I got to her door, I heard something that I wasn't quite sure what it was. I knocked on the door and called out to her but there was no answer. I opened the door, and was shocked to see her, lying on her back with her legs bent so her feet were rested on the bed. Her legs were spread. She was using her left hand with a vibrator sliding it in and out, while she used her right hand to touch her clit. I tried to turn away so she wouldn't see me, but I heard her moan. I had to look back. She arched her back and threw her head into her pillow and started touching her clit harder. She looked up and caught me watching her. I figured she would be angry, but instead she stared into my eyes and started moving her vibrator faster and faster. All I could do was watch. I knew it was wrong, but I couldn't take my eyes off her. She started to moan louder and louder, all the while, never taking her eyes off of me. I could tell she was getting close. I could see the sweat starting to form on her neck. With out even thinking I started to move my hand down to my dick, only to find out it was hard as a rock. I began rubbing it through my pants. She started to moan louder and I touched myself harder. She still had her eyes on me and she was going full speed. All of the sudden she burst out with a scream of pleasure and she closed her legs. Her hand was still in between her legs. She pulled out her toy, and turned it off. Then she stuck it in her mouth to get all of her juices off. I couldn't take it anymore. I turned around and came straight back to my room. It only took me a few seconds to get myself off. It was strange. My sister, my twin, got me horny, and it was her, the reason I got off. I don't know what to think.
-Ryan
Day 4 (cont.) 7:55 PM
I just got off in front of Ryan. I know I should have stopped when I saw him come in my room, but I was so close. It was weird; seeing him got me even hornier and I was able to get off faster just by watching him. I saw him get a hard on and that turned me on even more. Oh god, when he started to touch himself, I couldn't take it anymore. I exploded right then. I know it was wrong to tease him, and I feel bad for what I did. I guess it's not all my fault though. Ryan had the chance to walk away, but he didn't. After I finished I stuck my vibrator in my mouth, in a teasing way, and he just turned around and walked out. I hope he isn't mad at me. I don't know what to say to him. I think I will talk to him in the morning. Now would just be a bad time. W.m.s.
Sharpay.
January 2, 2008 7:11 AM
Once again, another sleepless night. I guess I had a reason this time. I finally got out of bed and got some breakfast. I tried watching TV, but nothing good was on. I ended up back in my room, bored. I really want to talk to Shar but I don't know if she will talk. I'm sure she will wake up and start drinking. Hopefully I can get to her before she starts. I need to find out what that was all about last night. Fuck it. I'm tired. I'm going to go lay down, and hopefully get some sleep. Shar shouldn't be up for a few more hours anyways.
-Ryan
Day 5 1-2-08 11:01 Am
I have been tossing and turning all morning long. I think I need to talk to Ry. I feel like I should explain about last night.
Sharpay.
January 2, 2008 (continued) 1:20 PM
I am so confused. I was just about to doze off when I hear my bedroom door open. I pretended to be asleep so Shar wouldn't come in, but she still did. I felt her standing right over me. I could hear her breathing. "Ryan" she whispered. But I didn't budge. She sat down on my bed so I had to 'wake up' no matter what. I rolled over and asked her if she was okay. She moved more onto my bed and sat Indian style and said we needed to talk. She wanted to talk about last night. Obviously. I asked her why she didn't stop when I came in, or why she didn't yell at me to leave. Oh Sharpay. She just got this smile that took upon her face. "I liked being watched by you" was her answer. She then decided to lay down next to me and placed her hand on my side and started to rub her hands up and down my side and chest. Her touch was so soft and gentle. I could feel myself growing, but I didn't want her to know. It was so wrong. I told her no and moved her hands away from me. She had hurt in her eyes when I pushed her away. She simply said, "Your right Ryan. I'm sorry." She got off my bed and walked out of my room with her head down to the ground. I felt terrible. I never wanted to hurt her. I hear Shar down in the kitchen, probably getting a drink. I think I will go apologize.
-Ryan
Day 5 (cont.) 11:09 PM
Once I left Ryan's room I went downstairs and grabbed a drink. I was on my way back up when I heard Ry coming down. I didn't look at him when I walked past him. I was too embarrassed. But what happened next was something I will never forget. I think I can remember the convo perfectly. He grabbed my arm and pulled me back to him. He wrapped his strong arms around me and held me tight.
"Shar, I'm so sorry. Please don't be angry with me."
"It's okay Ryan. You don't have to say anything. I made a fool of myself."
"No, see that's the thing. You didn't make a fool of yourself. I did."
"But, no I--" I was cut off by Ryan moving his hands down to my waist. He pulled me close to him and started kissing my neck. I tried not to moan but his touch was so gentle. He whispered in my ear, "Have you even been with a guy before?" I tried to pull back, but he kept his hold tight.
"No, have you been with a girl?" I had asked him.
"Kind of, but not really."
"What do you mean?"
"We had to stop right after I was inside her. She said it hurt."
"Y..Y..You hurt someone?"
"Not purposely Shar. She said I was too big."
"Was that the only time?"
