Forever Now

A/N: This is just a quick one shot I did after I listened to the song Forever Now, by Ne-Yo. That song just gave me Kogan feels. And I thought up of a sad oneshot. Listen to the song, it's really great. Well, don't hate me. This has nothing to do with Hall of Fame.

Kendall looked at the mirror. He was practicing saying lines that he would have to say in a few hours. He was so nervous, and he figured that if he practiced them it would be easier to say.

"Logan Mitchell, will you marry me and become a Knight with me?" Kendall said this to himself over and over to himself multiple times until he was sure he could at least say it without stuttering like a fool.

Today was his and Logan's fourth year anniversary and Kendall is planning on asking Logan to marry him. To make each other's theirs forever.

They started dating when they were eighteen and now it has been four wonderful, loving years with each other. Now since they are currently twenty two, and Big Time Rush has ended, Logan has started to go to school so he could become a doctor. And Kendall decided he was going to still stay a singer.

They had just recently bought a house together and Kendall couldn't be any happier. So basically it already seemed like they were married, so Kendall decided what the heck. I'm going to ask Logan to marry me after four years of being together.

Logan was just getting off of school now. Kendall sent him a text to Logan saying that they will meet at their special place in three hours.

Logan replied with an okay.

Their special place was at the beach behind the huge rocks. It was where they first kissed, they first got together. It was their first everything. It was also where they lost their virginities together there too. That was kind of embarrassing, but they couldn't help themselves and they gave themselves to each other.

Kendall looked toward the desk that held Logan's favorite flowers, Dahlia's. He was going to give these to Logan before he got down on one knee and asked to Logan to marry him.

Kendall was so excited.

He grabbed the ring box also by the flowers. He opened it up to reveal a golden ring the inscription inside it. It read forever. And forever Kendall hoped it would be. It was just a simple ring, but Logan loved simple things.

For the rest of the time Kendall spent his time being nervous and practicing the line a few more times.

And before he knew it, he had thirty minutes to get there.

Kendall quickly left and headed towards the beach. His heart was thumping in and out of his chest practically. He was so nervous. Why did he have to be so nervous?

Kendall fumbled with the ring in his pocket and his the flowers behind his back, as he started walking towards his and Logan's special place. He was a little uncomfortable because he was wearing fancy shoes, a nice dress shirt and expensive pants. But it was all for Logan.

Kendall loved Logan with all of his heart and he couldn't wait to marry him. They would be together forever. Adopt some kids, get a family dog, and live together until they were old. But throughout their lives they would be in love with each other strongly.

As Kendall turned the corner to their secret place, his heart was thumping so loud that people in New York could probably hear it.

Kendall had finally made it to their secret spot only to see Logan and James in a lip lock. They were kissing each other softly like they were in love. Like how Logan kisses Kendall. Logan's arms were around James's neck and James's hands were on Logan's waist.

Kendall felt his heart drop and his heart break this was not happening. He watched the flowers fall to the ground in slow motion.

The sudden noise made James and Logan break apart. Once Logan saw Kendall his eyes went wide.

"Kendall!" Kendall felt the tears in his eyes and the pain sear through his chest.

NO! Kendall thought.

"It's not what it seems!" Logan yelled.

Kendall forgot about the pain for a moment he was angry. "What is it then?!" Kendall screamed. His voice was thick with pain and anger. "WHAT!" Kendall sobbed. "TELL ME, THEN WHAT IS THIS?"

Tears were falling down his face so fast Kendall was surprised that the beach didn't flood.

"Kendall," Logan's voice was soft and sad. "I-I-I don't really love you anymore."

Kendall felt his heart break even more. "what?" Kendall's voice was soft, he was trying to keep his tears at bay. But it wasn't really working.

"Why, w-w-what did I d-d-do wrong?" Kendall sobbed. "W-We were s-s-supposed to b-b-be together f-f-forever." Kendall fell down to his knees right by the flowers wilting. It was a sign.

James stayed silent throughout the whole conversation.

"I, I don't know, Kendall. I was going to tell you, but I got scared. And I fell for James."

Kendall spared a look at James, he looked guilty. It all made sense Logan and James have been spending all of their time together lately.

Kendall let out a heartbreaking sob as he scrambled up to his feet. He couldn't take it anymore. He grabbed the ring out of his pocket. He hated it now. He threw it to Logan. "I was g-going to a-a-ask you to m-m-marry me L-Logan!"

Logan paused. "Kendall."

"NO, SHUT UP, YOU LOVE ME!" Kendall screamed. Logan looked toward the ground a few tears in his eyes, "I used to." He whispered, but Kendall heard him.

He sobbed as he ran away from their once secret spot, but now it was James, and Logan.

"NO, NO, NO, LOGAN, I love you." Kendall cried as he reached his vehicle. He got in and sobbed against the dashboard. "L-L-Logan." Kendall sobbed. His heart was in half. "N-no."

Kendall was able to drive him back to his own house, not his and Logan's.

Once he reached inside he ran toward their once shared bedroom and sobbed.

Kendall's cries never seemed to cease. And as the night passed his heart only broke even more. What was he supposed to without Logan? What? They were meant to be together.

Their plans were ruined. There would be no future with Logan. He would just be by himself forever. "Logan, I-I-I love y-y-you!" Kendall sobbed into Logan's pillow. Wasn't it just last night that he slept here.

There would be no marrying, no children, no dog, no shared house, no kissed, there would be nothing.

Kendall laid there the rest of the night regretting ever falling for Logan, and regretting that he would spend the rest of his life over the thought of him and Logan.

His cries never stopped for the rest of his life.

Author's note: I'm sorry, don't kill me. *Tears* How was it?