Summary:

It happens in new moon after Edwards leave and he doesn't come back… she is lost without him… the Volturi finds out that the Cullen's have a human girl know the secret and they didn't do anything, so they when to pay her a visit…

This first chapter I own S. Mayer for it some are her work and don't want take credit for it… also I'm no her and we all own her for giving us this wonderful characters

Chapter 1: He is gone

BELLA POV

We were in the forest by my house and he was leaned against a tree and starting at me. He wasn't saying anything but he was the one that say he wanted to talk so I took a few breaths to steady myself and say "let's talk".

"Bella we are leaving" say Edwards

Ok I thought I was ready but I was just lying to myself. "But why now??" I say

"Bella, it's time. How much longer could we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle can barely pass for thirty, and he's claiming thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless" say Edwards

I was confuse I thought we were living together, but when he mention Carlisle I understood that he didn't meant me. But I need to know for sure; "when you say we…?" I whispered.

"I mean my family and myself" he say very clearly so I could understand him.

I was a breaking point now, why was he saying all this to me? He knew he was my survival, that without him I was nothing. So I say "I'll come with you"

"Bella, were we're going it's not the right place for you. You can't come"

"Don't be ridiculous. Were you are is the right place for me." I was I little mad and that helped a little.

"Bella I'm no good for you. My world is not for you" he says it pretty serious.

"Don't say that. What happen with Jasper that was nothing, Edward! Nothing" I was practically begging.

"You are right; it was exactly what was to be expected. We are what we are, Bella"

"But you promised! In Phoenix, you promised that you would stay …." He cuffs me off and says "I promise to stay as long as that was best for you"

I was furious now and the words just came out "No, this is about my soul, isn't it?" I didn't wait for an answer; "Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care Edward. You can have it. You already have my soul; I don't want it without you"

He wasn't looking at me now; he was looking at the ground for a long time. When he finally looked at me his face was different, especially his eyes, the liquid gold had frozen solid. And with his eyes on my face he says "Bella, I don't want you to come with me."

I was absorbing what he was really saying. And there was a pause while I repeated the words in head a few times. So I try it.

"You. Don't. Want. Me?" I asked I little confused and shock by the way they sounded.

"No" was his simple reply. But he was looking at me with those cold eyes and without apology in them. I also could see no contradiction at what he was saying.

I was so numb that I barely realize that tears were starting to fall out of my eyes. He looked away into the trees as he spoke again. "Of course, I'll always love you… in a way. But what happen the other night made me realize that it's time for change. I'm not human, and I can't keep pretending something I'm not". He looked back at me. "I'm sorry that I have this go on much too long, I'm really sorry".

"Don't do this" but as soon as we were looking at each other, I could see that my words were too late.

"You are not good for me, Bella" I couldn't argue with that, I have known that since the beginning. I wanted to say something but I couldn't. I open my mouth and closed it again several times. I tried again.

"If…that's what you want?"

He nodded once. And my whole body went numb. I couldn't feel anything below the neck.

"I would like to ask one favor, though, if that's not too much" he said.

"Anything". As I watched, his frozen eyes melted.

"Don't do anything reckless or stupid" he ordered, no longer detached. "Do you understand what I'm saying?"

I nodded helplessly. "I will," I whispered.

"And I'll make you a promise in return" he said. "I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed".

"Good bye, Bella" he said

"Wait" I said, reaching for him.

"Take care of yourself," he said giving me a kiss on the forehead. I closed my eyes and he was gone.

With shaky legs, I try to follow him into the forest. the evidence of his path had disappeared instantly. But I walked forward without thinking, if I stopped looking for him, it was over.

Love, life, meaning…all over.