Let me love you
"What are you doing here?" she was drenched from the rain.
"I had to see you. Can I come in? please?", she shivered.
I nodded and I opened the door wider and she went past me to get inside.
"You should go change – you could catch a cold," I closed the door and I turned to look at her.
"There are clean towels in the bathroom,"
"Thanks," she replied and she made her way towards the bathroom.
She came out a few minutes later looking refreshed, her hair still a bit wet and in my shirt.
"Sorry, I couldn't find anything else to wear,"
The sight of her disturbed the peace in me.
"Don't be – it looks better on you. You can have it," she blushed.
"I made hot chocolate. I figured that you'd want something hot to warm you up," I handed her the cup and she took it from my hand.
She took a sip, "Thanks. It tastes delicious."
I sat down on the sofa and she followed suit, leaving space between us.
"What are you doing here?" I asked again, my gaze never leaving her face.
She put down her mug on the coffee table.
"Aims, I uh… I'm sorry for everything – for ruining your date."
"Well that's the understatement of the century," I said clearly pissed.
"Amy please… let me talk, I'm trying to apologise here,"
"You've got five minutes,"
"Aims, I shouldn't have followed you like that and I'm sorry that I got carried away and spilled wine on Kate," she said apologetically.
"Four minutes,"
"It's just that we haven't been spending a lot of time together and I miss having you around – I miss us," she said sadly.
She came closer to me and she took my hand in hers.
"It's just feels like you're slipping away and I need you in my life. I cannot live in a world where you aren't in it,"
"Three minutes,"
"Aims, I want you to be happy – I really do."
"Then why do you keep sabotaging my relationships? Why do you constantly keep meddling in my life Karma!?" I let go of her hand and I stood up.
"I don't do it on purpose Aims, believe me," she brought her hands to her face to wipe away the tears that had escaped her eyes.
"We've been back and forth with this Karma and I'm just tired. I want to be happy even if this means that you won't be part of my life," as hard as this was for me to say it, she didn't really give me a choice.
"Aims, I love you more than anything. How can you say that?" she sobbed.
"Because it's not enough for me," I held back my tears.
"me neither," she stood up and she came closer to me.
"Seeing you with Kate made me realise that I need you Amy. I love you."
"I know," I brushed a strand of hair behind her ear.
"No, I mean, I'm in love with you," she breathed.
"What?" that caught me off guard.
"I'm in love with you Amy Raudenfeld,"
"When? how?" I was shocked and I took a step back.
"I guess, it was at New Year's when Sabrina made that speech,"
My reaction changed from shock to anger.
"You've loved me that way all this time and it's now that you tell me!"
"Do you enjoy seeing me suffer Karma?" My voice was filled with pain.
"Amy it isn't like that. I didn't want to lead you on. I just had to be sure that what I feel for you was real."
"Just when I thought that I was over you, you drop this bombshell on me. I hate you right now," I said without really thinking."
"Do you think that it is easy for me seeing you with other girls? I had hurt you too many times and I thought that having you as a friend would be better than nothing,"
"You don't know how long I've dreamt about this – for you to tell me you love me like I do. I think It's too late now," I didn't have it in me to fight with her.
"Please don't say that. I know that I've denied my feelings for you for so long but I don't want to spend the rest of my life with regrets. Baby, please give me a chance," she pleaded.
"Let me love you and let me show you how much I really do,"
"Step off the edge with me Amy," her eyes were hopeful.
"Your time is up,"
"Please, give me a chance,"
"I'm scared," I admitted. I lowered my head to look at my feet and I kicked the imaginary rock in front of me.
"Me too," she closed the space between us. She cupped my face and she lifted my head for me to look at her.
"But I know that we'll work out. Please give us a chance."
The only thing that I could think of was how happy I was that she loved me that way; like I've been loving her for the past few years.
"Yes," tears of joy escaped my eyes, "I want to step off the edge with you".
"Amy, I love you!" she grabbed me and she planted kisses all over my face.
She stopped to put her hands around my neck, while I placed mine on her waist to pull her closer to me.
I lowered my head to capture her lips in a tender kiss.
"I love you," she said softly.
I smiled at her, "And I never stopped loving you."