****Hello everyone! To all my readers from AMWN, hello again! To the new readers, welcome! But...before you can read this, you have to go read the first book: A Mother's Worst Nightmare. Then you won't be confused about this story. OK? Good!

I know I said that i wanted 10-15 reviews from AMWN, but i got sick and tired of waiting. (To the 4 reviewers who reviewed, thank you very much for reviewing and being amazing)

Another thing...I have decided to do the eating disorder idea that was brought up by one reviewer in AMWN. That was the reason why i wanted to do 'research'. Right now its the beginning, but later you will see more of it happening.

This is going to be in Rosalie's POV and remember...she is British. This also takes place during season 13 and the month is July. (I forgot to mention in AMWN that it takes place in the month of June)

Ok, so i hope you enjoy this and review!

Love ya

Jessie

Ps: sorry for being short. Chapter 2 will be longer

Chapter 1:

It has been a month. A long terrible month. My whole life has been shattered. Not like when somebody drops a glass item. Like someone hit it with a strong hammer, and left me to pick up the sharp jagged pieces. The pieces that cut me and make me bleed when I try to fix it. That's how it feels.

I can't sleep anymore. Everytime I close my eyes, I see...Him. His dark evil eyes goring into my soul, his low deep voice hurting my ears. It hurts just thinking about it. I try to forget about the whole thing, but it never leaves. Mom tries to talk to me about it, but I can't bring myself to talk. I used to tell Mom everything. There were no secrets to hide...but now I can barely utter a word. She worries about me. She does everything in her power to make me happy. When I lost my childhood...I went with it. I have lost myself.

I feel ugly. Disgusting actually. I can't bear to look at the mirror without cringing. I look at Mom...and see true beauty. Perfect face, perfect body, perfect everything. She has everything I want, but I don't have. I am this pudgy nobody who is the complete opposite of my mom. I pinch my back and thighs. Fat. Fat everywhere. Disgusting gross fat covering my body. I need to get rid of it. School is starting in September. If I start losing weight now, then I'll look good. I'll be popular! I'll join the cheerleading team and boys will come swarming in like cattle.

The best thing though...Mom will be proud of me. She'll have the perfect daughter she always wanted. Not this dumpy loser who embarrases her every moment of the day.

For the first time since that party which started it all...I feel happy. Proud. Like I'm going to accomplish something in my life.