DISCLAIMER: I own no rights to Alice in Wonderland 2010 or any of the characters in it.
A/N: In Alice's point of view
SUMMARY: The Hatter was a remarkable man, a man who understood me. Now he's gone and I can't go back, Alice's journal of thoughts. Please read despite the bad review.
TITLE: Secret Regrets
~ALICE~IN~WONDERLAND~
3RD JUNE 2015
Five years since I left the amazing world of Wonderland. It held so many secrets and doors to be unlocked but I only had one chance. One chance to come home and see my family and now I can't go back. I wish that I could so that I could tell him how I really feel but it's too late now. There was this man called the Mad Hatter or Tarrant Hightopp, he stole my heart. He risked his life for me and I left him. The memories still haunt me and the realisation that I messed up is high in my mind. He understood me, helped me, loved me and I was too selfish to realise that he needed me and I needed him. He was the thing I missed the most. Sure, I missed everyone else but he had the biggest impact on my life. He was the one that made the fight with the Jabberwocky worth while. If I hadn't fought, he could've been killed and that was something which I was not chancing. I regret it all. I wish that I had never been to Wonderland. It would make this situation easier and as I remember, it hurts more and more.
I had nightmares the other night about Wonderland. That it was under threat and there was nothing I could do. My mother reacted to my pained screams and woke me but I still can't keep the thought from my head. I can hear their hurt sobs and pained wails as Wonderland gets torn apart bit by bit. I see the Hatter's merciful eyes staring deeply into my mind as I think more and more about the dreams. They get longer and more detailed night by night and I can't handle spending my nights alone. I miss him and if I could go back then I would. I'd give up my whole world to be with him but that's the thing, he is my whole world. He is the one thing that I cannot possibly live without. I promise myself that I will not regret what I did but I do. I walk past my mother's room and see her smiling face, wishing I could be that care-free but I can't. My heart still hurts and beats with insane love for him. I went back but couldn't find the rabbit hole. I wish that I could tell him that I loved him and that it would all be okay from now on. I tell myself that I'm fine because I wish that I was fine but I'm not fine.
Everywhere I look I see him. His memories haunt me over and over and I can't keep the thoughts from my imagination. I cry to myself and keep my feelings away from my family because I know that she will not believe me. She thinks that I'm going crazy and I've told her that I'm not but it gets worse day by day. I shed tears for Wonderland, for my blind to the world mother and mainly for him. He saw the world with such open eyes and was the reason that my world kept spinning. Now it has crashed down and I cannot pick up the pieces by myself. I need him to tell me that it will be how it should be and for him to hold me tightly in his arms. I need him to protect me against the world except I know that it can never be that way again.
Alice xxx
~ALICE~IN~WONDERLAND~
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