Okay I know I have other fic's to update but this was a one shot inspired after reading chapter 181. If you would like to read this chapter youself email me and i will give you the website. (forsome reason it wouldn't let me post it on here...)
Now on to the story please review I want to know what you all think. (No flames please)
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto if I did you think I would have had Sasuke leave Sakura? sigh well neways go on to read the story.
Breaking You
by: cherryblossomgurl13
"thank you."
That day..
It was so long ago
it pains me to think about it even now.
Days... week.. Months... later
It's still the same.
I am still waiting
waiting for you to come back.
It was a cold night..
Pitch dark too.
But the moon, oh God I remember the moon...
It was a whole one... Full...
It lighted the way for you and the perilous journey that was ahead...
One that I would not be included in....
"What are you doing out here in the middle of the night." You spoke. There was trouble in your voice maybe even a hint of worry.
But I could be wrong...
I wasn't sure what to say so I quivered for a second. I knew what was going to happen.
You were leaving.
You were leaving me...
"Everyone who leaves, will have to pass through this road. Its.. Its always the road over here." I said finally wanting to break down, or scream.
Yes, screaming would be nice.
But I knew you wouldn't listen even then.
So I let it go.
I waited for you to respond.
Of course what you said was cruel..
I should have known.
You never said anything with your heart..
But those times when you did.. I cherished them dearly.. Maybe every with my life.
I loved you
and I would always..
Maybe for forever...
"You should go back to bed." he said coldly.
Not waiting to look at my reaction he brushed passed me. His shoulder lightly touching my pale one only for only a second.
But I will remember how it felt forever.
Because it's the only memory I can live for.
Even if it was only for a second.
I don't know what came over me next...
Words just kept coming out of my mouth and I couldn't stop them...
Most importantly
I didn't care.. If I was making a fool of myself. I wanted you and if this was the way to get you then I would cry my heart out until you understood.
"I was always making you angry. Do you still remember?" I said trembling while I waited for a reply.
As I thought the only one I got was a stop from you.
No head turn.
No nod.
No yes go on
or.
No I don't know.
Just a stop.
And it meant the world to me.
"When we first became genins. The day the three of us formed a group together.. The first time I talked to you alone... you got mad at me." I said softly
now that I had gotten your attention, I knew I could keep it.
Or at least for the time being.
I smiled bitterly as flashbacks of the memory played in my mind.
"I remember.. You said loneliness..is not something being scolded by your parents can compare with. Why.. Why did you just suddenly say that?" I asked my hands to my chest.
As I thought..
My heart was beating
faster then ever before.
Faster then when I thought I was going to die.
I was scared... I thought I was going to loose you.
"and... and you said.. 'You annoy the hell out of me.'"
I smiled bitterly at this one.
I don't know why.. I still don't... but I just remember smiling with my head down. Waiting for a reply. One that I knew I wasn't going to get.
And then you spoke..
"I don't remember that." you said slowly and softly. The coldness not lifted from your voice.
And you startled me for a second. And then I laughed softly.
But I wanted to cry.
Oh how I desperately wanted to cry.
But I wouldn't.. I wouldn't cry in front of you.
Not anymore..
"I thought so..It was all so long ago.." I whispered more softly then ever before. Looking back down I kept one eye on you.. The other on the ground below. You still looked interested...
Maybe even a little shocked..
So I continued..
"But... ever since that day You, Naruto, and I and Kakashi-sensai.." I stopped how could I forget them.. More importantly how could YOU forget us.
We were like you family..
"The four of us completed many missions. It was tiring and difficult..."
A image came into my head and I had to stop for a second so I could remember what had happened, we were all laughing. Naruto was eating his ramen. Kakashi reading his book.. Me trying to get you to laugh.. And you.. You even smiled a little. Yes.. It was a half smile.. But it meant so much to me.
"It..it made me happy." I said finally almost shouting it out. Why wouldn't any of this get through to you?
Why?
Didn't you.. Think of us as a family?
Like we thought of you as part of ours?
Didn't you see it?
Didn't you!
My head went back down again. My short pink bangs hiding my face.
"I know what happened to your family...b..but a thing like revenge...can never bring anyone happiness. It will not bring you happiness." I said firmly.
Of course you didn't respond so I went on...
I was determined for you to see it my way.
The way of us..
Naruto, and Kakashi.... and I
"But.. I.."
