Title: The Road to Hell
Author: sandssavvy
Rating: PG (maybe a little stronger)
Fandom: Angel
Pairing: Hint of Angel/Wes if you squint, and undertones of Wes/Lilah and Angel/Cordelia.
Warnings: depressed character, and spoilers for season 3.
Summary: Wesley tries to understand why everything fell apart. (205 words)
Months after the night that Wesley's life was torn apart, he would still go over the events that consigned him to this new misery in his mind. He dissected every decision and every action that he made in an attempt to discover where he went wrong. He tried to unearth whatever selfish reasoning lead him down the wrong path.
Was he jealous of Angel's love for Cordelia and Connor? Did he want to break apart the happy family that he never had?
Was he angry that everyone else had someone while he had no one?
Did he avoid going to Gunn and Fred for help out of pride and jealousy?
Finally, while Lilah's scent still pervaded the room and he tried to find the numbness he wished for at the bottom of another glass of scotch, he was forced to realize the truth. He had made his choice for all the right reasons.
His road of good intentions had lead to a child being sent to hell.
The realization did not provide any comfort.