A/N- Ah well this is my first Castle story but not my first fanfiction. I know this chapter is short but I will go on if you want me to. If you don't; tell me. I like to know how to fix things and how to make it better. I know Kate's a little OOC but you'll see why. This is what happens when my little plot bunny takes over =D

"Don't give me any of that! I was shot in the chest, and remember every second of it." Castle stared at Kate through the two-way mirror in complete and utter shock. She remembered? She lied to him? So many thoughts ran through his head. He needed to get out. He needed to get away from her.

After the interrogation Kate walked out and turned to Esposito. "Where's Castle?" She saw a lone coffee cup sitting on her desk but no annoying writer in 'his' chair next to her desk. That couldn't be right.

"Castle? Oh, he rushed out of here while you were in interrogation." He raised his eyebrows at her. "Yeah, when he got here he was so disappointed that we got something without him he decided to watch from the observation room. Guess he heard something and got an idea because he almost ran me over on his way out."

Kate's world shattered before her eyes. He knows. He heard her confession. "Fucking shit!" Esposito and Ryan raised their eyebrows in sync. Never have they heard Becket curse like that. Sure she said hell occasionally but never anything more than that. Kate just shook her head and ran off towards the stairs.

She hadn't stopped running until she reached the morgue. She didn't register anyone until she spotted Alexis. Good she was still here. "Alexis!" Alexis turned towards the loud shout and looked at Kate with surprise. Her red hair falling in her face as she and Kate walked over towards each other. "Hey, do you know where your father went?"

Alexis looked confused but nodded her head. "Yeah," she started hesitantly but plowed on, "He went to the memorial with Grams." Kate nodded and ran back out at full speed. Alexis on the other hand was too surprised to move. She just looked over at Lanie.

"Uh, do you know what just happened?" Lanie walked over and put a hand on the little red head's shoulder. She shook her head but Alexis could tell that Lanie was deep in though. Everyone knew that she was thinking about what Castle did but surely she knew that it wasn't just Castle that made this mess.

Kate rounded the corner and didn't see Castle yet she saw his mom. Kate took a deep breath and walked over to her. "Hey Martha. Can I ask where Castle is?" Martha glowered at Kate and something behind Martha's eyes told her no. "Please Martha, I really need to talk to him!"

"He's moved on Detective Beckett." Ouch. That one really stung Kate. "He doesn't love you anymore. Why don't you do all of us a favor and leave my son alone. Haven't you hurt him enough already?" Kate didn't know what to do. She obviously wasn't going to get anything out of Martha so she decided to go back to the precinct, see if Alexis knew anything else.

About a half hour later Kate was walking into the twelfth but was heading towards the morgue when she saw Castle standing in the stairwell with some blonde barbie hanging on his arm. They were smiling and laughing. It looked like Castle's smile finally reached his eyes. That was something Kate never could give him. If she had wanted to she'd lost her chance anyways. That's when it really hit her. She'd really lost her chance with him. Kate swiped at the tears building in her eyes. That stairwell was the only way to get to the morgue. She took a deep breath and plowed through the happy couple. She tried not to let him see her face. He couldn't see that she was crying. If he was over her than she'd have to move on too.

Kate plowed through the doors to the morgue and just broke down. She didn't have enough strength to hold it together any longer. It was getting late anyways so she was hoping people had already filed out for the evening. Lanie was just finishing tidying up her work space when she heard Kate sniveling behind her. "Sweetie, what's going on?" Normally Lanie would be angry at Kate because she lies to Castle and never told him how she felt but this time, this time Kate was crying. To sum it up, Kate NEVER cried. Her father had once said to Lanie that Kate hadn't even cried at her mother's funeral. Lanie's only seen her once.

Kate tried to wipe the tears away as Lanie led her to an autopsy table to sit down on. "I've lost my one chance Lanie! I've ruined everything!" Kate couldn't help the tears that crashed over the surface of her face. She tried to use her overgrown hair to cover it, to make sure Lanie couldn't see how badly this hurt her but of course, Lanie knows all her tricks and knew how badly this was hurting her. "Lanie, he moved on!"

Lanie's brown eye's turned black and her face turned 3 shades of red. Did he reject her? What happened? "Girl, you need to tell me everything." Lanie expected Kate to look angry or hurt but when she looked up she looked completely heart broken.

" He heard me confess to the suspect that I remembered everything about the day of the shooting so I went to find him and I found Martha instead. She said to leave," Kate choked back a sob, "She said to leave Castle alone and that he moved on. Then she through all the pain I've him through in my face." Kate berried her face in her hands. She was definitely not acting like herself. "Lanie, the worst part of all of this is that it's true. Everything she said. I've hurt Castle too many times but, I just needed time. Castle knew I needed time, right? He wasn't to hurt back than was he?" Kate let another strangled cry out as Lanie rubbed circles into her back.

Nobody had noticed when little Castle, Alexis, walked in to get her phone but stopped as soon as she heard the topic of conversation. Her father and Kate. "Lanie, they are like a family to me. Castle, Alexis, and Martha but now, now they all hate me. Little Castle's going to after she finds out I lied." Kate started crying into Lanies shoulder. "I lost my one chance to be happy! I really thought I could with him. You know what I mean?" Kate looked up at Lanie imploringly through her brown bangs.

Lanie nodded and hugged Kate. "I mean, he makes me so happy. I'd never admit it to him but, his childish antics really make my day." Alexis and Lanie were both equally surprised to hear that from Kate but then Kate started crying again. Alexis didn't even know Kate COULD cry. She'd also, never seen Kate cry. "It pains me to say this after I know I've lost but, I really thought he was my true love." Kate couldn't help being so out of character. She was in pain, she was heartbroken. Alexis could see this. She could see it in the way Kate cried on her best friends shoulder, she could see it in the way her shoulders slumped, but overall, she could see it in Kate's eyes. Alexis knew what she had to do so she turned and stormed out of the morgue.

A/N-Like I said, short. I know, I know. So, do you like it? Do you hate it? Click that little review button and tell me. I love to know. -Savannah