Prologue
Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned
'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no lie
I defy
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
Let's go back to the summer after tenth grade. Okay so it was only 6 months ago but so much has happened since then. The weather was great, I had just turned sixteen and I had gained an amazing step family.
Yeah, that's right Rick and Lily finally decided to get their act together. They'd been living with us for a few months by then and it was about time they made it official.
At the time it had seemed like such a great idea. I couldn't have asked for a better step father. Rick was and still is everything my father wasn't. He was perfect for my mum and for once in her life she seemed truly happy.
Gaining another younger sister wasn't quite so easy. At the time things weren't great for me at school, the guy who I thought was interested in me ended up being interested in Jessie so needless to say I was jealous. I know. It sounds stupid now, I wasn't even interested in the guy, but I was just craving the attention. I was sick of living in Carla's shadow and didn't know what to do about it.
That's where Eli came in. The gorgeous older step brother. From the first day it set eyes on him I'd always had a small crush on him. Okay, no that would be a lie. I had a major crush on him. But I knew he was out of my league so I didn't let myself think about it too often. That all changed when I became his tutor. It was like all of a sudden I was on this guy's radar; he finally knew who I was. Not that it made much difference, sure we became friends but it was nothing like the amazing romance I had imagined. It was kind of a let down really.
Which is why I wasn't too impressed with him moving in. For the first couple of months we sort of ignored each other. He was hardly ever home so it wasn't that big of a deal really. The fact that it seemed as if he wanted nothing to do with me kind of hurt. When in actual fact it couldn't have been further from the truth.
The summer after tenth grade holds many memories. Many of which I'm not proud of. Everyone sees me as this good little girl. It's about time for people to know the truth. Its time for me to come clean.
I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin
'cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind
I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming clean
Let's go back
Back to the beginning