Summary: She doesn't know who she is anymore and she cries inside. What should Kagome do? She just can't take it anymore.
A/N: The songs in here WERE NOT written by me. These songs are copy-righted and owned by Jinxed.
Guide:
Italics- Song
Bold- Kagome's Thoughts
Regular- Conversation
I Can't Take It…
Who is this girl?
She's driving in the rain,
And she's listening to the songs,
That she knows will bring her pain.
I don't even know who I am anymore. My life is too complicated. Am I the school girl from Tokyo? Am I the Priestess from the Feudal Era? Or worse... am I only Kikyo's reincarnation? I'm so lost…
Reflecting on her life,
Contemplating every move,
She apologizes for all her wrongs,
Even though she's got nothing to prove.
What should I do…? Should I just leave? If I leave, it would be for the best. I am nothing but a burden to the group. What purpose do I have?
She isn't allowed to be faltered,
She puts others before her,
She has to perfect even though she's the weakest.
No! I cannot leave! I can't go… at least, not yet. What would happen to Shippo? He can't lose another mother. And Sango… she can't lose another family member. But InuYasha… he would be better off. He wouldn't have to rescue me all the time. He wouldn't have to slow down all the time. I just hold him back.
She said,
Do you think I could speak?
Do you think I could breathe?
Lay your head on my chest,
Can you hear my heart beating?
If you'd only look closer,
You'll see that there's someone she's trying to hide,
If you'd only look sooner,
You'll see that she's suffering inside.
I can't take it anymore…
She's trapped between the person she is,
And the person she's supposed to be,
She fakes her smiles and she fakes them so she believes them,
She does what people tell her to,
'Cause she can't make her decisions.
Who I am, I can't show. I have to stay strong. I can't burden them anymore than I have.
So I smile outside.
So I laugh outside.
So I cry inside.
She said,
Do you think I could speak?
Do you think I could breathe?
Lay your head on my chest,
Can you hear my heart beating?
If you'd only look closer,
You'll see that there's someone she's trying to hide,
If you'd only look sooner,
You'll see that she's suffering inside.
I can't take it anymore! I'm breaking.
She's looking forward to holidays,
Because they're the only days that still have meaning.
She said,
Someone turn off the mute,
Can you hear me screaming?
Can I do nothing but weep and yell in silence?
She said,
Do you think I could speak?
Do you think I could breathe?
Lay your head on my chest,
Can you hear my heart beating?
If you'd only look closer,
You'll see that there's someone she's trying to hide,
If you'd only look sooner,
You'll see that she's suffering inside.
I can't take it anymore! I can't-
"Kagome! Let's go!" InuYasha calls.
Well here I go…
"Sorry InuYasha, I needed a break." My smile is up again.
"Feh. If you weren't such a weak human we-"
I tune him out.
"I said I was sorry."
I walk ahead of the group all the while thinking my secret chant.
Stay Strong.
A/N: Second One-shot in two days! I am so proud! Now if only I can get the other ones finished... You know the drill, after 5 reviews I'll post something new. Mabey the first chapter of my new story. PLEASE R&R! Check out my other work!