Akito's Shattered Soul
By: video-game-queen2002
Disclaimer: I don't own Akito Soma or Fruits Basket. Wish I did, but I do not... :(
A/N: I kinda used this as an outlet for my emotions... anyway, it's based on the Fruits Basket anime-Akito is having a nervous break down. For now it's a one-shot but may change later on. Enjoy and please read and review!
Akito clenched his fist as he tried to shake his thougts...
"Why was I chosen? Why me? Why am I the one who has to die?" He tried to calm himself, he hated it when this happened.
Knowing he would die because of them was bad enough, but when he found himself in this dark haze...
"I don't want to die! It's not fair! It's not my place!"
He put his hand to his hair, "Stop it." He said aloud, his thoughts pounded as his heart began to race.
"Dying for them... why? It's not my place! I don't want to die!" He closed his eyes tightly, both hands clawing into his hair.
He yelled, "SHUT UP!"
Silence... then...
"You're finished... you're going to die." He growled, he was to the point he felt as if he couldn't handle anyomore.
He sat on the floor, curling to the corner of the room and drawing his knees up, "Please! Stop it! I can't take this anymore!"
"Die... die... die..."
He sobbed feeling helpless to controll his thinking, "No more!" He wailed.
"Defeated... broken... helpless... hopless... dying... dying... dying..."
His body shook as he cried loudly, "STOP!"
His mind quieted for a few moments, he embraced the peace knowing it couldn't last long...
Then, there it was again, "Dying for the family..."
Physical pain shot through his chest.
"Dying..."
His teeth clenched, body tensing as his body went completely numb... except for the pain in his mind.
"Dying... cursed..."
His breath caught in his throat, surreal agony engulfing him. A nightmare filled with anguish... but he was awake...
"I can't stand this anymore," his voice wavered, whimpering as tears poured from his tormented teal eyes, "Please..." he gulped.
"Cursed... and..." He wept harshly, "dying..."
He shuddered as the word pierced like a dagger.
"I can't fight this..." Slowly, his resistance began to fade.
"I'm cursed and dying..."
More numbness.
"Defeat... hopeless... dying..."
He threw his head back body going rigid as his fists moved to his chest...
"AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
He screamed intensly, heart burning as more fiery mental darts ripped his sanity to pieces.
His cries continued, sweat and tears pouring...
He closed his eyes again leaning his head back and gasping for air.
He opened his eyes... his head slumped forward as icey rage filled his heart...
"They'll all suffer... there going to suffer like I suffer."
He gritted his teeth slamming his fist into the wall, "I'll show them misery... my misery..."
He chuckled lightly, "Dying... I'm dying... but they'll regret it..."
He laughed insanely, completely plunging into the darkness that had been eating him away... slowly... endless day after endless day.
And now, he had given in...