"Like I thought." you said all of a sudden.
I was so surprised that I lifted my head in shock.
"I am not like the rest of you...we have different paths...that we must take." I gripped my hands tightly into fists. Trying to get rid of the anger.
And I could tell you one thing..
It wasn't working
"When the four of us were completing missions together...I had thought that it was my path too. But after everything.. My heart tells me to do...I am a avenger this is why I am alive. I will never be like you and Naruto."
And with that...
I snapped.
I didn't care anymore...
All that I cared about was of what you spoke of over and over again.
And then I felt it.. Tears.. Cold solid tears falling down my face.
And I didn't care. I wouldn't remove them.
I knew.. That they were going to stay there whether I liked it or not.
"Sasuke do you plan on being alone again?" I finally asked.
Surprised by my own strength. I didn't even sound like I was crying.
"You were the one who told me about the pain of loneliness...an..and right know.. I.... I feel that pain...too." I said struggiling for my emotions to not take over.
"Even with family and friends... If I don't have you in my life..to me.. I .. I ..will still..I will still be lonely!" I cried out the tears now pouring down my face and you didn't care.
You didn't care one bit.
You just stood there.. Your back to me.
And I hated it.
I hated the words that came out to..
You said. "These are just the new steps our paths must take.. On our individual paths."
I gritted my teeth and tried to stop myself from talking, but I couldn't take it.
I had to speak if I didn't.. I would never get to tell you.
It was now or never..
"I like you... I like you so much I can't stand it!" I cried out. Not caring if anyone else heard it.
"If.. If you and I were together..I swear I wouldn't let you regret it! We'll live happily everyday.. We'll definitely find happiness together. I'm willing to do anything for you! So... Please stay! I'm begging you!"
I cried...
I was so sick of this. Me always being the weaker one. While you stood tall. Never hurt by anyone or anything.
You were rock solid.
I was determined to change that...
You wait... I will break through.. I will break through...
"I would kill for you...Anything.. Anything you want I will do it for you..." I cried the tears seemed to not want to stop. No matter how many times I rubbed my eyes dry.. They just seemed to keep coming back.
"Please.. Please stay here with me.. And if it is not possible.. Then take me with you.. Please take me with you!"
My head down I kept sobbing waited for a reply.
You seemed to just stand there tall with your back to me. But you seemed to be twitching.. And finally your turned around your face finally towards me only I was to sad to look up.
I was to ashamed...
And what you said.. Didn't make it any better.
"You really are...very annoying."
I looked up surprised.
Out of all the things I thought you would say.
These words were not it..
No matter how cruel you were.
And I stood there speechless.
You smiled softly.
You had finally gotten through to me and you knew it.
With that you turned your back to me and started to walk away.
Hands in pockets...
"Don't go!" I screamed my arms flailing desperately to make you stay. But you didn't seem affected you just kept walking... not caring.
Why..
I didn't understand
Why didn't you care?
Desperate I did the only thing I knew that would work.
"IF YOU TAKE ONE MORE STEP I"LL START SCREAMING!"
and all at once..
It felt like a blur...
But there you were...
Your were in back of me and I was still... very still...
I didn't know what you would do..
And I was scared to find out.
So I stayed still like a coward... Waiting for you to make the move.
"Sakura..chan" you whispered huskily
I sucked in some air in my mouth and stopped breathing all together. Anxious to see what would happen next. You never called me Sakura-chan why you would start now I didn't know.
"Thank you..." he whispered his voice deep full of emotion.
Yes.. Full of emotion.
I was surprised too.
And all I could do was close my eyes and cry.
Allowing all the tears I had managed to get rid of fall down.
And I don't remember what happened after that...
All I remember was waking up the next day confused..
I was lying on a park bench.
With only one thought in my mind..
"I had broke you.."
I smiled at that thought as I stood in front of the same bench you had laid me on so long ago.
I smiled again bitterly as I looked up at the full moon.
Just like that night.
"I hate you." I whispered bitterly into the air.
The wind taking the words away with it.
Tears wanted to fall out so badly but I wouldn't allow them to.
I was much older now.
Wiser too.. I would not allow anyone to break me.
Not after that night.
But one thing was for sure.
I would wait for you.
I will always wait.
For you to come back.
Because I will always remember that night.
When I broke you...
I broke your cold heart.
The end