Hello and welcome to Part 3. Is this the last part. Well you guys just have to read and find out with

Thank you for all the support on part 1 and 2. I'm glad you guys enjoyed them. I hope you guys enjoy part 3.

I can't wait. I have so much planed.

I don't know the title yet. still try to decide. I should have one shortly

If some of you have been wondering where's Sam. My answer is this. Since he is four years younger he will show up more and more as the years go by.

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Part 3: I did ...Love you

Chapter 1 Jo

How the fuck does one person owns so many pairs of shoes. I'm a female and I have my fair share of shoes but damn it I don't have this many. I think I've counted forty-five boxes so far. I think this entire bedroom will be decorated in shoe boxes. What the fuck? How does Dean have so many shoes? I swear he wears the same three pairs all the time. This shit is just ridiculous. No strike that him moving in here is ridiculous. Don't get me wrong. I love my cousin and we have been getting along these last nine months, but damn it I don't want to live with him again.

You have to understand I lived with Dean from the time was either five or six all the way up until we went off to college. See that whole Gabriel sneaking in my window thing wasn't the only time we had problems. Oh by the way, can you believe my parents still think it was Gabriel. I know it's in the past but damn you think Dean would jokingly admit it somehow, but of course he won't come out the closet.

Shit I think him still being half way in the closet is the reason might be the reason he moved in here. Either way I have no idea how he ended up living here. All I know is Gabriel came home a week ago and said Dean is going to live with us. At first I thought maybe my parents kicked him out but that's not the case again. Then I thought maybe he wanted to move in because Cas is coming back home for the summer, but of course they are just friends. Whatever the reason I don't have time to care. I have my own serious shit to worry about. I just wish I knew why Dean has so many shoes.

I might not have chosen to let Dean move in but I guess I don't care. Things have been going pretty good. Gabriel and I are better than ever. We worked though all our issues and we are back on track. He's finally back on track at school and will be graduating this upcoming year. I found another job at this bakery. Of course Gabriel loves me working there. You know he has a huge sweet tooth and loves the fact that I bring home day old baked goods. Dean and I are okay, we could be better but I'm not pushing it. He's still selfish, but hey he's my family and I accept him for who he is.

Castiel is good now too. Well I think he is. Something is going on with him but I can't figure it out since he goes to Colombia now. How about that can you believe he transferred schools. He knew the whole time he was here last year and didn't say shit. He didn't tell us until like the middle of September. Of course he was vague on why he transferred schools. Whatever that reason might be I think something happen to him while he was at Cornell.

I wished he would have stayed at Cornell too. Not that one school is better than the other but only because Dean and Gabriel both think they have an out. Can you believe these came to the conclusion that since Cas transfers school there is no point to confessing anything. I swear I hate them sometimes. Hell I just hate being the only person seemed bothered by this dirty little secret. I want to tell Cas so bad but I am stuck. I am stuck between my boyfriend, my cousin, and my best friend. I don't know who side to take. You know it sucks being the honest one in a group of liars. I wouldn't go as far to say I am a totally honest person. See I am hiding something from Gabriel. I don't mean to but-

"What the fuck Deano? When I said you could move in I didn't mean for you to move Foot Locker in. Seriously, Why do you have so many shoes." See what I am talking about. The again me and Gabriel do sometimes think a lot. It's annoying to some but I love it.

"IT's not shoes dick. I just happen to pact all my things inside shoes boxe." He's an ididot.

"You're an idiot." See My baby thinks just like me.

"Hey it was cheaper than actually going out and buying boxes."

"Exactly how is it cheaper?" I ask as I wondering how long it took him to pack his things up in shoe boxes.

"Well if Kevin happens to work at Foot Locker. I asked him for some empty boxes and he gave me these."

"You still talk to him." Gabriel as he leans in the door way. Oh yeah, Kevin is one of many guys Dean has parade though my house in the last nine months. Dean might not have lived here but he sure as hell treated this place like rent by the minute motel. If you know what I mean.

"Sometimes." Dean says with a cocky smile. I hope he gets tested.

Gabriel starts to open his mouth to say something but is cut off the sound of Dean's phone going off. Guess what the song is? It's If I Lose Myself by One Republic. Now can you guess who it is. If you guessed Cas then you are right. I swear those two are starting to get on my nerves with we are just friends bullshit.

"Hey buddy." Dean says as I notice how his face starts glowing.

"Hello Dean." He says as I notice they are face chatting. I can't see his face but I imagine it looks something like Dean's

I look at Gabriel and he confirms that we again are thinking the same thing. We both believe they are still in love with each other, even though they both refuse to talk about anything that has something to do with their feelings. I swear it's starting to feel like high school all over again. Mark my words, it's only a matter of time before those two are keeping me and Gabriel up at night. I guess I could use the practice though. I'm pretty sure somewhere in the near future I will be up at all times of the night.

"Hey Cassie." Gabriel says as he jumps beside Dean. I guess he is tired of Dean making dough eyes at his phone like me.

You know even though it's only a matter of time for these two, I think they have been making real progress. You wouldn't know there has been any bad blood between them. They are getting along great. Is it wrong that I wish they stay like this and never ever get back together. I want them both to find happiness but not with each other.

Look they have been getting along so great that the four of us including Meg were all able to go to Mexico over spring break together. Now don't get me wrong. There were a few things that happen on the trip that made us all raise an eyebrow. Like Dean got a little jealous when Meg and Cas hooked up for two days straight. Then there was the time that Dean and Cas disappear for thirty six hours. They didn't answer their phones and we couldn't find them. When they finally decided to show up they were mum about where they been and what had happen. Normally Gabriel and I both would have pressed but we were to wrapped up in ourselves. You know come to think about it, I think that's when I started messing up on my birth control.