"Yeah." He said, as he started to kiss my neck more passionately. He started walking towards me and pushed me into the wall. He then took my arms with his left hand and held them against the wall, over my head. I wanted more than ever for him to kiss me on my lips but he wouldn't.
"Kiss me Ryan."
He got close to my lips and I felt his breath on my mouth. When I leaned in to kiss him, he pulled back and teased me.
"Shar, last night you turned me on so much when I saw you."
"You're the only reason I got off. Seeing you watch me got me so hot. Ry I couldn't take it much longer. I was confused why you just ran out on me."
"I didn't know what else to do. I wanted more than anything to just take you and make you mine."
"Take me now Ryan."
He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He started to carry me up the stairs and I began to kiss on his neck. I could feel him getting harder and I wanted him more than ever. He took me to his room and laid me down on his bed. He crawled on top of me and started to kiss me. I could feel him thrusting as he kissed me.
"Take me Ryan."
He put his hands underneath my back and lifted me up. Then he pulled my shirt off and exposed my breasts. I lay back down and Ryan started to caress my chest. Then I felt kisses down my stomach, stopping shortly under my navel. I felt him tugging at my pajama shorts, trying to pull them off. I lifted up so he could pull them down easier. I put my hands on his sides and pulled him back up to me. I slipped my hands underneath his shirt and raised it up. His chest was amazing. I ran my fingers lightly over his pecks and stomach; he got goose bumps. He let out a slight moan of pleasure. I then moved my hand down and rubbed on his member through his pants. It felt so big. He pulled back and said "not yet." I felt a finger slide inside of me, and it felt so much better when Ryan did it, than when Justin did. I closed my eyes and threw my head back into the pillow. I just wanted him to be inside of me. I couldn't take it much longer. I put my hands on his sides and motioned for him to lie on his back. I started to pull his pants down to expose him. I kissed down his chest and stopped when I got to his dick. I grazed my lips across it and he took in a deep breath.
"I have never before."
"It's okay. You don't have to if you don't want to."
"What if I'm not any good?"
"Don't worry about that. I know you will be good. Just do what feels right for you."
I licked around the head before I took him all in my mouth. I heard him gasp as I hit the base of his cock with my lips. Slight moans continued as I moved my mouth up and down on him. He took his right hand and placed it on the back of my head. He gently guided me faster, but not in a controlling way. He was so gently with me. He suddenly stopped me and pulled my head up.
"What's wrong? Was it not good?"
"It was great, that's why you had to stop. I'm not ready to finish yet."
He pulled me up and kissed me and said, "Turn around." I looked at him confused. He whispered "69" in my ear before he started to nibble on my earlobe.
"I'm scared."
"Don't be, it will feel good. I promise."
I positioned myself on top of his face and leaned over and started to suck on him again. I then felt him start to lick on my… this sounds so dirty... but he started to lick on my pussy. Ryan slid a finger in and started to suck on my clit, flicking it with his tongue. I pushed myself harder on his face. I didn't want him to ever stop. It felt so amazing. I started to play with his balls as I continued sucking him. I felt it start to throb and it felt harder than before. Just then I started to orgasm, and moan even louder than before.
"Oh god.. Shar.. I'm about to- -"
Just then he shot his load down my throat. I tried to swallow but I couldn't, not all of it. There was just too much so I spit the rest out. When I got off of him I still wanted more. He was still erect so I positioned myself on top of him and he gave me a nod to go ahead. I took him and placed him at my opening. Ryan grabbed my hips and slowly pushed me down as he thrust upwards. I felt him inside of me and it did hurt a little bit. I guess he could tell that it felt uncomfortable because he asked if I was okay. All I did was shake my head yes. He pushed me down all the way to the base of his cock, and I let out a moan, that came out more as a whimper.
"Shar, are you sure your okay?" I nodded my head yes again.
"Does it hurt?"
"Not really."
"If I do hurt you, just tell me. Promise?"
"I promise."
He kept his hands on my waist and assisted me as I moved over his cock. He started to go faster and soon the pain turned to pleasure. Ryan flipped me over so I was on my back. He started thrusting himself even harder and deeper inside of me. I began to moan as I grinded myself on him.
"Ry, does it feel okay?"
"It feels amazing, but can we try something new?"
"Sure." I said trying to catch my breath. He pulled me up and motioned for me to roll over on my hands and knees. He entered me from behind and started pumping even harder than before. It was so hard that he knocked me down from holding myself up. I rested on my left arm and used my right hand to reach underneath me. I started to rub myself as he fucked me. I could feel his balls hitting every time he pumped inside me. I reached back and started to caress them. All of the sudden he went all the way inside of me and held it. He threw his head back and let out a loud moan. I could feel him pulsing inside of me. We stayed that way for a few seconds before he pulled out and we both collapsed on the bed.
"How was your first time?"
"Amazing." I said as I kissed his chest.
"Was it good for you too?" I had asked him unsure of myself.
"It was perfect."
After we caught our breath we decided to take a shower… together. We washed each other and shared some very sensual kisses. After our shower we went back to his bedroom and passed out together. I didn't sleep long, so I left shortly afterwards. This is definitely a night I will never forget.
Sharpay.