"So Cas did you get your grades or are you still waiting" Dean ask a little to edger, but then again I am curious too.

"Hey Cas" I say as I go stand on the other side of Dean.

"Hello Jo. How are you? Hope you feeling better." He says as he gives me such soft concerned eyes.

"You were sick Jo." Dean ask as he looks at me.

"Yeah, I had food poisoning the other day. I couldn't keep nothing down." See I am not an honest person. I still can't keep nothing down. I just have learned to hold it until I get to the bathroom in the basement. Not to mention I can smell everything which also makes me what to hurl. It's a sick twisted cycle Nature came up with. "But I am feeling much better. How are you? Last time we talked you didn't look so good either."

"Yeah I was a bit hung over." He says with a small laugh. It's not funny though. He's always hung over.

"Cas I told you. Keep a twelve ounce beer in your ice box. It will cure your hang over next day.

"I tried that Dean, but all it did was make me have another and before I knew it I was in class drunk."

"Now here's the rue test. Did you pass your classes? OR did you fail them."

"I passed them. Four A's and one B." he says very cocky.

"Like a boss." Dean says so proud. I don't know why he's proud. Castiel is falling apart and Dean is too wrapped up in the enigma that is Castiel to see.

"Well I try." He says as he looks away from the camera to look back.

"No you just do because you are awesome."

"Oh come oh." Gabriel says as he looks between the phone and Dean. HE starts to say something else but is interrupted by the doorbell. "I guess I'll get it." He says before he leaves our former guest room.

"Look Cas buddy. I know you took most of your finals drunk but I am still proud of you."

"and I you Dean. You did great this semester too."

"Not as good as you though."

"Don't sell yourself short. Last I heard you got a few A's also."

"Yeah but not as many as you." Dean says as I roll my eyes. He is literally making me sick. His after shave is starting to get to me. I just might puke on him just so he will stop boo loving. I wonder if this is what me and Gabriel look like.

"You still did great. Never sell yourself short." What the fuck? Why am I still here? It' starting to look like this could go on for hours.

"Okay I think I am going to head down stairs." I announce as I feel the vomit start to raise in my stomach. I think I have about two minutes to make it to the basement. I know I can do it if I walk fast.

"Please don't leave." Gabriel says as he pops out of nowhere.

"Baby I have to go to the bathroom. I'll be right back." I sure will. Right after I hug the toilet and brush my teeth.

"Okay." I say as I am unsure about what to do. I feel it coming.

"Cassie you still there." Gabriel says as he takes the phone out of Dean hands.

"Hey" Dean yells as I notice the look on Gabriel face. He looks shocked. Something is wrong. Something happen in the five minutes he was downstairs.

"What's wrong?" I hear Castiel say.

"Castiel there is something I have to tell you." Okay now I know something is really wrong. I have never heard Gabriel call him Castiel. I didn't think Gabriel actually knew his real name. Or at least knew how to pronounce it.

"Gabriel you are scaring me. You never call me Castiel." Something is really wrong. The fact that I have to vomit doesn't bother me anymore. Gabriel is speaking I a calm and creepy voice. Dare I say it/ I think he might be in shock.

"I know" he says before he goes quiet. We all keep our mouth shut as we try to calculate what Gabriel is about to say. I really need him to speak. As each quiet second passes the acid in my stomach rises.

"Gabriel. What is it?" Castiel says a he breaks the silence.

"Castiel as you know I love you. It's always been me and you. Not Balthazar, not Dad, but me and you."

"What happen?" I hear Cas ask with such nervousness in his voice.

"I always wanted to protect. As the older brother I feel like it's my job to protect you, but there are something's I can't protect you from."

"What can't you protect me from?" Cas asks as tears starts to roll down Gabriel cheeks.

"I couldn't protect you from this. If I knew it was coming I would have done everything in my power to cushion the blow."

"Cushion me from what?" Okay now Cas is getting angry.

"Baby what is it?" I ask as I fly to his side. Tears are really rolling down his cheeks. I have never seen this side of him before. I have seen him upset but never like this. I don't know what worng and I don't know how to help him. He's hurt and I can't help him.

"Where's Balthazar?" Oh yeah if you didn't know. Castiel and Balthazar share an apartment in the City.

"He' s out of town on some business deal. HE won't be back for another four days. Why? Why are you asking where he's at you never ask me about him."

"Can you please call him and tell him to book the next flight to Lawrence and you too. Book the next flight to Lawrence." Gabriel asks with such determination.

"Because I think I'm going to need my big brother right now too.

"Why do you need him?" Cas ask but Gabriel ignores him.

"Gabriel, why do you need your big brother. Can you please just spit it out." I beg as his tears break my heart.

"Gabriel, why do we need to be on the next flight to Lawrence?" Castiel asks with a tone mixed with fear, anger, and confusion.

"Gabriel who was at the door?" I ask. Maybe if we ask him different questions he will tell us.

He stands there crying for a few minutes before he finally starts to speak. "When I wen to the door. There were two uniform Officers at the door."

"Cops" Dean asks.

"NO Marines." He says so ashamed.

"Why would Marines be at your door?" Castiel ask. "Wait a minute. When we were little from time to time we use to see two Uniform Marines going to houses from time to time."

"Yes and what did mommy use to tell us when we asked who they were."

"She would say they were messengers of God."

"Did you ever understand what she meant by that." Oh god . Please God tell me what I think is wrong. Tell me that what I think has happen didn't happen.

"I think I do, but I think I need you to say it." Castiel says very careful.

Gabriel takes as deep breath as he draws back snot with his nose. He looks straight into the camera and says "Cassie, are father was killed in Iraq." And here come the vomit.

So what do you think.

Do you think Cas and Dean might still have a chance.

"What about Jo? What's up with her and her health

What do you think will happen with these four.

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